Tuesday, January 31

Definitely Better Than Yesterday

Just back from dinner with the mommy and the daddy. Of course daddy paid. Teehee!

As soon as we got back home, it starting to pour. Talk about luck.

Work today was better than yesterday I guess. Felt more productive and did a reasonable amount of work. Cleared off 80 over backdated emails (yes, I am showing off because I deserve to)!

A conversation with some of the colleagues sparked my special interest. It was something about how some people develop inferior feelings towards me. That's not a good thing by the way.

People admire me I can understand, people like me I can understand. People don't like me also I sometimes understand. People hate me I don't understand but I know I can be a pain in the butt lah sometimes.

I sometimes too feel inferior to people whom I perceived are of some superior breed, like those super smart, super pretty, super fit, super all-the-good-qualities-you-can-associate-a-person-to. But people feeling inferior to me? That has to be the first I've heard.

Guess I probably should be taking is as a compliment because that'd mean that I am being perceived as the great person that I am actually not. Or, flip the coin and instead of feeling inferior to me because of all the good, it's because of all the bad... Cannot be right?!

Okay nevermind, point I was trying to make was that I hope people don't feel inferior to me, because there really isn't any justification to feel such anyway. And if there is, I'd most certainly like to understand the reasons and factors.

Taadaa, holiday again tomorrow for us KL folks. And another 2 days off next week! How awesome is it to be in Malaysia! :D


Sad, my red highlights are no longer red. It's only been a month!

Thinking of putting in some sailing tomorrow since some of the guys are gonna be training. Hope it works out!

Monday, January 30

听不懂,但是好好听哦!



歌词是有点难倒我了,可是还是觉得很好听。

你是魔鬼中的天使。。。

好深,不明白。算了!

I Am A Big Girl, And I Don't Cry

Because Fergie said so. She said, big girls don't cry.

I don't like how you're still the first person that I think of when the going gets a little rocky. Sigh. Unresolved attachment issues right there. It's not the first but still, it's so bad.

Work was a little tough on me today, not that I got into any trouble what-so-ever, neither did I cause any major mistake. It's just one of those times whereby you know you didn't have a good day. Felt unproductive, was definitely under performing too. It's not that I am not trying, but trying just didn't seem good enough today.

Got to work harder tomorrow. *pulls imaginary socks up*

Because she said so.

Sunday, January 29

Are You Kidding Me

Both brothers have gone back to their respective "spots", for the lack of a proper term.

I was just wondering to myself today, what would it be lack to have a memory loss, say amnesia?

One day you wake up and don't remember a single thing. You don't remember who you are, you don't remember the people you cared about, you don't remember the bad things that happened, you forget everything that mattered. You are back to being a blank state.

I wonder what it would feel like. To not remember anything.



You Should Have Super Long Hair






You are free spirited and carefree. You are a total wild child, and no one is going to tame you!
Your hair tells people that you're an individual who doesn't care what other people think. You and your hair break all the rules.


You are a mysterious type who has many secrets. You prefer to keep to yourself.
There's a lot hiding behind that hair. Very few people truly understand what you are all about.


Should be sailing again soon. Should also start utilizing the blender Heng got for me for Christmas.

Back to work tomorrow; have a great Monday people! :D

Hello You, Wherever You Are

Lappie is running low on batt, Heng's using my charger because he left his in the States but he's going back tomorrow already, in any case that was beside the point... Point was I need to make this short and simple because my battery is gonna go flat any minute now.

I keep eating so much seriously it is not funny anymore. Even daddy said today I am gonna need to go on a diet after this. Sighs.

Had some other stuff to write about but I don't think my batt is gonna hold so maybe later tomorrow when I get my charger back.

I hope Baby Amanda can fit into the items I bought for her. *crosses fingers*

Saturday, January 28

Would Love To Have A Cup Of Coffee Now

Yay! I finally have an identification card that I am not afraid to show people! :D

It's 2am, and I have a meeting to discuss sailing stuff at 10am tomorrow morning. That's less than 8 hours of sleep tonight, crap eye-bags. T__T

"You ke ni..? Muka sudah tembam..."
"You haven't been sleeping well is it?"

>(

Two comments I takeaway from today/ yesterday. The first was by the guy at the counter when I collected my IC. He basically meant, "Is this you? Your face fat already.." FML.

