Learn This

If you want to give others a hard time about their opinions,

the least you can do is to stick to your own effin plan and prove to the person that their train of thought was indeed flawed.

3 Slices of Bread with Cream Cheese and Peanut Butter Spread, 1 Bowl of Porridge & 1 Cup of Coffee Later..

TELL ME HOW I AM NOT GETTING FAT!

And that's only for bf mind you. Arghhh!

I keep saying it is because of the cold, but heck, I think I just like eating too much.

If there's one thing that is well on way, it is me getting fat. T__T

Don't worry, I am not anorexic nor bulimic!

I just can't help complaining that I am eating so much. Pft.

I Am Getting Fat and Fatter

Le sighhh...

Okay, it's not all bad. The flight was bad - only because it was wayyyy too long a flight.

Apart from well, getting really fat and the annoyingly long flight, it's all good.

If you hadn't know, I am in the States with both the little brothers.
Bonding time! <3

It's winter, and it's cold duh! It's going to get a lot colder come the weekend (Malaysian folks, I am one day behind you guys).

Good thing is, I get to play dressing up for winter!!

So much from me for now! Tata!

Psych Student Effect

Perhaps, I am bipolar.

Right after I hit "post" on the earlier entry, I wonder how on earth did I come up with such a depressive entry.

Oh well.

Monologue

Since when did things become this way?

Since when did I realize I am so helpless?

Since when...

Ignorance never is bliss because like I was once mentioned..

Your past will always come back to haunt you.

And in my case, it has.

Probably not just my past is messing with me.

I reckon everything is playing games with me.

And yes, I am victimizing myself.

Pity me please.

Random thoughts

*scoffs*

Sometimes, I can't help but shake my head in dismay as I read what and how people write/ comment/ say without really realizing what is it they are saying.

But I guess this may very well be happening to me.

You may be reading this and thinking, "What is wrong with her!"

So oh well, sendiri happy cukup lah kut...

Good News!

Things are under control!

:)

I am PROBABLY stressed

And I want to cry.

But I do NOT want to talk.

So leave me alone. PLEASE.

Just know that I am not in the best of shape.

Why is my esteem so bloody low.

100% Private and Confidential, Not

Reasons why I was cranky and yelling into the phone last night:

• Insufficient sleep
• Body aches
• Stress
• You - I don't hate you and I don't still like you but why do my emotions take such a big turn whenever it has anything to do with you?

Maybe I still do like you after all.

Mehh.

Obsessed with Daiso

Mandy, yes and it is all your fault!

Today, I got myself a box separator at RM5! Technically speaking, everything in Daiso is RM5. While some items are a real bargain at RM5, some things are not. You just really have to use your brain to manually think "Is this pen really worth RM5??", that sorta thing.

Would've been great if they had a pink one but I'll make do. The only flaw about this container is that I can't fit items that are too 'big'. Don't argue with me, it's just what it is.

So as you can see, I am using it to store my earrings for when I travel. The first shot is merely to show off how many pairs of dangly earrings I own, I have ten dozens more studs which are stowed away in my pink heart storage boxes.

And sigh (a very loud one). I lost one side of my real gold heart stud which was a present from my dad for my 12th birthday or something. I don't even know where or when it came off. :(

Should attempt to resume what I should be finishing off before I head to bed... like waxing my legs. T__T

Why hadn't I done it any earlier?

I totally forgot.

All In One

You know how when you have too many things to consider / mention / rationalize / share, it all becomes one huge puddle?

Like.. how one tiny cloud connects with another and another and another and eventually becomes one huge storm cloud and down pours the rain??

Okay lah, before I turn to sound all melancholy, I shall stop with the description. Basically, all I am trying to say is that I have a lot of different topics to talk about today and so yes, you have been forewarned, it is another verbal diarrhea post.

In no particular order... we shall begin.

Sailing talk:

I was randomly reading some news articles about the AG and came across one that states our sailing contingent is expecting a total haul of 5 medals! First thought that came to my mind, "Wah, .... seriously?" =o

Not that I didn't have the faith but 5 medals, that's quite a bit. It was a double "Wah, .... seriously?" when I saw who was expected to produce to medals. -___-

And so, I have been religiously following the results here. And lo and behold, it sure doesn't look too good so far with 4 races completed.

