31/03/08 ( It was meant to be up yesterday, but something came up and couldn't finish the post in time...)

Something is wrong with my Mozilla, and my MSN and my phone. =(

Ugh, I hate it when it comes to IT, techno, and complicated stuff. Yeesh.

My phone for example, constantly tells me that "an error has occurred while charging".

-__-"
As if lah I know what is wrong with it. Feel like getting a new one, but... *erases that thought almost immediately* my dad's gonna kill me.

Talking about which. I want a new watch too! My current one has just lost one of its' button pusher / button cover / button... cincai lah. But then again, this watch has had a long history with me and I don't think I'm ready to dunk it yet. You see, I got this one at the Sabah airport en route to Korea. The one I had just stopped working when we landed in Sabah during transit so I basically just got myself this current one and it has been with me since.

And it's actually the very first watch I bought on my own, of course with the money my dad gave, but yeah, the very first one I picked and paid for. And it's a solar charged one! If I end up going for Sukma for real, then I might get a new one lah. Might.

Talking of which, Sukma's in Terengganu this year. End of May to early June. Also meaning to say that my 20th will be spent away from home... Ahem.. Also meaning to say that I can forget about a surprise this year. Last year was just superb! And I love u guys to the bits for everything! The list is long but u know who u are lah kan.... Heng, Betsy, Seu, Mandy, Hui Ying... mum & dad and all who came lah basically. (So random.)

But going for Sukma would also mean more training and more days away from uni. And I don't even know what I'll be sailing yet. Hm. Let alone who I'll be sailing with. But, it's my last Sukma. Cause I'll be too old for the next one already... So..

...never liked making decisions.

Anyway, I'd be so lost and dead if not for the spell check thing. Because Mozilla wasn't co-operating yesterday, I had the draft in IE and when I re-opened it on Mozilla today, half the paragraph was red lined!

So Mandy, it's really not that I don't wanna do work properly lah okay?! I really do have spelling problems one!

Pics from the very stressful nights before it all ended on Saturday.

So anyway.

01/04/08

Happy April Fool's people! I don't know why people enjoy pranking others but since it's another day in the year to feel all happy and merry.. Why not. So again, Happy April Fool's.

Will be out tomorrow, Thurs whole day classes then dinner, Fri classes then dinner... And I still have yet to submit my scholarship application. I wonder when's the closing date? Need to work on my essay.. soon.

My hand still feels warm and fuzzy. And I'm smiling at the sight of something pink.

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Hm... I only understood 10% of the whole thing but I have to say that I am totally amazed and awed (is there even such a word?) with his presentation, maybe a lil' with him too lah. You try come up with a almost flawless experiment/presentation and see, u try lah!

Sharon and Mandy, haha, it was fun staring in so much amusement huh?! So fascinating.

Goes Googling... Wah, got result one leh!

*still very amazed*

It was close to a standing ovation thing lah k?! Look, it even comes before my own story leh. That's really how good it was lah.

Anyway, colloquium ended with not quite a bang, but it wasn't bad either. It was what I would say as OKAY lah, really.

I stammered the whole way, according to Mike, I somehow managed to say:
"My confederates when referring to confederates in past research''.. without me even noticing it.
But the gang did well. We kinda pulled it off lah kan?!
Hee~

Thank God for everything. For passing mocks and for handing in all assignments in time yesterday too.

I'm just really really glad that it's over. Very relieved. And happy.

More to look forward to next week... Racing tmr, outings on Mon and Tues... Wah, no need to worry for assignments... for the time being.

Happy lah!

Ahem.
A quick peek of what we have been up to.

We are not anywhere close to where we should be yet. We have less than 10 hours to our mocks and we're still .... trying (would be the best word at the moment). =/

Wish us well.

Hm.... The guys, rather only Mandy is, working on our 201 mock presentation now except that we really haven't quite gotten anywhere =(. The rest : Sharon- half sleeping, Boon Woei- sleeping, Betsy- when I last checked, was blogging and of course me, I'm here.

Hee~

I sent an sms to my parents before my short nap earlier (so much for doing work lah seriously).