And then the latter comment was from a friend. I some more thought it was because my eyeliner smudged or something but my eye-bags are really pretty massive. FML take two.

拜年-ed at Kevin's today, butter vegetarian dish! Yums to the max. I almost feel bad for my stomach for having to process all that food and then have me complain about how huge it is and how I hate it so much. Poor tummy.

The holiday week is coming to an end. And it all begins once more.

Thursday, January 26

Definitely A Low




I really really don't like this all that much at all.





ARGH

Hate it. HATE IT.

*pause*
*breathe*
*exhale*

"I am pretty... ugly. From the outside to the inside. What's the recipe for being pretty inside and out?" Sometimes, I think to myself.

Alright, rainbows and butterflies...


How cool is this! =)

Wheee, just got back from Tao's Jap fusion buffet lunch with the colleagues/ friends. Sashimi, teriyaki lamb, scallops... Yummy, ate too much though. Fat, as always, just fatter now.

Dinner last night was pretty heavy too. There was fried sotong in freaking butter sauce! Episode nom-noms again. How to lose weight like this! #fail

It poured like mad for a bit in the city last night, think some places must have flooded. Whenever it rains now and then, I still think of you. It's like arthritis.

Shopping with Betsy yesterday at OneU, I happy! Didn't buy a lot but happy nevertheless. I miss you loads. No matter how busy we are in future, we must make it a point to spend more time together kay?!

Had Chatime for the second time in 2 days, simply because Chatime in BV is awesomely Q-less (so far)!

People really shan't be angry at the world. It doesn't do the individual any good, one. And two, people will get fed up with you after awhile. And then you only become angrier because you realize no one listens or cares anymore. People shan't be angry too often pretty much. It causes wrinkles too!

What to do?

Wednesday, January 25

Just Have To Try Harder



Dear me,

Because the best is all that one can ask for.

So until you've given your best, don't pull the plug on yourself.

Sincerely,
Me

Tuesday, January 24

Tall, Taller, Tallest

Okay, I tried uploading the video of us trapeze-ing the whole entire afternoon (between poker games) and it still has not succeeded so I am gonna give up. It's either a codec issue or a something else that is beyond me therefore, no videos for you peeps.

Breakfast was mamak today, followed by McD lunch, prosperity burgers and curly fries. And I had Chatime from BV, no Q at all.

And since then, it was poker all the way up until now. We've found a new game anyway, on our cellphones. It's called Crack The Code. It's actually Mastermind, except, played on the phone which is so much more convenient.

We're trying to decide what to have for dinner now.

Feeling lethargic to the max. Maybe I need my caffeine fix after all.

To the second day of the 2012 Chinese New Year...


This photo just makes me laugh. <3

Monday, January 23

Dragon Babies

There's just this thing about the term dragon babies. I like the ring to it. Dragon as in like rawr, fiery, spit-fire, don't come close kinda aura; and baby like awww shoo cute I-wanna-pinch-your-face kinda vibe.

Well, anyhow anyway...

Am back from ClubMed, it definitely isn't the kinda place for a person who wants to just sit back and relax to go to. Think sports, think activities, think challenges. Trapeze was probably our most favorite activity. Vids soon!

And because it was an all-inclusive holiday, all meals and activities are free / paid for. Free flow of alcohol too. :D I enjoyed the holiday. It was refreshing and there were a lot of interesting people. Bonding time was a definite plus.

Just a thought. At the end of the day, maybe it's me who's jinxed after all. Maybe it's just meant to be this way, and it will remain such. Maybe. Who knows.

For now though, it's the season of red packets, good food and family gossips get-together's. <3

Thursday, January 19

Being Human Is The Most Terrible Loneliness In The Universe


- Astronaut, Simple Plan; AA Attanasio

Took Mommy's new ride for a spin this morning, awesome possum! Process manja/brainwash/manipulation begin! Teehee...

ClubMed today; bye people, have a great weekend and be safe on the roads! <3

Wednesday, January 18

至少还有你



如果全世界我都可以放弃, 至少还有你值得我去珍惜
也许 全世界我都可以忘记, 就是不愿意失去你的消息

Definitely one of my most favorite Chinese songs. =)

Baby cousin in the house, cute-ness overload. So much laughter. It's been awhile. I am missing the other baby cousin now, if only the United States of America was not that far away.