Well, all the best you guys, better start bucking up if 5 medals was what you 'promised' to deliver!!

Personality talk:

Why do I so consistently contradict myself? I don't feel real anymore sometimes lah sometimes.

Do you ever experience periods in time whereby you just don't feel like interacting but you also don't want to shut yourself from the rest of the world and by doing so, you end up being a pissy human being to those who so innocently try to hold a conversation with you?

Or am I just plain weird?

Travel and living:

I believe I am a amazing packer! Seriously. But there's a problem... I always end up with boring pieces of clothing. Then again, traveling light and comfort is number one.

Okay, Scottie just came in and is staring at me with his puppy eyes so I am gonna cut this short and go play with him now.

Till we meet again!

New Word of the Day

u·biq·ui·tous/yo͞oˈbikwətəs/

Adjective: Present, appearing, or found everywhere: "his ubiquitous influence".

Google search.

Random thoughts

Prelude: Why do I have a stupid boy for a brother?

Is it about being at the right place, at the right time, with the right people??

Is that what people term as the golden opportunity?

Or are coincidences just pure bullshit that puts your hopes up and then some time later, let you free fall from the highest point?

Something doesn't feel right today.

Ah I know, my clothes feel tight, I feel fat.

Facebook Tag

Once you are tagged. Answer all the questions honestly, no lying to avoid stuff.

Starting time: 10.43 pm

Name: Ai Li Ng

Brother(s): 2

Eye Color: Brownish black

Shoe size: As of late, I realize that my feet shrinks and expands pretty dramatically.. weird eh?

Hair: Brown, but that's really due to dye

Piercings: 4 pairs

Height: 155+ cm

What are you wearing right now?: Pajamas

Where do you live?: In a nice enough neighborhood

Favorite number: 5

Favorite drink: It really depends on the occasion, but my staple, I'd say Teh Si Bing

Favorite month: June

Favorite breakfast: Anything homemade / prepared from the heart

-Have You Ever-

Broken a bone: No

Been in a police car: No

Fallen for a friend: No

Fallen for a guy/girl in a short period of time: Positive

Swam in the ocean: If the sea and ocean are equivalents then yes.

Fallen asleep in school: Yes, Add Maths and Sejarah

Broken someone’s heart?: No?

Cried when someone died?: Yes

Sat by the phone all night waiting for someone to call: No

Saved e-mails: No

Been cheated on: Wouldn't know; wouldn't want to know either

-What-

Is your room like?: A room, a very pink one

What is right beside you?: The window

What is the last thing you ate?: Snowflake dessert

-Ever Had-

Chicken pox: Yes

Sore throat: Duh

Stitches: No

Broken nose: No

-Do You-

Believe in love at first sight?: Yes, still do

Like picnic?: Absolutely

-Who-

Who did you last yell at?: Someone who was freaking stupid

Who was the last person you danced with?: I honestly cannot recall

Who last made you smile?: Scottie

-Final Questions-

What are you listening to right now?: I Will Be - Leona Lewis

What did you do today?: Hang out, watched 2 movies in a row, celebrated a birthday & had an awesome time!

Diamond or pearl?: Diamonds

Are you the oldest?: Among my siblings, yes, among other things, no

Indoors or out doors?: Out

-Today did you-

Talk to someone you like?: Yes

Kiss anyone?: Does Scottie count?

Sing?: Yes, karaoke in the car

Talk to an ex?: No

Miss someone?: Yes

Eat?: Rolls eyes

-Last person who-

You talked to on the phone?: SuSu

Made you cry?: Channing Tatum in Dear John

Went to the movies with?: Craig and Fariz

You went to the mall with : Mom

Who cheered you up?: Mandy Kok

-Have you-

Been to Mexico?: Nope

Been to USA?: Yes

-Random-

Have a crush on someone?: Right now, no.