Ai: Hey parents! I forgot to tell you that my friends are coming over to stay tonight and tmr night. Work issues...

20 secs later.

Dad: Pls submit permit application.

-_____-"

but so cute right my dad?!

Hey Dzof!

The hand gesture yesterday, (the one offering me help off the boat), yeah that one. I actually thought that was unnecessary... LOL. But nevertheless, it was very gentleman of you! Thank you. Didn't say anything then cause I was in no mood to talk but it wasn't because I was pissed for losing lah, u guys did well!! I guess we just screwed up a lot. But yeah, how was the prize giving?
You're probably not going to answer this anyway.

One reason why I was pissed or maybe not pissed but upset was because mid way thru the second race, on one of the tacks, Heng said:
"Ei, Jie... Your jib damn shitty today."
Ouch!

Yeah, so that was why. It's nothing really serious, he probably doesn't even remember it, but yeah. It was like a slap right across the face, some more in front of Bulat. Hmm, but usual lah.

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Yesterday, I had a little un-welcomed intruder in my room. Ugh. Heng chased it out for me last night. So I'm spending today, well, most of today cleaning my whole room up. And also welcoming a new addition from what my mom got for me from Ikea. Except that I haven't figured where can I put it. Too many things, too little space.

There, see the new rack / shelf / hanger?! And the green and blue pockets (on the floor still)?!

*Bangga moment*
I fixed it myself okay!

Now everything from under my bed is on my bed... I better get back to work when I'm done here. I like new stuff but when I can't find places to keep them... It gets frustrating. Like now.

Oh well... I'll go figure in awhile.

It's been 3 days work-free. More or less lah, not that there's no work, just that I haven't been doing any. Haha!
Mandy, don't worry, I'll get to the summaries soon. U promised not to angry anyway! Haha!
=D

So it's 201 Mocks and 204 Lab due this Fri. And it's collo on Sat. Ahhhhhhh! Damn. Let's just hope all goes well lah yeah?! There shouldn't be any reasons why things won't go well, except for the fact that none of our results are significant?! I don't wanna talk about it anymore.

Can't wait for Tioman... But it's going to have to be finals first.

The most painful things I've ever possibly been thru are:

1. Blood tests... and every other thing that requires a needle and liquid.
2. Gastric attacks, sorry, attack would be more appropriate considering the only time it was bad enough I actually needed an injection was when I was in Langkawi.
3. Getting hit by the boom does hurt, though it happens often enough that I'm more or less getting immune to it.
4. Wearing shoes that don't fit.
5. Waxing...

Which I had just gone thru.

Maybe because I get immune to pain quite quickly, the second attempt at waxing didn't quite hurt as much as the first. But it still did hurt. Just not as bad.

I figured waxing works better than shaving although it causes me to scream occasionally when the strip is being pulled. And also because waxing keeps the hair away for a longer period.

Now, don't go stare at my legs the next time u see me! It's just not right!

Coming back to why I wax-ed anyway. Because ahem, I've got training tmr and it's not advisable to wax after sun burn which I'm likely to get, though only very very minor bit during training / racing tmr. And also because it's gonna be an interesting week ahead. Understatement. It's probably gonna be a hell of a week. Maybe. Depends. I guess.

So, yup.

Lunch was not what I expected it to be. It was bad. Bad would already be a nice word to use. But the company was worth its while. So yeah... And of course, shopping never fails to make me a happy girl! Haha. I can imagine Betsy's face as I am typing this.. But really. Hee~

The happy girls today include Mandy & Ivy, both very brainy ppl but very extremely fun to shop with!! I think they were really very happy. And, I'm happy that they're happy! Haha! You feel the happiness too?

Anyway, found out Ivy faces the same situation as I do. Introducing...

My twin.

Not.

Haha!

My day was well spent. Anyway, let's see how the week goes! For some reason, I want it to be good.

I've been smiling so much that I'm finding it hard to stop now. Haha!

I'm so sleepy.


