Earlier

My maid laughed at me.

You see. I was hungry (again!) so I decided to cook some sausages which I found in the freezer. Sausages are awesome comfort food by the way. Yeah.

So I prepared a pot of water, placed the pot of water on the stove, turned on the gas and dunked the sausages into the pot.

And she laughed. At me.

...because the water was not even boiling yet.

Dear girlfriends,

Sorry I ffk you people today! I owe u each a big big one.. especially you lah Kong. Promise I'll spend time with u before you fly off again.

But I assure you it is not because I am emo-ing neither am I feeling anyhow negative. Today I am just plain lazy.

And FYI, I was lost in BU today for a good hour or so. Was supposed to pass some stuff to Heng's friend who lived somewhere in BU, for him to bring back to the States to pass to Heng. I swear vowed to never ever 'I'll try finding my way there lah somehow' ever ever again.

Last night, I some more damn gung-ho lorh don't want to ask parents for directions. What did I do? I went and Google Map his address and true enough, Google Map is a life saver lah. Shows u the directions real clearly... which brings me to my main point.

I AM A FREAKING NOOB MAP READER OMG I KENOT TAHAN MYSELF!

Already stated very clearly turn where at which junction and what road name also I can sesat! *shakes head* I have got no one to blame but myself.

Actually I can probably blame one of the parents lah but nvmd I will let it slide cuz she gave me extra pocket money which I will use to pay the credit card debt I owe her and yes, this is totally for you to read.

So yes. Bad sense of direction + terrible map reading skills, add these two together and what do you get?

A lot of honks and glares and other drivers thinking "what is this freaking idiot doing on the road!". I super paiseh I tell you. And yes, I did feel like a freaking idiot on the road thank you very much.

While I sometimes would say, experience counts and practice makes perfect. I am seriously never ever going to try and find my way to a place I am not sure of. Apart from being honked at and stared at, I was super frustrated in the car everytime I ended up on a main road and having to find a way to turn back to I-don't-know-where-to-begin-with!

So that's my getting lost for an hour plus worth of experience, hope it was entertaining..

Ever since coming back from Phuket. I have (almost) totally lost all interest in shopping, in KL that is! Why? You ask. Cuz shopping in KL would enable me to shop double the amount if I were in Phuket. No joke. And since I'll be going up North again pretty soon. I am saving all my pocket money to be spent while I am there. Want me to buy things for you?

Easy, be nice to me lorh! :P

Then again, I am now being fickle minded between buying a new laptop and a phone (optional) or should I just save the money for something else.

Haihs, decision decisions... Anyhow, I should really seriously start working on the thesis proposal. Contrary to what people keep saying. I am actually not stressed about it, which is funny. It's as though procrastinating no longer causes anxiety anymore, which is... bad.

Target: 2 pages before my appointment @ Sothys at 6pm later.

Don't ask, I don't have answers!

This is a pure I-need-to-whine-and-complain-and-let-it-all-out post. So if you can't handle the negative energy, please DO NOT read on.

I mean it. I understand how bad negativity is, how much it can influence those around us but this one, I really cannot help it. So, you know best if you can take it or not lah. Cannot take it then don't read. Want to read then don't get influenced!

Nothing is particularly wrong right now. Everything is pretty much on track, that is apart from having yet to complete thesis.

ERB has been approved (yay!), parents gave the green light to do Pattaya in Aug (yay!), I spent 3 hours in MV and I didn't spend a single cent on myself except for my McD lunch and parking and I managed to purchase Heng's stuff (yay!)...

Since nothing is particularly wrong, it's all the more weird that I don't feel right. Eh, not making sense right? Right. I know. I have no idea what am I saying either.

I wonder what is wrong. But I don't know. But how can I not know right?! It is me. Bah. Usually when I come across this feeling, I do a couple of things and it makes me feel better.

1. Polish nails.
2. Go for hair cut.
3. Clean room & toilet.

But this time, I don't even feel like doing any of the above lah! How. Let alone work on thesis, super no mood. Urghhhhhhh!

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Maybe I should just try and go the all three of the above and see if I feel any better afterwards. No wait... Hair cut is out of the picture. So, polish nails and clean room and toilet.

Okay! I shall. Be right back (or not).

Just FYI...

I am back! Safe and sound. No tsunami, no h1n1. Praise the Lord!

And its thesis all the way for now. Or rather, it should be thesis all the way from now.

Therefore updates will have to wait.

A quick one!

In another 20 mins, I'll be leaving home.

To go Phuket! :)

I know, "What is this girl thinking, now is thesis time some more can go vacation! Does she know her priorities?!!"

Trust me, I do. In fact, I am very well aware of my priorities. Let me just say this one more time, if I decide to do something (for the most of it lah), I would have already weight the pros and cons and rationally made my choice. So it is the same this once.

I'll come back and panic perhaps, but I know I'll manage somehow.

