Is a friend whom you do not like still a friend?
You see, what I mean is this.
Say, you have got this friend, whom we shall name X in this case. Let's say you've known X for the longest time in your life, you've done so many things together, so much so you're both almost like siblings, sharing toothpaste and clothes and what not.
But throughout all this while, you've secretly disliked X. Not because of something horrible that he / she has done, but simple because, you just don't really like that person. But then again, because that so called 'friendship' doesn't affect you negatively in any way, you've just continued 'being friends'.
Now, I am being a hypocrite...
You are aware and u know that you don't like X person per say, but still, you're still friends. So what happens now if other people start making comments. For instance, come one day, Y - who's another friend of yours, comes telling you that X is a [insert a bad / rude adjective] person. And deep down, you agree!
But Y knows that you're kononnya, a good friend of X. So now how??
Do you defend X and say that X is not that bad a person when deep down inside, you feel the same Y does about X.
Or,
Do you agree with Y and start back stabbing X in the back, and somehow, still remains friends with X.
Which would you do?
Also then, let's say you picked the second option, to back stab your 'fellow friend'. Now the scenario is this, X is now back and wants to buddy buddy with u again, but you're reluctant to do so because you are clearly aware that you do not like X and plus, now other people- Y also knows that you do not like X.
Now what?!
Hmm. I don't know lah really. I sometimes think that people shouldn't fake things and be honest, but in this case, what if honesty isn't the best policy?!
On a totally different note. I do envy people with super high self esteem and who are super confident and are so assured of themselves. These people make me feel small and helpless.
When I come across people like the above, I sometimes wonder, what life might be like for them. You know what I mean?
These people must living each and everyday of their lives thinking about good things to better themselves and so on and so forth while I, live everyday thinking about other mundane stuff like, what color should I color my nails with.
Just a random example lah. Didn't mean for it to sound so dumb blondish.
Anyhow, I do wanna become a better person too. A new year resolution. I think I am gonna start with being a better grand daughter, a better daughter, a better sister and a better friend. Do you think that'll make me a better person in a whole? I sure hope so.
:) Thinking to self : A better friend... Hmmm, means u all untung lah??!! :)
Anyhow, I was also going to ask this, What type of person are you??
Are you the type who will, treat the receptionist terribly simply because he /she was not helpful when you had asked them about something, or
Would you tell yourself, "I won't let them get the better out of me, too bad if they're rude or are born evil, I will be gracious and say my thank you's and still do my very best to be nice to them".
Are you the type of person who goes grocery shopping and pick whatever you like off the shelf without checking the price and without thinking whether you really need it, or
Are you the type who will calculate every single item and see which is the better offer and then only decide if you really need it.
I've got a lot more of "what would you do", " what if's", and "which are you" questions. But haha, I think this is enough for the day.
Oh yeah, also wanted to add that my hope of finally being able to travel alone was just shattered yesterday. Sighs. Contrary to what might seem like the case, I have not actually traveled to any place alone. It was always either with the parents, or with Heng, or with a manager, or with friends, or with team members.
The closest I've ever got to traveling alone was probably the trip to New Zealand in Jan this year. But still ended up traveling with Seu also.
And so I was so looking forward to flying to Langkawi this time, alone! What, Langkawi also traveling alone lah okay, I very poor, can only ill afford a trip to Langkawi at the moment. But wait and you shall see lah. Next time it won't just be Langkawi... it'll be.... Phuket. Hhhahaha, Japan / UK / China all those will have to wait till I start earning my own money lah, then we'll talk.
So anyway, coming back to travelling alone. So yeah lor, basically, won't be traveling alone again. A fellow friend will be tagging along. Oh well, it just means that I won't have to worry about missing my 9 o'clock flight on the Sunday morning.
Hope you enjoyed your imaginary popcorn and coke.
OH WAITTTTT
*screams*
The most important question of all... WHAT ARE YOU PEOPLE DOING ON NEW YEARS EVE??
One last question, a-not-so-important one. Hmmmm... How do you tackle the growth of baby hair??!
