This Is For You

Heard this over New Year's Eve dinner with Mom and little bro in McD's - yup, we're unique like that. Wes and I both took out our phones and SoundHound-ed the song.

Like ships in the night. You're passing me by. Full lyrics here.

Today, I am proud of myself.

My Eyes Set On You In This Race That I Run

Sang this in church today. Timely. =)

Oxymoron's Are Fun

A good problem - Is a good problem a good thing?

It sure is better than a bad problem. But zero problem at all would be even better. But comparing bad problem to good problem, I'd pick good problem. Who wouldn't.

When a compliment comes from the wrong people, it loses its value completely.

Hair down, black spag, jean shorts, pink converse and minimal accessories. To not give a care in the world for just a bit and let the mind go free.

More oxymorons here! But you may want to turn off your speakers, the site is playing the Gangnam song nonstop.

The rest is up to you.

What Went Wrong Where

That was four W's right there. Did you even notice? Own!

Ate too much for dinner, can't shower now because people say if you shower right after a meal, your tummy will grow bigger. I don't see the logic but anything to do with my tummy getting bigger, I will not risk it. That excludes ice cream!

Stray Italian Greyhound - Vienna Teng

So sweet! Cute lyrics too.. 

Finally, when everyone is beginning to get onto the same page, the story should supposedly start to make some sense, correct? Because I still don't get it. As a matter of fact, I am starting to not get it at all. So strange, but oh well.

Feeling a little blue this evening, but the pretty kinda blue. :P

Last weekend of 2012, what are you gonna do??

Whatever it is, make it count! Love!

Two-O-One-Three Resolutions! No, Not Two Thousand and Thirteen of Them

WHOOOOPSIE!

Some of you may have read my incomplete draft of this post. That's because yours truly was being a dodo and instead of saving the draft to be edited further, I published it. /shy

Anyway, since a lot of things in life cannot be undone, like this mistake of mine, we'll just move on shall we? The list is not in chronological order, it's just at random.

Now if you please. =)

1) I'd like to entertain the idea of traveling to two different countries, Singapore and Thailand don't count.

2) Some people say, the more you wish for it, the more it won't happen. Some others say, if you don't try, you'll obviously never get it. I'm fifty-fifty. I reckon I'll be fine just as I am, but if someone special stumbles along, that'd be nice too.

3) I am still at a stage where I don't quite know what, where, or how my future will be. So I most certainly would like it if I am able to learn more about myself and my aspirations in twenty thirteen.

4) In twenty twelve, I said, "Dieting will always be for tomorrow", so it was not on my list. But this coming year, I am inclined to lose some weight and getting to say, 48kg's. According to the Asian BMI, me being at 48kg's would put me on the lower end of the healthy weight range, which is perfect!

(If you are still thinking of what to buy me for Christmas, I accept belated gifts, a digital weighing machine would be nice!)

5) Join a class / master a new skill. It could be dancing classes, cooking classes, baking classes, sushi making classes, climbing classes, language classes, latte art classes, diving, Pilates maybe, or even kickboxing. Whichever tickles my fancy. And if I can get a buddy to do it with me, that'd be added motivation to try it.

6) This next resolution is one that I had to think hard and long before writing it down, because it takes on a more serious tone, at least to me it does. And writing it down and making it public would mean that I will have to see to it. #accountability101

I've always felt "insecure" and inferior when it comes to matters about religion, and it is most likely because I feel inadequate when it came to this. Also, overly warm people scare me to death. Twenty thirteen will be a year in which I shall not be afraid of overly warm people shall brave it all and do what I need to do.

So dear friends, those of you who are of the same faith as I, please pray for me. Check on me too from time to time because you know, I can be a lazy bum sometimes.

7) Run.... (I am already regretting this) a marathon? But I guess this would help with item (4). It's a good thing that I did not specify how long the marathon must be. In the namesake of staying healthy though, let's see to this lah. Run a marathon.

8) For each of the 365 days in 2013, I am to write down (at least) one blessing per day. There can be more than one, the idea is just so that in the case where some days seem so dark that nothing good happened or could happen, in my best efforts, or that of others, there will be something, no matter how tiny, to be grateful for.

9) To be a better person. I know this is an odd resolution too, considering how there's no way to determine whether it has been achieved by the end of 2013. But it's here to act as a reminder that no matter what circumstance, I shall attempt my very best to do what's right, or at least my perceived right (there's no way this is going to sound correct), but you get what I mean don't you?!

10) We're down to the last resolution already so quick! So I'll stick to the cliche - Live everyday to the fullest, love like there's no tomorrow, be a blessing to others.

There's no proper way to say goodbye to 2012 because there isn't really a goodbye, everything in 2012 (and ever since 1988) will continue to be a part of my story.. Thank you's though need to be said.

So to all who has made 2012 bearable and awesome, a big warm thank you to you. And because it is a very 'me' thing to say, for those of you who made 2012 feel like crap, I thank you too, because you've taught me resilience and for that, I have learnt to be a better and stronger person than I was before!

I have grown up, haven't I? Wheeeee! :D 

We Can Ride On A Star, We Can Light Up The Sky

It's whimsical and serious at the same time.

I love it! It's Take That's Rule the World. I found many very epic versions of it. I am embedding the London Olympic version because who doesn't love the Olympics! And the fireworks that come with it, so pretty!