The one celebrating birthday tomorrow, happy 20th (again)!
Those competing this Sat, all the best! Kick some butts!
Those racing this Sun, be safe, be careful and have fun!

As for the rest of you people, all the best with work, janganlah terlalu stress! Don't emo. Look out for one another from time to time, and while it is not really holidays per se, hanging out from time to time will not kill you.

Meanwhile, I am deciding whether I should travel with shorts or change into my jeans..

Pros and cons, pros and cons... Bye!

Let's bimbo talk for a little!

Okay! I am extremely happy right now!! For more than one reason but the major reason being, I FINALLY got approval! *phew* Thank God. Albeit it not being from the main author, I still got authorization to use the survey from the very nice co-author of the past research! When I say 'very nice', I mean VERY NICE, literally!

And I am on cloud nine once again! Happy as happy can be.

Yes, while I should be working on my ERB for Monday's dateline, I am taking a breather. I just Googled "pink laptops" - which somewhat reminds me that I have not told some, or most of you that I dropped my Fujitsu on the ground some time last week and it is now sitting at the corner of my bed waiting for me to 'transfer my files' over cause the screen has officially kapoot-ed.

And according to the technician, it isn't worth it sending it for repair. Buying a new one would be more worth its while! So yes, according to the technician himself! Not I say one.

Ideally this whole I-dropped-my-laptop-thing was supposed to be another post, but right now, I can't be bothered, so just know that the Fujitsu Lifebook is gone and I am currently using my old Presario M2000 which works fine except it actually belongs to Wes now. So I am gonna have to return it to him when I am done with thesis and get myself a new one! :P

Doesn't sound too bad for dropping a laptop eh? But I assure you I did not throw my laptop so that I could get a new one, as per what the dad claims. -_-

Anyway, I've digressed too far. Coming back to "pink laptops". I came across this! *click* And I have to say, the pictures are making me drool already! I can't wait to get my new laptop! I personally like the LG one best! I have not gone through the specs of each of them yet, but by looks itself, LG's winning.

Anyone bothered to offer me some clever opinions on buying a pink laptop? Me here is not a heavy gamer (not a gamer at all actually), just looking for something chic apart from long lasting battery life, clear screen -duh!, and preferably good speakers! Simple as that.

Oh right, the site's UK-based, meaning to say, I don't know if they have em' in Malaysia. But I sure hope they do.

Miracles do happen, after all... :)

I think I get high on Wheatgrass, the green grassy drink. Otherwise, maybe it is just the endorphins kicking in. Because even at this hour, which is uhm, 4.30am according to my time I can't help it but not sleep. Sorry to rub it in for those who have yet to get permission but fret not, I will continue to pray for you and hope for the best.

I have done my ERB first draft. Check through it tomorrow and all that is left is to print, send it to supervisor to sign and in it goes! Then hello Phuket, people pray ah please, that I'll come back in one piece, seriously.

Shall we continue with a lil bit more bimbo talk? Since I don't get to do it often? Yes. We shall, just a little bit.

I am liking the black Aldo bag that belongs to the mom, I am keeping it for good lah yeah? Thanks! :) FOS is now selling Nike dry-fit caps that comes in an array of pretty colors! Prices are way cheaper then in Nike stores (I think) and the material's good too. Was thinking of getting the dark pink one, then it'll be a perfect match with my new Billabong rashi! Oh well. I love Diva that accessory shop! Everytime I enter that shop, I feel like a kid in a candy store. Except, when I turn the tags over to check the prices, I gasps in horror and my insides puke blood. So freaking ex! But yet so pretty the things! Haihs, nvmd. I need denim shorts, why are they so hard to find? :( I like Envee too, I think they've got some pretty nice items but way to pricey. Again. Oh right, I am again considering on getting a pair of gladiators. Maybe one with wedges. Then it'll help me in the height area as well. Kill two birds with one stone. Why not right! Oh lastly, I need want a new phone too. Nothing is wrong with my current one, I just.. want, exactly.

Hope I didn't give u a hard time! :)

2 very special July babies!

Not that the rest of the birthdays aren't special lah, but these two are what I would say, beyond special. Both of them are extremely significant people and more so because I won't be celebrating their birthdays with them this time around.

Heng's on the 17th (today!)
and Seu's on the 22nd (5 days from now!).

The reason I am posting them together is because they're both just inseparable. Hehe! Not in the kinky sense lah okay people. But more so because, one, their birthdays are so close to one another. Two, they're good friends (or I think they are). Three, they are both important people in my life!

Also partially because I won't be around on the 22nd to post a special one for Seu. Sigh, if only you both are here then we'd all be going to Phuket together!

Fuh, touched or not? But really, love you both. Have a fantabuloustic 20th you two!

When they both turned 18 two years back!

They got their ears (left) pierced last year on Heng's 19th!