K...I like the fuzzer bob the most!
The chiffon layer's a tad bit too girly;
I like the neo wave too...
Except that I have straight hair and the hairdresser has warned me against perming.

*waves to Siti*
How did u find ur way here?!

I think I'll go for a nap.

Grrr..
I hate myself for being so weak and so-not-determined!
I am supposed to be doing my CA which is due tmr and I was about to get started... but obvious as it is, I didn't get quite far.

I was browsing thru all the online boutiques saved in my bookmarks and I only have 4 words.

I WANNA GO SHOPPING.

But I am broke super big time, not to mention the debt I owe my mom.

-___-"

Today, I almost (what's the word?)... Nvmd, janji this was what happened. More or less lah. I kinda stepped out of the car without first pulling the hand brake nor changing the gear into P. I wonder too... Thank God I didn't crash into anything.

Anyway, PT was okay this morning. Thanks to being not-so-determined, we cut short our exercise routines and it was more like a playful session than a serious one. So, wee~ No body aches this time. I like sweat when it's time to be sweaty! I think it's quite cool... and yeng!

Had dim sum lunch. I think I overdid it again. I'm feeling pathetically bloated. And that's 4 hours since I had my lunch... I've cleaned my room again, I think it's the third time this week, it's turning into an obsession. I think I'm becoming anal. I pick every strand of hair off my bed before I go to bed and when I wake up.
Boon Woei, your fault lah this!

Theoretically speaking, I am supposed to be flying to Phi today. But yes, here I am. Sitting in my room, about to start hating myself... Argh! The non-stop growling thunder isn't offering any slight kind of comfort either.
The air is so heavy. I don't wanna sigh but I just did.

I feel like cutting my hair. But I wanna keep it long this time. How? It's like, I wanna eat but I don't wanna put on weight... So susah! Maybe I should just go for a trim??

I need to go get my work done lah... I shall be more focused.

Ai Li, focus on ur work!

Thank you rain, u saved me once again!
If not, PT would have been on today, and considering I kinda just recovered from all the muscle aches from Saturday, I was pretty much dreading PT today.
But then again, PT tmr would still be the same...
*Ai Li, think! PT is good for you, train to be fit, train to be fit...*

Okay, back to today. Experiments are officially over, I have to say, I enjoyed running the experiments, (minus the recruiting participants part) but now I shall face the most un-enjoyable part of my university life - writing the darn reports and of course, the Susah Punya Sangat Susah. At least I finally learnt how to do chi-square... You don't know what am I talking about leh, nvmd, leave it to the pro, not.

Grrr.... I have 16 items on my to do list. 9 of which I have yet to complete. I want my hot chocolate.

My feet stinks! They smell like dead fish... -__-". Is it my feet or is it my shoes or is it the shoes?!

Somebody, anybody!
Tell me how to wear cute cute ballet pumps like that and not have your feet smell like rotten tomatoes at the end of the day... Please.

My feet stink so bad I think I'll go give them some good scrubbing when I'm done here.

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So yeah, as I was saying. I'm still kinda sore about Philippines, but I guess I am partially quite happy that I don't have to make any decisions / choices.

The crew that was initially supposed to be crewing for Heng in Phi.

I wish to be taller and I wish for ... no assignments too.

From left clockwise: Seu (Tommie) - you look very retarded!!, Bulat, Rafee, and me.
Photos taken in RNZYS coffee house during the MR event late January this year.

Side note,

One of my all time favorite group photo.
Have I mentioned how much I hate people who play politics to their own good?!

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I am never gonna finish 'The Perfect Storm'. It's taking me too long and... basically, I've lost interest.


I want to read this but I guess if I had any more time to spend, I should very well use it for my textbooks. Maybe after the semester ends. Maybe.

I need to learn to be less mean, more nice and more patient.

NooOoooOoo..... My lappie is failing me again! Time for reformatting again...

Considering all that's going on and how all the datelines are approaching, I pretty much figured that most of us are absolutely tired if not totally stressed. So here's a Stress Test I received from a friend via email, let's see how stressed are you!