Edit: The International Olympic Committee apparently doesn't allow the video to be played on other sites but YouTube so I am changing the order. Embedded below is the original version by Take That themselves. The Olympic link is here!



And here's the version by Ella Henderson on X Factor UK.

And how can I forget, Blessed Christmas to all. =)

We can ride on a star, we can light up the sky.

Dear You

It's that you are too good.

End of Year Update On My 50 Things To Do in 2012

Before I begin with the actual top 50 things that I had set out to do. Here are some that probably didn't quite fall under that list but worth a mention anyway.

I think one of my biggest takeaway from 2012 is in learning that, you don't have to receive just because you give. It's true that a lot of things in life must be reciprocal, but so long as you're happy giving, don't let yourself be robbed of that happiness just because other parties are not complying to that 'rule'.

There was a fair bit of traveling in 2012 too. Club Med with the family in Jan, Banjaran Ipoh with Mom, Kota Kinabalu in July, high school friend's wedding in Port Dickson, Malaysian Match Racing Championship III in Johor, Sibu with Mandy and Sharon, Johor and Singapore with the parents in September, Krabi with Ivy, Ivy's boyfriend, Ivy's sisters, and Ivy's friend.

Indian engagement wearing Punjabi suits; Paintball with some new friends; Tapestry Christmas performance; Random meet up's including the one with Morten and Su Ann, Xian Jie and the other Sg girls, Alison from the previous job; Broga climb in which we learnt that we should/ must always check the weather forecast first!

Dolphins sighting in Port Klang. Spending way too much on Starbucks. Also, I've lasted a full year (still counting) in my current job!

I learned/discovered a new tip/trick/routine - if you are one who frequently uses the hairdryer, you can try putting on a facial mask and then drying your hair with the mask on your face. I feel it helps to keep your face protected from the heat of the hairdryer and at the same time provide the moisture necessary for your face. =)

Moving on to that list! (To refer to the last time this list was updated, click here).

1. Travel to 2 countries/ places I have not been to before.
 a. Club Med Cherating
 b. Banjaran Ipoh

2. Submit applications for Masters.
I applied, I got my offer and I rejected the offer. But it's all good, plans for the near future are not particularly clear yet, but at least I know that now is not the time, yet. =)

3. Invest in hair care treatment.
Checked!

4. Bake a cake.
I didn't really end up baking any cakes or cake, but I baked a batch of Christmas cookies yesterday, and I'll be sharing them around! =)

5. Wear a dress once a week (unless special circumstances).
Come to think of it, I do wear dresses once a week, on average.

6. Wear heels once a week (unless special circumstances).
I bought several pairs of heels this year, guilty of under utilizing them, but to be fair, I do wear them when the occasion arises.

7. Red highlights for the hair before mid year.
This sorta kinda did and did not happen at the same time. But I am pleased with this item anyway. Checked!

8. Do charity work / volunteer.
The extend of my charity contribution for this year would having participated in the World Vision 30 Hour Famine. I will not be doing it again next year, but I have learnt to appreciate what I have, more than ever before, and to give what I can because others may not be as blessed as we are.

9. Go for a full medical check up.
I am as healthy as a horse.

10. Keep my hair super long.
It's growing out well... I am happy.

11. Get a new pair of glasses.
Checked!

12. Re-start up HELP Sailing Club.
I recently re-checked back the helpsailingclub email, haha, good times back in university. It's sad that it's no longer up and running, and it's also sad that I don't seem to want to get it re-started up but ohwell, it just means that it's not a priority.

13. Use a satin pillow case.
Not satin but close enough. Checked!

14. Buy a satin pillow case.
See above. Checked.

15. Do something nice for one person (or more) each day.
I am thinking this is going quite well, I give myself off days from time to time. Some days, no one deserves to be treated nice.

16. Smile and say Good Morning to the first person I see every day.
Checked!

17. Go climb Mount KK.
Checked!

18. Get a second opinion on the wisdom tooth.
I did, and Mr Dentist says that I don't have to extract my smart gigi after all! Wheee, I just need to keep to regular flossing, brushing and, visit the dentist more often.

19. Drink more water.
Everytime I get a new bottle, I drink more water.

20. Play volleyball.

21. Not use work as an excuse to not sail.
I really haven't sailed much at all this year. But it's not a bad thing either. I think I've been balancing my priorities well when it comes to this.

22. Go fly kite.
If we count spinnakers as kite, then yes, I did fly a kite!

23. Go for a picnic.
Checked.

24. Do something crazily spontaneous, Like an impromptu trip somewhere.
Checked.

25. Try something completely new, can be anything from food to a new experience.
Checked.

26. Make 10 new friends and remember them.
Facebook's review of my 2012 year said that I made 63 new friends! That's... pretty amazing. Out of that 63, there are definitely 10 whom I've grown to love, a lot.

27. Eat more fruits.
Checked.

28. Finish watching everything in my external hard disk.

29. Read up on NPD.

30. Either read and return The Lucifer Effect, or return it without reading anyway.

31. Only make promises that I can keep.
This is possibly the trickiest item on my list. I think with it being on the list, I have consciously put more effort into thinking about promises before I make them, but some inevitably still don't materialize, but the important point is that I try/ tried.