What books are you reading right now?: The Leader w/o a Title and Eat, Pray, Love

Best feeling in the world?: Making someone else's day and knowing that what you did made a difference

Future kids names?: .............

Do you sleep with a stuffed animal?: I don't sleep with them, they sleep with me.

What’s under your bed?: Clothes I do not wear but refuse to give away

Favorite sport(s): Sail

Favorite place?: It can be anywhere really, as long as it allows me to feel at ease

Who do you really hate?: Hypocrites, not that I am not one myself

Do you have a job?: HAHA, professional bummer if I may say

What time is it now?: 11.17 pm

I won't tag anyone but if you're lacking inspiration, these things are fun to do!

My Love for Pink Things

You and I both know that I have a particular fancy for all things pink.

But never did I realize that I own that many pink items!

FYI, doggie isn't a pink object neither will I have him dyed in pink. He just so happened to be so cute that I couldn't resist posting his photos up as well.

I am pinki-er than I have ever expected! :D

Going Through Old Albums; Nostalgic

I don't know if it occurs to you too but every single time I look at old photos, I feel an extreme sense of fondness to the past, which makes me want to go back in time.

Jinx living in the present lah!

And the not-so-new function on FB which allows us to view past albums doesn't make this any easier.

Anyway, since the nostalgic feeling is already induced, I am gonna share with you people some notes I made when I was in the States back in May/ June.

Happy reading!

Note I

I sometimes feel the world resolves around me. But I know, and we all do, that that is not the case. It is therefore fascinating for me (at least) when things go my way without much of a hitch. It is because of this that I know I am truly blessed. =)

ai, 13/6/2010

Note II

The train conductor spoke to me and among other things, he said, You're a nice person with a good personality, I hope you find a nice guy who appreciates you...

The world is filled with good people, if only we choose to believe and trust.

ai li, 13/6/2010

Note III

Today, I saw an old couple holding hands and sharing laughters as they strolled through the pretty gardens of Huntington's Library.

I made a wish as they walked pass me probably too absorbed in their own blissfulness to notice I was looking at them intently.

My wish... was for more marriages to have this sorta ending.

Then maybe, perhaps, I can start believing in happily ever after's once again.

ai, undated

***

I have just made a decision - I will let the bangs grow.

Quotes From One Of The Books I've Been Reading

• Disruption is usually the beginning of real improvement showing up.
  
  
• The old needs to be cleared out before space for the new and better can arrive.

Thinks to self: How apt!

• Problems are only problems when we make them problems.
  
  
• Speaking honestly > receiving approval of others.

The Most Beautiful Infinity Pools

Golden Triangle Resort - Chiang Rai, Thailand

Ubud Hanging Gardens - Bali, Indonesia

Tuscany, Italy

Turkey

Tat Kuang Si Waterfall - Luang Prabang, Laos (natural)

Sheraton Waikiki - Hawaii

Rangali Island - Maldives

Phuket, Thailand

North Narrabeen Tidal Pool - Sydney, Australia (natural)

Murni’s Villa - Ubud, Bali

Mes Amis Resort

Marina Bay Sands Hotel and Casino - Singapore

Los Cabos, Mexico

Lake Manyara Serena Lodge - Tanzania, Africa

Kempinski Hotel Ishtar - Dead Sea, Jordan

Kandalama Hotel - Dambulla, Sri Lanka

Intercontinental Hotel - Fiji

Infinity Falls (natural)

Dreams Resort - Puerto Vallarta, Mexico

Divi Little Bay Beach Resort - St. Maarten

Alila Ubud Hotel - Bali, Indonesia

Got this in my inbox this morning. Is it just me or are you feeling the same too?

I so seriously desperately want to go for a holiday...

Wee!

Awesome day!

Do You Know What RPP Stands For?

Random photo post.

Top to bottom: Mint Green polish from The Face Shop (similar to the Mint Green one from Skin Food minus the glitter). Loving the color; application was lousy. But for the price, one shouldn't expect too much. Good buy though, overall.