The Banana Test

There is a very, very tall coconut tree and there are 4 animals.
A King Kong, an Ape, an Orang Utan and a Monkey passes by.
They decide to compete to see who is the fastest to get a banana off the tree.

Who do you guess will win?

Your answer will reflect your personality.
Think carefully... Try and answer within 30 seconds


Got your answer?
Now scroll down to see the analysis.














If your answer is:
Orang Utan = you're dull & normal
Ape = you're a moron
Monkey = worse, you're an idiot
King Kong = you're hopelessly stupid


....... Why?!?!?!?!?




.......



A coconut tree doesn't have bananas!


Obviously you're stressed and overworked.
Take some time off and relax!

So are u or are u not?!

One day, he looked at me and...

He said : I think I'm in love.
I smiled knowingly in return.

Alarm clock rings... Damn.

I felt like the worlds' oldest lady this morning when I woke up unable to breath properly with my chest all painful. My whole body was aching. From my neck all the way to my toes.

Okay, the toes part were a bit exaggerated but my second toe on my right foot did experience minor degrees of cramping.

It was yesterday's PT - physical training. Heng said he wanted us to be fitter for the next event. But the next event has just been canceled. Philippines is no longer on the list, a no go. I would have been really upset given the usual circumstances but this once, I was pretty relieved that it didn't work out..

I have this gut feeling telling me that things won't last long the way it is going. But anyhow, two bullets for both races today is sufficient to give me some hope that it'll be a good week ahead! I hope.

BTW, please do sign up for our experiments if you are available during the allocated time slots, please...! Please!

It was kinda refreshing sailing in the rain yesterday, I actually thought it was fun. You know how we usually go 'Run run, it's drizzling' or how we go 'It's raining, better stay in doors' and how we absolutely totally miss out on all the fun you can have while playing in the rain?! Well, I had my fair share of fun yesterday, and it was priceless...

I like this photo of me and Yvonne.
Though I look short because I am.

Photo taken during the final prize giving dinner cum party at the Royal Langkawi International Regatta earlier this year.

So much for now...

I think part of the chest pains was also due to my futile attempts in learning how to dive properly yesterday.

The Origins of Bak Gua / "Rou Gan"

You wanna know then go read from Wikipedia... lah.

Why the topic? Because I just had the toughest piece of bak gua for my dinner at 11pm. My teeth now hurt big time. I 'fell' asleep intentionally upon coming home from class and just woke up not too long ago.

Anyway, yesterday while we were completing the phases of 204 poster on MSN Messenger, I asked Mandy, "Can I blog about our experiments?"
Her reply was something like this "NO! It is not the time to blog now!".

Mandy has been super scary the past few days, but it's good thing cause it basically meant no fooling around when she is around and also when she is not.
But my dear, don't get too stressed lah okay? Not good for health! I promise we'll learn up SPSS soon so that you won't have so much problems from now on... And I'll try not to screw up future lit reviews and the APA referencing.

So talking about experiments, yeah, please do go sign up!! Topic to look out for : The Effects of Color on Problem-solving Ability. Restricted to HELP Psych students only. Thank you in advance!

Also, why do I seem to have so much time to blog?! Actually I don't. It's just that I realized it doesn't take me hours to issue a post. It takes about what, 20 minutes? So, yeah... It's really not that I have been wasting my time or that I have way more time at hand. Maybe I do tend to have a little more time than my fellow group/class/ course mates because I am as-a-matter-of-fact taking less subjects.
=P
Who ask u to take so many this semester?!

Training on tomorrow.

Dear Lord, thank you for today.

Time to take my shower and pay back my sleep debts. Hui Ying, jgn kacau I tidur!

-edited-

I'm glad that things are back to normal, more or less. It's a good feeling, nevertheless.

By the way, I'm supposed to be doing the 204 literature review for the poster which I have just passed to Betz cuz I tak tahan sudah...

So, forgive me people for being here when I damn well shouldn't.

Anyway, can't disclose too much of what I've been up to lately... Cause some of them are highly confidential and will have to remain confidential till its' confidentiality is no longer an issue.

I really <3 the spell check thing!!