32. Quit impulse buying.
Checked.

33. Do the sailor nails. Maybe for my birthday maybe hmmm.

34. Avoid showering late at night if I can help it.

Verdict: 6 items not fulfilled out of the 34, not bad I'd say.. =)

Non quantifiable items
35. Trust more.
36. Talk less, listen more.
37. Be more social.
38. Be responsible.
39. Be patient.
40. Take less, give more.
41. Forgive and forget.
42. Love, don't hate.
43. Make time for those who matter.
44. Eat healthily.
45. Be kind to others.
46. Remember that respect is earned.
47. Be brave.
48. Do not envy, do not be jealous.
49. Have a big big heart.
50. Be nice to people.

2012 has been good and bad in its own way. I've cried tears of sadness, disappointment, and frustration but I've also had my fair share of tears of joy and from laughing so hard that my tummy was doing somersaults.

If there's another thing that I can takeaway from this year, it would be that you win some, you lose some. We accept the good for what it is, but we also must learn to accept the not-so-good for what it is. It's not about compromising, or reducing your values, but more of learning to be better and growing stronger as we go along the journey.

I was re-reading my 50 Things I Did In 2011, and I like that list. So for 2013, I am going to stick to that instead. I'll still have my new year resolution list, but maybe scale it down to 10 main things. And the rest, well I'll just live it out and see what happens..

Now 2013, bring it on!

All Saturday's Should Be Like Today

I told you I am gonna start making it good, didn't I! =)

I could really do with a facial though.

Looking forward to what Sunday brings with it.

Christmas is 3 days away, are you excited?

A Good Evening With A Certain Miss Awesome

Grocery shopping seriously rocks my boat. After...

Pink air tight container. Old Town Hazelnut. Anlene Milk Powder. Boncafe Colombian. New Bros bottle. Philips Epilator. Kotex Maxi Wing. Hangers. Oats.

Which came up to an approx total of RM 200, I am convinced things are gonna start getting better. Weird logic but it's gut feeling, trust me on this. =)

If it is true that I have an infectious personality, I shall start being chirpy and quirky all over again because the world could sure do with more positive vibes than negatives.

Work tomorrow, it'll be a good time to get things done I hope, provided I don't end up wasting all that time away doing random things. My work to-do-list is no joke. I strike off one item, I add 5 more to it. Rawr.

Anyway, as the saying goes, what doesn't kill you only makes you stronger.

And thank you for the 5 minutes.

=)

It's nobody's fault, people just want different things in life. 

I Am Slowly Coming To Believe

That the problem, lies with me.

Catharsis

I am just gonna talk in codes for a bit today. Too lazy to form proper sentences. 

I look up the sky. Defying gravity. But sometimes, it doesn't work. Side people see it clearest. Emotionally challenging. Ethics? I should try harder, after all, some lines exist not to be crossed. 

Snap finger, magic, magic 8 ball? 

Tall, lanky and dorky - Sung Joon and Kim Young-Kwang. Too damn cute. Boy/man crush! 

Shopping tomorrow. Dinner on Wednesday. Maybe movie Thursday. Friday is awesome on its own. I think it's work on Sat. 

Excess Coke in the fridge. Would certainly go well with some rum. 

Girl on fire - Alicia Keys!

Awesome lyrics. Gone is the plan to get some work done tonight before bed.

Sweet dreams, oyasumi!

Be Still

A thousand and one things on my to do list this Sunday. Okay, a thousand and one is an exaggeration but the list keeps growing.. Rarrr!

So much going on in the world.. Yet it amazes me how little or how much certain events affect us, or not affect us at all. Is it the media or is it just our choice, as individuals, to care and not to care?

Either way, what's important to you, is what matters I guess. I, pray, for peace.

Be Still; The Fray

On a personal note, I figured I am afraid of being a burden, a hindrance. And so, I always keep a distance, at least until I am sure that it will never get to that point.

There's only so much one can do, but it will account for something, so let's do what we can. Love.

Today I Am Writing With My Heart

Not head. Or minimal head, so that my writing would still make some sense.

I don't think I have ever hated anyone more. And it's a bad feeling because it consumes me. And I hate it. I hate it that I have such strong negative feelings. I dislike people, I do. And most of the time, I dislike people because one, I am jealous of them (yes, as bad as it is, I do get jealous often enough) and two, because they are generally not very nice people. But hate is bringing it to a whole new level. And bottom line is, it's not a feeling I like feeling.

I try to shoo it away, but it doesn't work.

And sometimes, I don't like how I perceive things so negatively. Like for instance, I feel sad to feel that I am being chucked aside. As though, I am suddenly of no value. But who's to say that I am being sidelined? If I don't allow for thoughts like that, I don't have to feel that way. I want to be strong, so strong that it no longer matters.

I've said it before that if I want something bad enough, I'd work for it. But what if at the end of the day, I am just too scared of putting in effort and still not getting what I want?

Like for instance, matchrace next year. I know I should really be putting more thought into it, getting crew sorted, but what if all this effort amounts to nothing in the end. Why bother in the first place. This is just a teeny example. I don't even dare to apply this to a bigger context in life. I'd just get too scared.

Famous words, you don't try, you don't know. But, what if trying and doing my best still doesn't get me what I want? Then what. Regret not even trying? Likely. Will that balance out the disappointment of trying and still not getting what I want? Having to live with knowing something is not attainable or living with the hope that it could be if I tried? Which is the lesser of two evils?