Bought 2 other colors from Skin Food too. These purchases were made before I went to KT. It's obvious I am into greens at the moment. Just cleared my nails off the black polish, still contemplating if I should do the light green before dinner.

Can't decide if I should keep the bangs or let them grow. I must really like the bangs because most people I know tries it once and allows it to grow into a side swept fringe pretty soon. I have had my bangs for 8 months already!

The doggie! /loves

Found some Ciba Vision lenses in my closet, belum expired and amazingly are of the correct power. I once hated CV lenses because I had problems taking them out but now that I don't have a problem with that, CV lenses are the best yet!

Lil bro is back in the house, time untuk berbonding-bonding.

WHAT! It's November already? Since when?

How, who, what, why!

Where on earth did Feb, May, June, July and September go to!?

Yes my dear, it is November.

February was spent working on your last semester in HELP, May was when you went to TOGR with your all girls crew, June was when you celebrated your 22nd in the States, July was when you went traveling to places. And Sept was when you were at Thailand having the time of your life.

So, there you go. There is no reason for you to be shocked by the realization that the end is near for 2010.

T________T

Damnit.

Regular update

It amazes how I can survive with limited choice of clothing for 2 entire weeks - 5 tees, 2 shorts, 3 pieces of identical event shirts and one long pants, but when I am back at home, it's such a pain to decide what to wear and I always end up with this conclusion:

I NEED TO GO SHOPPING BECAUSE I DON'T HAVE ANYTHING TO WEAR!

It has to be the most flawed statement I can ever make.

It also amazes me as to how much more disciplined I am when I am traveling.

3 step facial regime - Cleanse, tone, moisturize, - check, I even did a mask!

Shampoo and conditioner and leave in conditioner - check!

Lotion before bed every night - check!

Back at home...

Cleanse - that's it.

Shampoo - that's it.

Lotion - what lotion?

Pffft, maybe I should just not stay at home..

Rat Running Loose

... in my room.

Major FML.

The Truth Is

I have 3 hours to go before my flight back home. And here I am sitting on the balcony of my super fancy 'home' for the past 2 weeks thinking, "I don't really want to go home."

Surprise much?

Yes, that thought caught even me off guard. Everyone else here can't wait to get out of this place because well, it is kinda lifeless and everyday seems like a repeat of the previous day.

But, the truth is...

The longer I stay here and continuously do repetitive stuff which I do kinda enjoy doing, I don't have to think about the what next.

The End & The Beginning

So yesterday was the end of the Malaysian Match Racing Championships. And Jeremy Koo and team are off to the Monsoon Cup to be held in December.

It was definitely a proud moment for the Koo clan as both the Koo's were in the finals..

Anyway, that's that. Today marks the first day of the AMRC (Boo on you if you didn't get the short form).

Non Malaysians are filling this place up!

And I have already made a mistake on the very morning of the first day of the AMRC.

Note to self: Collect payment before releasing the boats.

Just In Case The Working People Need Some Entertainment

See! I am so considerate. Even while I am at work myself, I think of you guys! :P

Okay lah well, it's for my own pleasure as well, how else to get attention right?

So anyway, I have been here for 2 days, and today will be my third. So far, everything is going well and I am still enjoying pretty much just everything.

The accommodation is fantastic, the people I am working with are all nice, the WiFi is great, the food is alright. The weather is slightly gloomy but since I am not sailing but sitting in the air cond room the whole time, what more can I ask for lah right?

So that's pretty much it from me for now. More teams coming in today, more familiar faces, yay me!

Till then...

Bai!

Bye bye, author is off to KT for work, be back in 2 weeks!

**

It's normal to have ups and downs in life.

When experiencing the down, notice everything is not right, nothing goes the way you want it to. You feel like everything you do is either wrong or meaningless. But...

Look outside of yourself.

Look beyond yourself and you'll notice that the world is still turning, people are still living... Your down period is only a small fraction of the whole.

And then you'll realize that, whatever that may seemed to be so bad, isn't so bad after all.

Moral of the story is, don't fret over things - I won't say small things because it is hard to judge how big or how trivial the matter is, it differs for people in so many ways because of circumstances and well, in one word, it is all subjective.