So, anyway... Minor updates and bits and pieces that have happened during the past few days.

I look very Melayu... but I like-y this picture.

My new phone.
But I think I got cheated...
So don't ask any further. It's sad already.

Shopping in Blook Bangsar!
I am a very very happy girl!
(So contradictive kan?!)

I've had Mc D's 4 times in 6 days!
Fri night, Sun night, Tues night,
and for lunch today.

My diary is so filled that I'd be extremely glad to find a day with nothing jotted down.

Btw, the time table for finals is out...

Sharon was at my place today.
Doing work.... NOT!

And how naive was I to think she was actually doing work.
Actually she did do work lah... =P

And, the two 'humans' from the gang are evil.... because they ffk-ed Sharon!

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I just had to post this!

What psychology students have to say...
Notice their PM's : Kevin, Mike & Mandy- who's a full time psychology, part time business student.
Oh, and mine tooooo!

This post is starting to not make sense. Stopping here then!

Something my mom forwarded to my inbox:

Last weekend I spoke to a group in Houston and I showed them
pictures of some very famous people.

They included Thomas Edison, Cher, Walt Disney, Richard Branson,
Jay Leno, Whoopi Goldberg, Ted Turner and my hero Winston
Churchill.

Then I asked the audience what they all had in common.

Can you guess?

There were quite a few answers from the audience and they were
all wrong. It was only after I pulled out $100 and offered it
as a prize that a person in the back overcame his fear of being
wrong and volunteered the correct answer....

....they were all dyslexic!

I pointed out that the role that made each of them famous also
required a lot of reading. Do you know how hard it is for a
dyslexic person to read?

But not a single one of those great people that I cited let
dyslexia keep them from being all they were created to be.

That's why one of my most favorite quotes is, "It's not what you are that holds you back, it's what you think you're not."
I use that quote by Denis Waitley virtually every time I speak
to an audience.

Because it really speaks to the problem I think most people have
in struggling for success --- they believe they're lacking
something that, if they possessed it, would make them
successful. When the truth is, they already possess everything
they need to be successful, they just need to learn how to use
it to their advantage.

This feeling of lack can be directly associated to a low
self-esteem.

And please never forget this, "It's not what you are that holds you back, it's what you think you're not."

Yeah, I dunno why I felt like sharing this but I thought maybe it's for some motivation and encouragement. So, and yeah, I thought it was pretty meaningful.

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Today's assessment went on pretty okay. At the very least, we have successfully passed level 2 of PSY201. Level 3 will be running the actual experiments, which I'm kinda looking forward to. Let's hope for the best for everything...

Howls Moving Castle has two cute guys. But I reckon the younger one is seriously totally uber cuteness!!

- Little Mark /Marco -

Finally streamed the whole show from two different sites, both in different languages!

So much for now, off to next assignment. No more fooling around!

Tmr shall be the day!

The day for 201 assessment(s)...
We've come this far, let us go further smoothly.
*Prays real hard*

We pretty much worked through the entire of last night with the sleepover resulting in approx only two hours of sleep each, on average.
Guy and Girls, if you are reading this, have a good nights rest tonight and be at our best tmr okay?!

Emperor's New Groove was interesting.
And re-watching Monster Inc was pretty cool and all.
But Lilo & Stitch is classic.

Spirited Away turned out to be quite amusing! Except for the very pathetic ending which I feel could've been a lot better...
I know, I'm outdated.

Howls Moving Castle on the other hand, IS NOT loading!!
Ugh, Argh!!
No, I was not busy having fun.
It's all part of the work description!
I think I just made psychology assignments sound like fun. But trust me, it's really not what u think it is.

News on elections are all over the place, all I have to say is, please do be careful and cautious of your surroundings and... it shall be.... come what may.
And it's not that I'm being ignorant about it but it's because at this point of time, I have things more closely related to me that is at stake. Besides, I'm not a politics fan.
So, topic closed.

Off to creating the script for the big day.

I feel fat.

And, I fail BIG time.

Both of what I just said was supposed to be meant for yesterday but because I just didn't quite have the proper mood to write em' yesterday, it's for apparent reason, they are only appearing today.