Only I can tell. Only I can tell.

We were once friends, close friends even I would say. Today, we're strangers. Why is life like that? Some people are meant to come and go, some are meant to stay. I know that. I do. Which is why people who have come and stayed on take a very special place in my heart, I only wished I put more effort into retaining those who have left.

I can't be praised too much, it makes me think that most problems don't lie with me. It must be them. Or that someone else, just not me.

Some magic would be nice now actually.

Too Much Spam Comments

Grrrrrr!

Of being random, I think I have been blow drying my hair for the past week nonstop. So bad for my hair. And nails are chipping too.

Looking forward to Saturday though!

Langkawi in January is not happening after all. It completely slipped my mind that whilst I am not studying, I still have work to do.

Hungggggry! I need to be fed food.

Pink's Try, Taylor Swift's I Knew You Were Trouble. And The Cab is actually really pretty awesome! Another one from them, Endlessly.

"Wings are not what you need, you need me". Oh melts..

A Storm Is Brewing Outside

Or at least the lightning seemed mighty scary.

Last Christmas - Cascada

Heard that in the mall earlier, catchy! I think I've outgrown shopping. Heh, or maybe I am just tired. Dehydration for sure. Need to make a mental note to consume more h2o.

Get out of the funk. Get out of the funk. Get out of the funk, before it's too late.

Year end, so much to do. So much to do. But maybe, just maybe, it's all worth while, something to look forward to..

Langkawi in January? Because all good things begin in Langkawi.. ;D

Dreams, Take Flight

My new definition of best friends - friends who bring out the best in you. =)

A Rainbow In My Teacup

Vegas Skies - The Cab

1. The above song was performed at prom last night, by a band whose name I cannot remember now. They were awesome nonetheless, and it's an amazing song, I loveeee it!
2. "We are infinite" - The Perks of Being A Wallflower. Hmmm, I liked it, but I don't quite get it.
3. Today, it occurred to me how as adults, people don't tell you what you are doing is wrong (or for that matter, if what you are doing is right). They let you make your own decisions. And as an adult, you are accountable for your own choices.
4. Stinky feet because I didn't wear my mini stockings with my pumps today. -_-
5. What do I want?
6. I posted somewhere else today, "Some people I love to hate. Some I hate to love. And I think I know specifically who fits into which category."
7. I am tired, but the happy kinda tired.
8. Need to do some crunches and sit ups before bed, them abs (though never in existence to begin with) are seriously turning in some serious flabs. T__T
9. I like people. Once upon a time not too long ago, I would've hated it if I wasn't liked in return. I still need a lot of attention nowadays, but now, it's okay if people don't like me back.
10.  Songs! One simple and sweet, another just never fails to make me sing along and smile...

Little Things - One Direction; It's no wonder they have so many fans!

I'm Yours - Jason Mraz; How can you not love this song?

It's gonna be Christmas soon!

Could Do With A Nice Cup Of Latte Right Now

That's me being random.

Falling asleep at night has been easier as of late.

Maybe I'll try a different dream tonight.

Take Your Time

But the fact is, how much time do you really have?

Hectic Sunday turned out not too hectic after all. Managed to nap in between the morning wedding, open day and prom. Pleasant lah all in all. =)

Thoughts though, are all over the place now. The who-how-when-why-what's in life.

Take Your Time - Cary Brothers

It's probably a good thing. It probably is. 

There's Always A Reason

Or not.

Either something is wrong with my lappie or the internet connection is really wonky. Keeps disconnecting me every 5 mins or so. And I have to re-start my comp each time.

There will be no end in comparisons. You just have to learn to be happy for what is, and not beat yourself up for what you hope is, but is not. Easy say, easy say.

Cold Saturday night, ice cream??

Speaking of fatty foods, McD brekkie, KFC zinger double down for late lunch and an Iced Latte.. Gosh what am I doing! Disaster in the making.

Slight change in plans, distant relative's wedding in the morning, Open Day and prom tomorrow. Sounds like a mega combo.

You'd think I have it all, and I do think I am blessed as it is. But for the lack of confidence, contrary to popular believe.. I do have my insecure moments, a lot and often enough.

And despite the semi melodramatic tone to this post, it's all good. Really! =)

Back To Being My Flighty Self

I don't deal well with decision making. Especially those that have lifelong consequences.

When I am serious about something, it's not a good sign. When I am not serious about something, it's also not a good sign.

*proceeds to tear rose petals*

I'll probably really stop now.

Tummy ache.. =(

Haha, I Caved

So much for persistence and abstinence. Lousy max.

Today was a haywire day. If yesterday was ultra productive, today was the complete opposite. And it had to end with rain pouring so hard that we got all drenched.

It's okay though, always look at the bright side, hot chocolate seems like a good idea now.

Pumpkin soup craving! Weird as weird may be.

Miracles and the Opposite of It

1. Today, I learnt that a pony, is not a baby horse.

2. Of collecting compliments... On the record so far - pretty, athletic and petite.

3. I like it when I am the source for someone else's smile, or if I am the reason behind the smile. Makes me happy.

4. Space is a necessity; like how we need air to breathe, we need space to move. De-clutter!

5.  It may not necessarily be a bad thing. It's not the same as giving up on hope, it's just letting hope run its course.