The thing to remember is, you've always got the chance to make it better, to make whatever it is better than before. And that, my dear readers, is the most important thing of all.

Of course when you are experiencing the up, it's all about sharing! Have a great Sunday people!

Past

It is possible to not think about the past.

But it is impossible to not let the past affect you.

Why?

Because whether you like it or not, your past mistakes will always come back to haunt you.

Yay! Chance To Use My Oakley Jacket

While I am not too keen to be stuck under the rain and be soaked everyday, looking at it from the bright side, at least my value for money purchase from the States can finally have its debut!

What should I bring along with me to KT?

What Is The Appeal of Kuala Lumpur

Be warned : 1242 worth of angry naggy words ahead.

Seriously. Because I failed to see what's so great about this city in my 2 day expedition to explore Kuala Lumpur.

Tourists flocking to visit this city, please do enlighten me about what you find so appealing about this city I grew up in.

While I am not one bit proud of it, I feel that it is necessary for me to voice out my displease. As I see it, you can take this 2 ways.

1) Here is one ungrateful person who has nothing better to do but complain about her country and its people. Or, 2) Let's see what she has to say and evaluate how much truth there is in it and what can we do about it.

I really do welcome any sort of feedback.

**

So we started Day 1 going around KL by foot. My friend was staying at this backpackers place called BackHome located on Jalan Tun H.S. Lee so we figured we will do all the sights around the city itself.

Boo. The adventure starts to go downhill almost immediately (or maybe that's just me being biased in writing this post).

First destination was KL Tower, as we were informed that Chinatown would only start picking up by 4 in the afternoon. It didn't help that it was so freaking hot but I guess I shan't be complaining because it's common knowledge that it is HOT in Malaysia.. T__T

(I have just decided to write about this post by focusing on the cost of doing touristic things in KL rather than simply stating what is it we did. It could potentially be beneficial for people who are planning on repeating the same mistakes I did bringing their friends around town).

As I was saying, first stop - KL Towers, costs of ticket : RM 38 (same price for tourist and locals). Ticket includes a visit up the observation deck, plus either a 'pony' ride or a cultural show. FYI, we opted for the cultural show which we never got to witness anyway.

OK, complain mode ON once more. You can skip this part entirely however I sincerely believe that the public should be informed about how lousy a job the people managing our major tourist spot is doing and how embarrassed and angry I felt about their whole "Tidak Apa" attitude.

When we were purchasing our tickets, we were INFORMED by the counter that there will be a cultural show at 12.30pm so we decided to go for it before heading up to the observation deck.

First of all, there were no signs directing us to where the show was to be at and I finally understood why my foreigner friends are so amazed at my ability to speak Good English. Forgive me for saying this but come on, how can you be working at one of our major tourist spot and not be able to string together a proper sentence of English? -__-

So after asking around, this was what we were told, "Oh, they (the performers) already performed at 10am so the next show is not until 2pm". What.. in.. the world did I just hear??

No signs, no notification whatsoever, and you tell me what? I WAS FURIOUS.

I went back to the counter and gave them a piece of my mind. Guess what! This was what they had to say, "Ahh, because the performers are outside people so we cannot tell them what to do. They gave us a schedule but if they don't follow it also we are not informed and there's nothing we can do about it".

O M G, I think I just died of heartache due to how disappointed I was with my own fellow countrymen. And this is not just some roadside operation hello! Mind you, this is KL Tower we are talking about.

We decided to try for the 2pm show. At 2pm we were told that "Oh, the next show is not until 3pm". Seriously loh.

Hurr, that was a mouthful. So that's that.

We went up and thank goodness there was some skydiving activity which kept us entertained for a bit. The weather was a bit on the foggy side so there wasn't much to look at anyway. The only consolation (for me at least) was that some of the skydivers were pleasing to the eyes.

Lunch at KLCC foodcourt - RM8+

Train ride from KLCC to Pasar Seni - I don't know, I had my Touch&Go card

Central Market and Chinatown, look see but nothing much to do.