I don't know, I hope you are alright. If what I know is the truth, I really hope you are alright. I can't say I share your sentiments or that I can understand what you are going through because quite frankly I don't, and I hope it'll never happen to me because I don't know if I'll be able to handle it.

But bottom line is, it's okay to be emo, just don't wallow in it for too long, it'll be hard to get out of it.

I was emo earlier today too. Probably not enough sleep and nothing seemed to go right, but thank you, you know who you are and that awesome Hot Chocolate - it was super yums lah! And a good 2 hours of sleep later, I think I am alright now.

ClubMed tomorrow yo, and there's a new spanking white Peugeot sitting in the garage now! =)

Monday, January 16

Writing From The Work Station

For some odd odd reason, being in the office, alone, after work hours, gives me this sense of serenity. Sounds absurd? I know, but it does.

Maybe it's just the whole alone time factor. I, need alone time more than I think I do sometimes.

Today, my alarm didn't ring for the second consecutive work day. So I was late for work. By 20 minutes. And I left my phone at home. Which actually isn't too bad.

Works's been alright, all downs have matched ups so it's all balanced. Tomorrow is my last day in the office until after the Chinese New Year break. I feel slightly guilty for ditching the rest at this point but they'll manage.

People are actually nice. We just need to show them that we're nice too.

There are perks to this job. Like students presenting us with gifts, mostly candies and chocolates and edible stuff. I like interacting with students too. Someone once asked me, what makes me happy? I think my reply was along the lines of, I am happy when I see other people happy.

It's true, I am doubly happy when it is because of me that someone is happy. As in, if it was because of something I did, or if I had in any small way contributed to that person's smile, I'd feel happy. But it's also true the opposite. If a person is sad because of me, or because of something I did, I'd be miserable.

It never occurred to me that my defence mechanism was internalization but it could just very well be.

So, what makes you happy??

Someone said today that there must be students who have developed crushes on me. It's a fascinating idea, one that I had not considered, but yeah, would be interesting to note albeit it being against the rules to date students.

Ate too many cookies today, not enough water. Errands waiting for me back at home, I should head home soon, cut short this whole alone time. Maybe I should leave home without my phone more often, feels like a detox session.

Messed up student names today, so bad.

On the bright side, when things seem like they can't get any worse, they usually don't. Because the only thing left possible is for things to get better.

Email server was down the whole of today. So no work emails at all this whole entire day. I hope the tech department sorts this out quick, at least before I leave for that holiday. Otherwise, I sense angry students when school re-opens after the CNY break.

I talk too much sometimes. I shall be more quiet, talking is tiring.


I hope Monday's been good to you guys too! <3

Sunday, January 15

A Semi Proper Update

Will be meeting some Singaporean sailing friends for coffee later at 12 and they'll be driving home overnight. I hope I won't be too sleep deprived for work tomorrow too.


Anyway, on to updates. Or backdates. Or whatever it is called.


Today, I walked from KLCC to Times Square after meeting up with another sailing friend at Starbucks talking about some budgeting and running a somewhat sailing exhibition sorta kinda. Shopping was good, happy buys, all except for that one red dress which is a tad too tight, but pretty nevertheless. Potentially gonna be a gift to someone. Oh, and Heng is back from Langkawi too.


Yesterday.. I can barely remember. Hmm. What did I do? Right, I was out with Apple in the morning, also a sailing friend, we had this super long bf and talked about stuff and it's always amazing talking to her, she is one of those who seems to always be able to make something good out of something bad. If you understand what I mean. Anyway, after that was an hour or so in the office to clear off some work and Mid Valley with the girls. Some shopping achieved. Facial with the mommy afterwards.


I think I can't keep up the this updating and backdating thing. It's too much to stomach, too much to process. -__-


But anyway, highlights instead.


Went out on Friday night, it was an interesting experience. Apart from that, it's been pretty much work and more work and more work. But I am pretty sure that it isn't as bad as it sounds lah, because hey, I am still alive and kicking and not complaining.


Spending way way way too much for my own good. 