So, yes. I haven't been going to the gym as often as I promised myself to, like this morning for instance, I was initially supposed to go for an hour or so but I was just too lazy to get out of bed. Instead, I'm now having my morning dose of hot chocolate... MmmMmm ah~

And the failing big time part, remember me saying in my previous post about finishing a chapter before crashing?! IT DID NOT HAPPEN. Honestly, I only made it to 3 lines of text. And it was bed already.

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I know I had a weird dream, a nice weird one but I can't remember what was it all about. Thus, I had no intentions of getting out of bed today. Reality is often cruel. And it can be cruel-er still. Sighs.

If only...

But no.
Training today was called off because we won't be sailing with our full crew. And training tmr, I will not be seen in action, che wah. Because the gang is coming over to configure, compile and complete whatever that has to been done before we all start living our lives on a tightrope beginning next week till the end of the semester.

I was talking to a friend a few nights back, he asked (rephrased): Why try so hard? Why bother? What do you want out of it anyway?! And then I realized, I don't really know what I want either. I've been doing what I have been doing simply because I have been doing it all these while. And I seem to be good at what I am doing, so I never really gave it much thought... I think I should from now on.

Philippines is supposed to be two weeks from now. One, I don't know if it's even confirmed yet. Two, I don't know if I can go even.

So much for trying to balance in between sports and academics. It's quite obvious that one has outweighed the other and I need to re-plan my life soon before everything I've worked hard for is jeopardize. And no, it's not as serious as it sounds but yes, I really need to re-plan what I want in life soon.

My lips are feeling really dry, it's usually a pre-falling sick sign. I so don't want and cannot afford to fall sick now. Argh....

Take good care of yourselves people...! And for the older/elder ones, happy voting!! =P

I just had to post about something today.

So, today...

As class ended at 6pm, I had a slight 'Argh' moment before I ended up taking the bus to MV anyway. So, basically long story short...

It was 6pm = rush hour /peak period. The bus was almost packed to its' limit when it got to us at the HP tower stop. Mandy and I were lucky to be the last few humans who managed to squish ourselves in before the bus driver so happily aku.tak.peduli.kalau.ada.org.terhimpit.oleh.pintu and pressed the control to shut the door close.

Anyway, that wasn't the point. We got in, paid for our tickets, I glanced around and saw Ivy standing not too far away from us. She must have walked up to Block A... I think I did wave and said 'Hi' without any sound of it actually coming out of my mouth because she had her earphones on.

2 minutes later, or so, the bus driver stopped along the road instead of turning into the PBD junction and announced: Turun sini kalau nak turun di PBD x 5/6 times. So, people from the back squeezed their way to the front to get down. Swt. Why couldn't he just open the back door lah?! No brains. Or maybe it wasn't working. Dun care.

And it was at this very moment that I turned to look for Ivy again and guess what?! She did the peace / victory sign and is was ubber cute-ness!!!!! Seriously. Given the time and place and please be reminded that we were all very squashed up. Her doing it there and then was just hilarious and cute!!

Imagine her doing that in a bus crowded with many many humans around her.
Ivy is the one in red btw.
(Ivy, u don't mind kan?!)

It was just so cute and unpredictable that I let out a very loud laugh.
And I still think it's funny...
*grins*

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I bought myself a new dress. It was on 70%! Couldn't resist.
It's pretty and I look even prettier in it. <--- Ego moment no. 4, Betsy!

My right pointy finger nail has chipped!
Oh no, my right thumb nail too.

I need to study or at least complete Chapter 7 of Infant text tonight.

Oh yeah, an encounter that made me realize the world is a small small place.
I bumped into a sailing friend while waiting for the bus at HP.
So I found out that he actually worked at HP...!!

I've got more to write, about my 'buying new phone agenda'. But I'll save it for another day.

It's best to sleep when it's raining outside! But I've got a chapter to cover before that happens. So~ Bye!

Is it insecurity? Lack of confidence? Lack of compassion for our fellow people? Or just plain selfishness?!