6. Looks like it's gonna be a cold candle light shower. Lights are out and so is the heater. Or maybe, I should just use the other bathroom. Smart girl.

7. Even if optimism is faked, it is better than actual pessimism.

8. Tomorrow evening (shall) be quality alone time. Unless something more tempting than spending time with myself crops up.

9. The danger in that is when the energy to pretend wears off, all that is left is reality.

10. And so, 4am emails happen.

EDM

Don't You Worry Child - Swedish House Mafia

I could get used to it. Heart!

Thoughts

Many of them. But most of them too personal to share, what I need is to sit down and think through things on my own.

For now anyway, listen to this!

Do You Hear What I Hear? - Carrie Underwood

Went for Tapestry's performance on Friday night, and this was probably my favorite song, could also be because this particular song was performed by one of my best-est friend ever, Betsy Yeo who sang so amazingly!

I really really like it, I like it so much I want to share it with the rest of the world.

Have a great Sunday everyone! =)

Blue Eyes Blue

Eric Clapton

So emo, but so sweet just the same. 

Just the perfect Friday night tune. Good night world, love.

Wooo, Guess What I Found

It's Time - Imagine Dragons

Pretty cool, I like! And, Imagine Dragons?? How cute is that!

I Am A Genius

It's something only one person in this world will understand. Or at least understand it the way I want it to be understood. And who else would it be, but me. =)

Princess Dragon who spits fire and eats ice cream.

Hahahaha.

The influence of listening to Light&Easy, one gets into the whole "a cuddle would be nice" mood, especially in such weather.

Hey - Fatima Rainey

Two consecutive good days. Nails are cracking, insufficient something. Rain again. Birthdays. Aspirations?? Stamina. Yeah, could do with an increase in stamina for sure. More h2o and more decent sleep would work too.

If only answers fell from the sky too. Good days.

It's Raining Outside

And all I want to do is lie in bed and drift between thinking and falling asleep.

Here's a song dedication to everyone. Hello World...

Come Home - Faith Hill

[Faith Hill]
Hello world
Hope you're listening
Forgive me if I’m young
For speaking out of turn
There’s someone I’ve been missing
I think that they could be
The better half of me
They’re in the wrong place trying to make it right
But I’m tired of justifying
So I say to you...

[Chorus]
Come home
Come home
Cause I’ve been waiting for you
For so long, so long
And right now there's a war between the vanities
But all I see is you and me
The fight for you is all I’ve ever known
So come home...

[Faith Hill]
I get lost in the beauty
Of everything I see
The world ain’t as half as bad
As they paint it to be
When all the sons, all the daughters
Stopped to take it in
Then hopefully the hate subsides and the love can begin
It might start now
But maybe I’m just dreaming out loud
But until then

[Chorus]
Come home
Come home
Cause I’ve been waiting for you
For so long, so long
And right now there's a war between the vanities
But all I see is you and me
The fight for you is all I’ve ever known
So come home...

[Bridge]
Everything I can’t be
Is everything you should be
And that’s why I need you here

Everything I can’t be
Is everything you should be
And that’s why I need you here
So hear this now

[Chorus]
Come home
Come home
Cause I’ve been waiting for you
For so long, so long
And right now there's a war between the vanities
But all I see is you and me
The fight for you is all I’ve ever known,
Ever known

Come home...
Come home...

Credit

"I get lost in the beauty of everything I see, the world ain't half as bad as they paint it out to be."

Hello Week!

Sunday was pretty cool, all nice and sweet. If it is not too much to ask for, can Monday, Tuesday, Wednesday, Thursday, Friday and Saturday be cool, nice and sweet too?

Maybe that's a bit too much to ask for.

Can Monday, Tuesday, Wednesday, Thursday, Friday and Saturday be either cool, nice or sweet then?

Thank you very much!

Readership's Been Low

Hmm. Decent Saturday anyway. I am happy. =)

Thursday Was My Favorite Day This Week

For sure.

Today was just full of madness. Completely. And entirely. In a bad sorta way. =(

But it's okay, tomorrow is a brand new day. Besides, we need days like this to remind us that life is not always rainbows and butterflies, not always peachy. And all the more we learn to appreciate the good things in life, the small quiet pleasant moments, the laughs, the simple stuff.

Could do with something sweet, like ice cream.

I wish... But I am a big girl now, and I know not all wishes come true. But it's nice to wish anyway.

In Dreams - Lena Park; was thinking about this song as I was driving home earlier.

Gotta do massive some clearing up - mentally and physically.

Tomorrow is a brand new day! =)

Hi, My Name Is

Borderline of things. The scary and exciting bits. Take the leap or turn back and take the route tried and tested before. But who's to guarantee that the same path, is safe still.

I Think They Drugged My Lamb Curry

So sleepy. People will believe what they want to believe. Like it or not. Good night world. Sweet dreams you all. Lots of love.