A quick follow up on my 2012 to do list:
  1. Travel to 2 countries/ places I have not been to before. - Headed off to Club Med Cherating with the family this week!
  2. Submit applications for Masters.
  3. Invest in hair care treatment.
  4. Bake a cake.
  5. Wear a dress once a week (unless special circumstances). - So far pretty successful
  6. Wear heels once a week (unless special circumstances). - So far not very successful
  7. Red highlights for the hair before mid year. - checked
  8. Do charity work / volunteer.
  9. Go for a full medical check up.
  10. Keep my hair super long.
  11. Get a new pair of glasses.
  12. Re-start up HELP Sailing Club.
  13. Use a satin pillow case.
  14. Buy a satin pillow case.
  15. Do something nice for one person (or more) each day.
  16. Smile and say Good Morning to the first person I see every day. - So far so good
  17. Go climb Mount KK. - Seems to be on track, paid the first down payment
  18. Get a second opinion on the wisdom tooth.
  19. Drink more water. - So far so good
  20. Play volleyball. - Played once so far, in my garage with the lil one
  21. Not use work as an excuse to not sail. - Getting there
  22. Go fly kite.
  23. Go for a picnic.
  24. Do something crazily spontaneous, like an impromptu trip somewhere.
  25. Try something completely new, can be anything from food to a new experience.
  26. Make 10 new friends and remember them. - Definitely good progress
  27. Eat more fruits.
  28. Finish watching everything in my external hard disk.
  29. Read up on NPD.
  30. Either read and return The Lucifer Effect, or return it without reading anyway.
  31. Only make promises that I can keep.
  32. Quit impulse buying. - Not too good
  33. Do the sailor nails, this! Only at Beauty Base! For my birthday maybe hmmm.
  34. Avoid showering late at night if I can help it. - So far so good
    Non quantifiable items
  35. Trust more.
  36. Talk less, listen more.
  37. Be more social.
  38. Be responsible.
  39. Be patient.
  40. Take less, give more.
  41. Forgive and forget.
  42. Love, don't hate.
  43. Make time for those who matter.
  44. Eat healthily.
  45. Be kind to others.
  46. Remember that respect is earned.
  47. Be brave.
  48. Do not envy, do not be jealous.
  49. Have a big big heart.
  50. Be nice to people.
Okay, that's it for now, Heng wants to use the lappie. 

Good night people of the world, sweetest dreams!

Saturday, January 14

Saturday, January 7

蓝牙

Do you know what that is?

It's actually the Chinese equivalent for Bluetooth. No joke, I heard it on the radio! xD

Anyway, Heng is home! But he don't wanna give me my presents. So I don't like him.

I hope I am not falling sick because it sure feels like I am about to. :(

Won't be updating frequently for the time being.

Don't miss me too much! :)

Thursday, January 5

Running Low On Positive Vibes

I don't know if it's me, but I am sure we can tell whether a person doesn't like us. Rather, I am sure I can tell when a person doesn't like me for that matter. And because I am big on the whole I need want people to like me, it only makes me more sensitive to such cues.

The aura of dislike, as I would like to call it, was so immense. It was almost uncomfortable being there. But the thing is, I have absolutely no idea what have I done wrong to the said person. I am pretty damn sure that there was no way I could have offended that person anyway, there just never was any chance to have done so, therefore that simply cannot be the case.

Speaking of which, I had to answer a phone call today. And we do deal some pretty unique creatures from time to time, asking us the most random questions and we usually take it all in stride and be the big person, but today, there was this one phone call, that really annoyed me. Maybe also because I have been running around the whole entire day, so that didn't help either, but anyway, point was...

The person on the other line, was just plain rude. And I would think that if you need my help, you at least be courteous enough and not play the whole it's-all-your-fault game when you haven't even gotten your facts right. All I am trying to do, is help you get what you need, so you trying to be difficult doesn't make it any better and also, if you wanna be rude, at least be cooperative so that I don't have to ask you the same question 3 times just to get the information I need to get you what you want!

My gosh I am so long winded. But it's my blog, so I get to rant, with limits.

But anyway. I think I make good sense. The funniest bit was: ... can you call me now? And as my patience was already pretty damn low, my response was, Sir, I cannot call you now because I am still on the line with you. *silence* 

That was an epic moment right there.

I did call the person back after getting the person the information needed anyway. And the person was apologetic on the phone which I thought was alright so apology accepted.