Snacks and drinks at Chinatown - RM 7+

And that was it. I had no idea what-so-ever as to what else can be done in that area. Okay, I accept that I am at fault for being ignorant about my own hometown, I am a katak di bawah tempurung.

The best idea I could come up with? Take the train home, get the car and go to SS2 for fish spa. T__T I didn't know that Malaysia was known for fish spas. The friend was keen to try it out so as far as my memory serves me, SS2 was the place to go.

Lo and behold, NO MORE FISH SPAS IN SS2. The nearest available fish spa was One Utama, so off we went.

Fish spa in One Utama - RM 38

Snacks in Old Town - RM 10
Resident Evil movie ticket @ TGV - RM 8 (The best part of the day and the only thing I felt was value for money).

Dinner at Wai Sek Kai in SS2 - RM 10

After dinner, I was drained to the core, clearly not because of the amount of things we've accomplished during the day but more so mentally exhausted.

Misc items include RM 6 for taxi fare, RM 1 for parking and other things go unrecorded.

Total amount spent? RM 126 for one day in KL.

Day 2 was better in terms of how much we spent.

Batu Caves was FOC. Parking per entry was RM2 I believe. My 2 cents worth of opinion, the whole buzz about Batu Caves -> climbing the 272 steps. That's about everything to it. Of course, I am not taking into account people who are there for religious purposes lah.

We were done with the 272 steps up, photo taking/ staring at other people/monkeys (making the effort worth) and another 272 steps down within an hour and a half.

What next? Banana leaf rice in Nirwana, Bangsar. RM 8+ each.

Next, it was Muzium Negara. For RM 2 per entry, what can I say.

Note: Comparing to the last time I had to visit the museum for my Anthropology class 2 years back, the museum's display has definitely improved, drastically if I may add.

After the museum, I was out of ideas as to what to do next again but I hadn't had to worry about that because I had a dinner to go to.

Suffice to say, it was the first time in a long long loooong while that I felt thankful to have to attend a dinner.

What a long, energy draining, mood ruining post this was. I hereby ask for forgiveness for putting you readers through such torture.

I'll end with a valuable tip:

The next time you have a visitor, tell them you'll buy them dinner and that they can have the rest of the day to explore the city on their own.

Insomnia... again.

But I am quite sure that the culprit this time is the 3 cups of latte I had in Manhattan Fish Market today yesterday.

You can't blame me. I am a sucker for cheap deals. At RM0.95+ (excluding tax) per cup of coffee from 3pm - 6pm, better drink more right!

Okay lah, maybe I overdid it, not like the promotion is something new or that it is ending anytime soon. But I had a good book, and pretty much nothing else to do... so sit there, sip coffee, listen to music on the phone and read.

Bliss!

Anyway, on top of the caffeine, there are some other things keeping me wide awake. I wonder why is it that only at times like this my brain decides to function.

T_____________T

Dermatophytosis

Credit

Pretty gross no? Sorry about not putting in a warning beforehand, but that's exactly what it looks like on my hand!

Remember I mentioned about a weird scar that seemed like a burn but didn't hurt nor itch? Well, the diagnosis is, dermatophytosis. In layman's term, ringworm.

Went to the pharmacist and got some cream for it. Hope it recovers well and fast.

I am having trouble telling the time and date.

Need To Clean The Room

Am I the only one who consistently needs to clean my room?

Quotes From One Of The Books I've Been Reading

I can't remember which book the quotes are from as I have developed this bad habit of jumping from one book to another, as of late.

Anyway, these are some favorite quotes I scribbled onto a piece of paper which I am about to get rid of so here they are:

• Pain is temporary. Quitting lasts forever. - Lance Armstrong
  
  
• Difficult days never last, but strong people always do.
  
  
• I may not be rich, but I have a rich life.
  
  
• ... period of personal growth upon which I really could use to build an even brighter future.
  
  
• You need to actually move closer to the place you most fear instead of pulling back from it.
  
  The fear you move through when you go to the edge of your limits actually causes your limits to expand.

So tired after the massive flight of stairs today!