My Exact Sentiments

 

Ever wonder about what he's doing
How it all turned to lies
Sometimes I think that it's better to never ask why

Where there is desire
There is gonna be a flame
Where there is a flame
Someone's bound to get burned
But just because it burns
Doesn't mean you're gonna die
You've gotta get up and try try try
Gotta get up and try try try
You gotta get up and try try try

Eh, eh, eh

Funny how the heart can be deceiving
More than just a couple times
Why do we fall in love so easy
Even when it's not right

Where there is desire
There is gonna be a flame
Where there is a flame
Someone's bound to get burned
But just because it burns
Doesn't mean you're gonna die
You've gotta get up and try try try
Gotta get up and try try try
You gotta get up and try try try

Ever worried that it might be ruined
And does it make you wanna cry?
When you're out there doing what you're doing
Are you just getting by?
Tell me are you just getting by by by

Where there is desire
There is gonna be a flame
Where there is a flame
Someone's bound to get burned
But just because it burns
Doesn't mean you're gonna die
You've gotta get up and try try try
Gotta get up and try try try
You gotta get up and try try try
Gotta get up and try try try
Gotta get up and try try try
You gotta get up and try try try
Gotta get up and try try try

You gotta get up and try try try
Gotta get up and try try try

Credit

Worlds Apart

That's how big the difference is. Trying to work on my performance review but am taking a break from it since I could do with a positivity top up before continuing.

She talks like a young little lady with her American accent, which I totally layan because it's just too cute. She's still tiny but taller now. Sparkly eyes and totally plays the part of an Energizer bunny - my uncle said, that's what people mean when they say, "Your youth is your power."  

So I am old(er) lah, cause there was no way of keeping up with this little cute thing...

She talks non-stop now. And she's not scared of strangers anymore. She goes on babbling and babbling about almost everything. She calls my soft toys 'bed toys' and when she saw my earring collection, she said, "Do you wear all that on your ear?!"

Majority of her things are pink too. Adorable maximus.

There was a moment earlier when I was trying to get work done and she was playing some games on her Daddy's iPad on my bed and when she noticed I was trying to work, she said, "I will go play elsewhere now..."

0_0

She's only 4 by the way.

Made me do a double take and wonder where on Earth that came from. Seemed impossible that that tiny body and that young mind could produce that level of maturity. It's true eh, we can learn a lot from kids.

So that's my not-so-much-of-a-baby anymore baby cousin sister, Amanda! =)

This Was Playing On The Radio Awhile Ago

Alesso & Dirty South - City of Dreams

One comment on another youtube link read, "Perfect song for after a break up".
I like anyway, it's catchy!

Counting The Days

It's almost the end of 2012 already, have you noticed?

So much so I keep referring to events that happened this year as "last year".. until I notice, no, it's still this year! In all honesty, I've been feeling a little sentimental and a little apprehensive about what the future holds.

This time last year...

Today, was well spent with Mandy as we shopped, and talked, and walked, and shopped. I've missed days like this. Whee! =)

Need. To. Start. Wearing. All. The. Heels. I. Buy.

On a side note.

I am not the brightest bulb, but some things I get quickly. Like, for instance, if my presence is not welcomed. I don't like being imposing. But I also understand how it's difficult to tell someone "Hey, you're not particularly welcomed so back off already." No decent human being would ever bring themselves to say that.

So it's okay, it's a good thing I read things like this fast enough.

So speaking of heels, I bought a new floral pair today from Payless. I am hoping to pair it with whatever ensemble I am gonna be wearing for tomorrow.

And speaking of tomorrow, baby cousin is arrivinnnnnng! And so is Apple, arriving on Monday with some Bombay Sapphire perhaps.

So quickly, it's Sunday again. The 7-day holiday week flew by quite literally. I am not particularly anticipating work on Monday but I suppose being occupied with work sometimes works well. It prevents the mind from wandering to areas where no answers can be found.

Shall attempt to do some vintage floral nail art later!

Often Enough In Life

I question my motivations in the things I do. Whether before or after, that's beside the point. But why? is the question I always catch myself asking myself.

And sometimes, asking why paralyses me. I stop and I don't try. And sometimes, asking why makes me feel stupid for even trying in the first place. So, which is better? To prevent, or to cure? You tell me.

Then again, people say, you should never regret things in life for they all happen for a reason. If it didn't quite turn out the way we expected it to, well, at least you learn from it. If it turned out better than you had expected it to, then yay!

So right, hmmm. Yup, I am confused myself.

Maybe if you knew what you wanted in life, then it wouldn't be an issue? I suppose.

Baby cousin coming to town this weekend. She must be pretty big now, can't wait to see her. Wonder where will they be put up though.

Was at the yacht club earlier. Didn't seem like a massive turn up. Thirty plus boats it seems, but it sure didn't seem like thirty at all. More like ten. But numbers don't lie do they?

The good thing about my new lappie is that I can lug it around and not strain a single muscle. =) Treated myself to some sashimi for lunch and now it's time to catch up on the to do list and maybe perhaps some reading too.

1,2,3,4 - Lee Hi real name Lee Ha Yi (from Wikipedia)

My fascination for Kpop has to be partially due to the fact that I don't understand the language and therefore it doesn't bother me to not understand the lyrics and just enjoy the music.

Why oh why's... Things to ponder upon.

A Bit Too Chao Da-ed

In my world, there's plenty of contrary to popular belief. Last night in Krabi. With lots of love.

No Matter

The who how why what when. Confuses my brain and it hurts. On the bright side, Krabi! ;)

November Eleventh

I think I'll be remembering you. For good reasons.