So, the conclusion of both situations in the above is, don't dislike people for no apparent reason because it makes them uncomfortable. And two, don't behave like a brat if you're going to say sorry afterwards because sorry is just a five letter word that really doesn't serve much purpose especially after damage is already done.

Okay only half kidding. Moral of the story is, mostly for myself to takeaway:

One, don't give people the vibe that you don't like them if you can help it because not only will that make them feel uncomfortable, it also doesn't do you any good.

Two, don't over-concern yourself with what other people think. What they wanna think is beyond your control, as long as you know you've done nothing wrong to hurt the person, you should be alright.

Three, don't be an ass just because you think you deserve to be one, you don't. And really there's no point saying "oops sorry", when you know full well that it could've been prevented in the very first place. All that you needed was to use some of that human decency element.

This is a pretty wordy post. Sorry to bombard you with so many words on a Thursday night.

I probably wouldn't have made it through today feeling decent if it wasn't for the people I work with. Such a strong support system. <3

Met up with sailing friends from Singapore for dinner.. I wish tomorrow could've been a day off, then I can go play in Sunway Lagoon with them. 

But.. I am a big girl now, and I have priorities. So, you work hard, you get to play hard. That's how it is. Plus, dinner will be at some fancy-pancy Italian restaurant tomorrow! Colleagues/ friends birthday celebration! Yeehaa...

It's gonna be a good Friday, have a good Friday everyone, don't forget to TGIF too! =)

Wednesday, January 4

Saved Or Ruined By The Chocolate Bar

I still cannot determine.

Sure I'd feel way healthier right now had I not finish the whole entire bar. But, would I be feeling okay now had I not taken that bar of calories? Something to ask myself, no answer, doubt I'll ever solve the mystery.

So anyway, the gist of it was that I hadn't sleep very well and I had to be up earlier than usual today because of the whole organization of the workshop which I guess took off on a sorta kinda good start today.

More people realized the red highlights too. All positive comments thus far, happy feet me! :D

*positive vibes* ... *positive vibes*

I have got a question. Do doggies drink milk? I am pretty sure they do. But mommy says, Scottie is not a cat, why are you feeding him milk?

On to a funny story. I have a friend who is a professional emcee. The other night, I had a dream, and I don't remember a lot of details but in the dream, he was hosting an event and he started singing a song and everyone in the crowd was just cheering..

And then my alarm rang, and what would you expect? It was exactly the same song that was playing on the radio!



Which bring me to another cutesy moment in the office last week. It was one of those 'N Sync fan girls moment and we were playing their songs in the office after office hours and as the songs were played by random, Ivy was throwing out suggestions...

She said, this is for him..
And then, this is for her...

How cute. I like this one though.

/yawn

Another early morning tomorrow... Sleep tight, sweet dreams! :D

Tuesday, January 3

Sometimes, Somethings, Just Are

I don't always say this, but right now, I really wish I could turn back time.

Bed time, long week ahead! Love you all..

Monday, January 2

It's Because I Am Special Lah

Have you not figured that out? Or has it not occurred to you?

That silly smile of yours... was what little brother had to say.
"Of course I know lah, that silly smile of yours."

It's kinda funny. Having the conversations I have with the little brother nowadays, and seeing how much he has grown. From the tiny cute little thing who couldn't speak a word, to the mini-disaster-pain-in-the-butt he was for the past 10 years or so, to the current boy/teenager/man he is today.

It's amazing. Physically now I already have to look up to him, I am thinking it won't take long for me to be looking up to him mentally too.

Like a proud sister.

The other brother who decided to become my twin exactly 13 years ago.. Well, he's already way ahead of me. But that's okay, because I like it that way. And I am extremely proud of him too.

Another 5 days or so, and the awesome siblings reunite! Ahhh, can't wait. <3

Sunday, January 1

I OCS-ed

I started my FTIWD in 2012 (Fifty Things I Will Do) List yesterday. Who likes surprises? It has something to do with the color red and hair.

And my dad's a joker.

Dad: .. is it disgusting to eat ice cream while shitting?
Wes and myself: It is disgusting to eat anything while shitting.

Had some vball fun with the little one. Fulfilling.

Oh, and thanks for calling you..

Have a great 2012 everybody; dragon babies around the world, it's our year, let's make it count! :D