I was contemplating as to whether I should or should I not blog about it.

Then I read Mike's latest post. About how people only see things the way they want it to be and not the other way around. So, it was probably a coincidental coincidence that what happened had so much to do with what he said. So, I thought, I'll just blog about it.

So, I was supposed to meet up with a friend of mine who's leaving for studies to a far away land for lunch @ Times Square today. So, I very happily got dressed and refilled my wallet with 2 RM50 notes, which is all I have to spend for the remaining of this month. Then had my grandpa drop me off at Sentral so that I could reload my Touch&Go card before taking the monorail to my destination.

But as usual, I got the time mistaken and I was early. So the offices at Sentral weren't all opened yet. The watch read : 9.50am. Office notice read : Open at 10am. So I just waited patiently outside the office door with 2 other ang moh's who were there probably, I assumed, for the same purpose as I.

Then, as I was taking tiny steps around the area and just randomly looking at things while trying to look sophisticated, I spotted a man who was looking at me, staring would be more appropriate but he wasn't exactly staring either. It was kinda like a look.stare thing. So, it freaked me out. Hence, I thought to myself, just walk away slowly and everything will be alright.

But no, the man was eyeing me and he walked towards me when I made a move. So I freaked out even more and I thought, 'Quick, walk to the ang moh's!' Then, there was this pillar in front of me, so I went clockwise around it and the man kept walking towards me so I stepped back and I probably managed to say a 3 secs prayer, and I rounded the pillar anti clockwise only to see the man in front of me still.

I think at that instance, my brain was telling my heart and the rest of my body: Shit! What did u get yourself into?!

The man started talking to me in Chinese. (I was too busy thinking and didn't catch what dialect he was talking to me in.) He said in Chinese something like: I'm from Kajang, I need money to go home, I am very hungry, I got no money...... I simply said: I'm sorry, but I don't understand. Lying was inevitable. We're talking about my life here!

Then, he starting speaking in broken English. 'I just came out of jail, no money, very hungry, if u can help me, then help, I want to balik kampung no money....' I was at a lost for words, but I somehow managed to blurt this out: I wish I can help, but I can't. Then he did a lil' wave hand thing and walked away. I was relieved and it was a very complicated feeling. I don't know how to explain.

But I was freaked out enough to cancel my plans for going out. So I called Heng to come pick me up from Sentral.

The thing is. Yes, to me at that moment, I was being defensive and unhelpful because I was scared, I believed that the man was up to no good and I had to protect myself. But when I was waiting for Heng to come get me, I started thinking, what if that man really only needed a few bucks?! What if all he needed was a nice meal and sufficient money to buy a ticket back home? What if I were him, for whatever reason and I needed help and I approached a fellow citizen asking for help but was turned down. I had some money, I could have given him some, why didn't I? Because I just couldn't see things the other way around.

I just couldn't. And I don't think I would've, given the same thing was to occur again.

So, what is it? Insecurity? Lack of confidence? Lack of compassion for our fellow people? Or just plain selfishness?! Is it that Malaysia is full of crime that given a tiny act of helping requires so much consideration or is it just me being ultimately paranoid?!

Now, I am left to reflect on what I have done and what I could have done. What could I have done differently and what would have the outcome been. It's always easy to say, but doing is a whole different issue.

Seeing things not through the eyes but through the heart. What have I done, what could I have done?!

p/s: I got the photos from Darryl, they're up on Facebook. Don't think I'll be posting them here.

It's really amazing how I initially told myself, 'Today, I shall not blog because nothing out of the extra ordinary occurred'. And yet, you are reading this... Sometimes, I really wonder whether I know what am I thinking.

Anyway, the 60 mark wasn't all that hard to achieve. It was rather fun actually... It was something new lah. And I have to say, it's quite cool going around telling people 'I am from the Dept. of Psychology at HELP and we are doing a research.....' Quite cool. But I really don't feel like thinking about the next thing on the list, skipping that and moving on...