Lyrics

There's so much more to learn, so much more to understand, so much to grasp.. But, well. There shouldn't be a but, and there isn't a but. Just felt like saying but - as if to give space for an argument though there really isn't any because the statement was a fact.

I am afraid of growing up. Too many things I feel I have to learn and overcome.

Nonetheless, I thank God for every single person in my life. For the bad ones too, because if it weren't for them, there'll be lesson that I would not have learnt. And for all the strangers who turned friends, close friends, best friends, people whom I trust with my entire life, I thank God for them.

Because of you guys, growing up seems less daunting. /heart

Krabi tomorrow; fair weather please pretty please, time to work on that tan! =)

Three Times Lucky

Hi Rain...

Lyrics

Really. No kidding. Epic timing for all the wrong decisions, at least just today. I don't think that sentence was coherent even.

Not too sure about the lucky bit. Despite all the good about today, I am drained.

But for all the good, thank you.

When You Don't Listen

That's when shit happens.

But to be fair, sometimes, shit happens because you listen.

So I guess the general idea is to listen and be smart about it.

You Still Don't Get It Do You?

You was someone specific, probably not you you. But yeah.

So the gist of it is, if I want something, I'll work for it. If I want it really badly, heck I'll work damn hard for it. But just because it's something that you want, and you think I can be of help, doesn't mean I'll do it, even if I can.

So yes. Go away. Or do it yourself.

On a brighter note, today was pretty decent. Decent implies productivity and quality of interaction with people. Actually, work was probably crap, but everything else made up for it.

I should probably read up on ways to build up immunity for until it's time to fly for Krabi. So freaking many sick people. /shudders

Get well soon sick ones! Healthy ones, stay healthy! Love.

Strange

Nothing seems too right, but nothing seems too wrong either.

Breathe in, breathe out. Tomorrow is a brand new day.

Everyone seems to be falling sick. Germy(s) stay away!

Krabi in 7 days!

Sometimes

I don't understand why I deliberately find reasons to make myself upset. And sometimes, I don't understand why I am happy for no apparent reason either.

Fishtail braids success!  

And hello Alex, have you made any new inferences about me that you never knew prior to reading my blog? Tsk tsk.. :P

Rain whole day, he who likes the rain too.

I Wish

It would stop raining. So that I can go out to play.

A lot of things in life is beyond our control. But what we can do, is to live our lives to our best. Because making the best out of what we have is within our control.

"Understanding minds, empowering lives" - give this a thought if you have some time to spare!

The rain though, is beyond mine.

Every Corner, You May Find Surprises

Was randomly browsing blogshops online and heard this song. Pretty tune!

Eyebrow Threading

Was maximum pain. Probably less painful than upper lip threading but because I only have one upper lip but two eyes, it made the pain doubly unbearable.

And the best part is, I don't even like how my eyebrows look now. FML.

"Someone who can make you happy."

Yesterday

I said I will buy myself a ring if I don't get someone to buy it for me by the time I am 35.

11 years to go.

So much, so much.

If You Can't Stand Being Burnt

Then don't play with fire. Simple. And don't go under the sun without protection (I meant sunblock kinda protection).

Long weekend with the parents was a success! A couple of hundred kilometers on the roads, Johor Premium Outlet, in-out of Singapore twice in two days, good food, good weather, more shopping... All's good. Photos as you wish..

The Daddy taking a photo of the Mommy, quite a funny sight!

Dad pointed to this, and called it "Dinosaur Egg".
Good thing I didn't grow up believing everything he says.

Gardens by the Bay in Singapore!

Doesn't it remind you of Avatar!?

I've got this weird hand twitching pose going on, I can't explain it either.

AVATAR!

Singapore is just amazing this way - they've got the whole concrete part sorted and then they make up for all the cement with this luscious green garden out of nowhere. Impressive doesn't quite cut it.

We paid 5$ (Sg dollars) to go onto the OCBC Skywalk, it was .. pretty cool. 

At one point, Dad took of his shoes and decided to walk barefooted. 0_o
And then he had to play with those wires. Like a small kid.

The only photo of us three together, sans the one I took of us in McD's at breakfast.

We didn't end up going into Legoland because tickets were just too expensive, RM 140 per person wasn't a sum we were willing to pay. But there's a cheaper way, buy your tickets online 7 days prior to your trip, saves you some $$$ this way. Check it out if you're keen!

I reckon the whole have no expectations and just go-with-it mentality works. As long as I am happy, who's to say I am not! =)

Have a great week ahead everyone..

When You Can't Compare

You just don't compare.

Happy (belated) birthday to the October Babies - Mandy Kok, Benjamin and Kevin Saw.

What would life be without you awesome bunch!?

Love max!

"Ok. Will be as fat as you then"

T_____T

That was what Mr Daddy said to me when I had told him that we tapao-ed satay for him for dinner in which he replied to say he was going to have dinner with his colleagues first and so I said, he can have the satay for supper instead and *bam* that was his response to me.

I cry.

Anyway, people always say, it's up to you to make it a bad experience good and a good experience even better. I believe so.

I think my day could've turned out to be far worse, but I made it through anyway. =)

Nonetheless, I do need to learn to grow a spine and not allow words or actions of others to affect me so much.

I Run..

.. when one of the following is true:

1) I feel the dire need to lose weight;
2) I have an upcoming event in which I require to have a decent amount of endurance;
3) I have thoughts that my mind can't seem to manage or decipher;
4) I am extremely stressed.