Ah, yes, you know how sometimes you feel like you don't live in reailty?! Like what you did doesn't seem real at all?! It happens to me pretty often... Like I sometimes look into the mirror and I can't see /imagine myself sailing in the sea or I can't see myself attending lectures in college. Then when I look at photo's, I go like 'Whoa, I really did that one leh' kinda thing. Very amazing but scary also.

By the way, I usually don't look into spam mails, but I thank God I did this once. I was clearing up my Gmail inbox and for once I thought, check spam only lah, see what spam do I actually receive. And yes, 99% were spam mails from I dunno who and I dunno where, but there was one that was from the experimenter reminding me to sign up officially for the experiment I did for the compulsory one hour at HELP. Lucky I saw that man, if not putih putih kena potong markah for attending but for not signing up officially.

Anyway, I actually dislike this new system thinge, I find it way too mafan. Why can't they just stick to plain ol' paper and pen lah?! I know it's important to protect the environment and all, save trees and recycle... but I really not a computer person lah, it took me 10 minutes to figure out how to sign up okay! Swt, now I feel stupid.

Tmr will be one day where I shall have all the freedom in the world because I don't have anything written in my diary which requires immediate attention. Yet. But with it raining all the time these days, I can't go slack lining cuz it'll be too muddy and I basically can't go shopping either cuz I am broke and I need to save up whatever I can for my new phone. So, yes, looks like freedom has just turned into boredom once again...

Wah, this is turning out to be longer than I expected. One of my sailing friends told me over the weekend
Him: Wah, you very discipline in updating your blog hah!
Me: *I can't remember what I answered.*

But now I know what I might have or if the questions is forwarded to me again, I suppose this will be my reply.

Me: Yeah, cuz I usually have the computer on every day and apart from doing assignments, this is what I use the computer for. And mainly also because I've got no life lah~ So sad.

Oh yes yes, a post is never complete without some random rubbish. I, today, da pao-ed Mc D breakfast for myself and Mandy cuz I was hungry and she wanted coffee. So, since I am broke, I only bought one set, I had my sausage mc muffin while she supposedly had the coffee. But she didn't like the coffee, why?! Because apparently, Mc D at PBD has changed from using Nescafe to roasted Arabica Beans for their coffee. I for one, actually prefer the new taste. But it is also possible that it was due to the two packets of sugar I added into it. Aha, who knows.

See, told you it was random rubbish! Now u believe me?!

Waiseh, it's really turning out to be longer than I had expected it to be. Considering I am just blabbing from one point to another without processing it in my brain before hand. If only it worked this way for assignments! How happy would I be...

Okay lah, before I continue with some illogical things again, here's a picture Seu took ( I believe) of me on Saturday after race.

Now that's what happens when you study last minute for exams on Saturday morning and rush off for racing right after. Sleep well people!

A good weekend of sailing never fails to make me a happier girl. The only thing is that, it's Monday tmr. Monday = Back to college day! How to continue feeling happy?! Nevertheless, it has been an awesome weekend, minus the exams and stuff, it was all good.

I'll blog more about what happened today at the races when I eventually get the photos from Darryl. No point blogging about it without photos cuz it's highly likely that only those who were there today would understand the terms I'll be using. So, yeah... Wait for photos patiently cuz I have no idea when I'll be getting them, it's possible that I'll never get them. Anyhow...

To those who were there today, thank you for coming and I'm glad you guys came.

Em... I just remembered Kevin saying that a friend of his says that she likes my blog, so, 'Hi there!' if you are reading this, I am very flattered! Really, thank you for coming by!

Yes, I am having this 'is sailing more important or is uni more important' dilemma again. I know my priority lies within studies, but going places and sailing is a once in a lifetime opportunity thing...!! I wish I... nvmd. If you were me, IF, what would you do? Skip classes for an event overseas and regret skipping too many classes? Or stay and attend classes and regret not going? Why must we make choices sometimes?!

Okay lah, before this gets anymore negative, here's something to share with you guys... Taken the night before the tragical 100 MCQ's.

Oh yeah, my Nokia resurrected from the dead! It's kinda working, kinda not. You see, the front display displays its display upside down. -__-".