Or all four actually. Today, I ran for a bit (safe to say, not longer than 5 mins). Haha! And it was for reasons 1 and 3. Did it help? Not really, now I am just additionally tired and sweaty.

Wes said to me, "I swear you will need a freaking guy who likes you like maddddddd. And commit to like the max max". And when I asked him to help promote me a little, he said, "No -.-, I'm not going to advertise my sister." The things little brothers will do and say.

The Wise Ones.

Positives & Negatives

Work was lousy today. Unproductive to say the least. But the people I have in my life, the people who mean so much to me, those who I really cherish, make up for it.

It sucked that I was having a crappy day, but it hurt more to know others are hurting all the same. I wish and pray that we'll grow stronger, that we'll become each others support and pillar of strength not just for now, but for a long long time to come.

I don't know if you can listen to this, but you should: http://grooveshark.com/s/Undone/4PShkY?src=5.

It's No Doubt's Undone. Lyrics.

When there's more to what the eye sees, the heart feels.

It's Okay

As long as I have tried. As long as I have done my best. It's okay.

Salmon Sushi

You Are Salmon Sushi

You are strong willed person who loves to try new things. You are highly adventurous.

You don't like being told that you can't do something. You resent too many rules.

You have an appreciation of all of life's complexities. You enjoy contradiction.

You notice subtleties more than most people. You have a discerning palette.

What Type of Sushi Are You?

Blogthings: We'll Tell You The Truth... Someone Has To!

The Math Doesn't Add Up

I thought I grew stronger. I thought I knew. I thought it will be fine the next time. I thought learning from my mistakes will prevent me from making them again.

But I am just as scared.

Probably more scared than I ever have been before.

What Do I Feel?

I caught myself asking myself that question today...

I went for Paintball late this morning. It was hot and dry but mostly exciting fun! Either I am still weak due to my week long recovery from my cold or the damn paintball gun is really heavy. Also that I haven't trained or built my fitness in a long while but after every run, I was panting so badly. -__-

But all in the name of fun nonetheless. To make things even better, we won 3 - 1 with only 5 people on our team versus the 6 on the other team. And with only one male on our team and 4 guys on theirs. Girl power yo!

I believe at some point in time, we get too comfortable with how things are that we don't really feel anything anymore. Okay maybe that's not the right way to say it. I suppose, it's not so much of not feeling anything but more of not feeling anything special or out of the ordinary that we just live each day feeling the same. 

Contention may be the word.

But it's always nice to start feeling again.

Level Up

Drowsy. Can't tell if it is the medication kicking in or if I am just tired.

Antibiotic pills are lime green in color. -__-

People right, the thing about people is that they're so unique you can't quite determine anything.

Consequences of actions. But why should someone pay for someone else's error?

Brain food.

No carb low sugar diet pretty successful still.

Blow dry hair and call it a day! Goodnight!

Grouchy

That was what I was for the most of today. Didn't sleep well last night. Was rolling around for a good 4 hours.. before I eventually slept. Hate that feeling.

The cold hasn't go away either. Sniffling all day. Overly sensitive to emotions too.

Maybe I should, I don't know. Calm down a little and take it easy.

But that's what I've been doing all this while!

Yay To Proper Blogging Again!

On my new baby the Asus Zenbook! In the case you missed my announcement 2 days ago..

Work was okay today, got my confirmation offer via email for postgrad too!

It's always starts with Fb. And it's always polar opposites that attract. And it's always fun and for the most of it, always don't work out too. Even if it does, I know, you know, and we know, it doesn't lasts that way.

I spelt "dinasour" wrong in my previous entry, I've corrected it. /shy I was dyslexic as a kid, so yes, "dinasour" should be "dinosaur"!

Facebook kept crashing on Chrome last night, I hope it works fine today.

No carbs, low sugar diet officially starts today, till Krabi! Don't tempt me, smack you. -__-

Little brothers sometimes are just too cute. In the oddest and most dangerous ways. But I love you still, just don't do it again.

Dinner now, no carbs, just proteins and fiber. #win

External Locus of Control

You, are my bad luck charm.

Rawr

.. is 'I love you' in Dinosaur language! Still coughing, doctors or not. Asus Zenbook baby!

Locked Out

Of my own bathroom. Gr. David Guetta tracks on radio. Happy birthday Mandy dear!

Time

And how it changes perspectives.

Stop!

Brain.

Yes, I Am Angry

This bloody cold effing with my brains.

Under All That Confidence

There will always be some doubt. Nobody's perfect, it's just that the flaw hasn't been discovered.

So Many Fishes In The Sea

And I actually make a pretty decent fisher(wo)man mind you. Just wrong waters maybe.

Ate Too Much

Indigestion. Tired. Sleepy. Yawn. Night.

Hello October

Happy 1 year anniversary Ng Ai Li! /beams

What A Weird Weekend

Glad that it's coming to an end.

Worst Decision of 2012

Has to be this. Feel so crappy.

An Anchor-less Bouy

Float. Float. Float. Sums up today pretty much. Newfound motivation. Painkillers. Berry vampish.

Growing Smarter My Ass

So pain. Even swallowing my saliva hurts. But I am too scared to visit the dentist too. Sigh.