No, you're not seeing double.
They do look alike, sometimes.
But then again, it doesn't matter..
:)

Seu! Get Heng to read this please! I know you read my blog from time to time but I know my own brother doesn't. Thanks lah!

Happy happy birthday you two! <3

Essentially

everyone wears a mask at some point in time. And that mask changes the roles it is meant to play when in a different scenario, in different environments, with different people and at different times of the day.

Sometimes, when my body gets tired, I wonder if the mask is tired too, for if you think about it, the mask works harder! It is forced to play multiple roles and understandably it hardly rests because it is almost always 'on call', except for when you're asleep.

Sometimes, the masks gets so tired that it tells the body, this is too much, this is sickening. What then? Shed the mask and be yourself?!

... easier said than done.

I guess it is the same when you keep things to yourself. One tries to keep things under the covers which essentially is also creating a mask to block the outside from seeing the insides. And while I cannot say that I know exactly how it feels, I guess I can somewhat understand what it may be like.

Pain, loneliness and a constant urge of wanting to cry.. perhaps?

And for that very same reason, I am glad & beyond fortunate that I have a family to turn to when the going gets rough, that I have supportive and wonderful good friends whom I can count on.

So while it may not seem like the brightest of future, just remember that you're not alone and that you have people around you who are more than willing to lend u a shoulder, to wipe away your tears, to just, stand by you. So, don't keep things knotted up inside you.

Sometimes, it is just best to let it out and take the mask off for people to see the real you!

Listening to Chun Feng's disc, enjoyable choice of music, mhm!

Control

.. is exactly what I do not have at the moment!

Geez.

At least I finally managed to cough up a to do list which proudly consists of 15 items! And Gmail has this new function called 'Tasks'.. looks like my to-do-lists can go paperless soon!

But then again, my to-do-lists need to be physically written down, right in front of my eyes, and I must be able to physically tick each item when I am done with it before I feel the sense of satisfaction.

So boo to the new function Gmail has to offer. Well, not boo it but boo it because I won't be using it despite how it was meant to be used by me.

Gah. The above didn't make any sense at all, did it?

It's a sign I tell you, I shall make the rest of this post in point form (yet again!) to save u the urge of choking me to death for making you go through the whole thing and not making any sense while I am at it.

1. Regarding yesterdays post. A few days ago, I mailed a friend, a skipper in Thailand to ask if he needed any extra crew for an upcoming event in Pattaya, and he replied saying "Yes, you're most welcomed onboard", although I rephrased his short email into one sentence, that was basically what he meant lah.
   And 2 days later, a local skipper sent me an email asking me if I wanted to do the very same event with him!
   
   There you go, two shots! Equally tempting. I have been given the opportunity to sail with 2 skippers for the same event. But how to choose!
   
   Okay lah, it is more difficult to pick than it sounds here but there's a story to the whole thing. It dates too far back to tell you the entire story and I am not in the story telling mood. But anyway, it isn't really a choice either. Considering I approached the first skipper first. It is courtesy to reject the second offer. It's just hard.. saying "No" sometimes.
   
   Then again, I need to talk to the parents about even going for the event to begin with! So, back to square one lah.
   
   
2. I am due to fly to Phuket for a separate event (not the one I am talking about in the above) the coming Tues. It's a cause for celebration really, but the best part is.. the dad got an email warning about a possible tsunami happening on the Wed after I am due to arrive in Phuket. /gg
   
   And he had to forward it to me with an attached message saying, something for you to consider about your coming trip!
   
   How lah like that! Why! Anyone can tell me whether tsunami will hit Phuket next week or not? I really don't want to die there but I really don't want to cancel, it is not even an option!
   
   For once in my life, I really want to know need to know what will happen in the future.
   
   
3. Looks like my point form isn't working out so well either. If only words can come out pouring like that with regards to my thesis, I'll be a happy girl.
   
   
4. I just made a cup of Slim Tea the mom handed to me a few days ago. The ironic part of it however is how I just had ice cream before this. Gr. Crap.
   
   
5. I shall not even mention about gym cause I can guarantee you it'll make me emo-fied.
   
   
6. Let alone the amount of money I have been spending on eating out lately. *repress repress, repress all negative and bad thoughts* Cannot. Emo is not good, not healthy, not conducive.
   
   
7. I really don't want to be dramatic and complain about my nothing-serious-to-do-list but I want to whine! I can't help it. My blog, I can do and say what I like. Don't want to hear, then skip this item.
   
   Why lah do I have so many things to do! I don't like it like this. I don't want to do anything! I want to goyang kaki and enjoy life all day long. Why cannot! You tell me why! Grrrrrrrrrrr.
   
   
8. Bah. Blame the hormones lah. Just blame the hormones. It's the best thing about being a female. 'Blame the hormones' is a valid reason to use for mood swings in women ah (or at least I think I remember vaguely that it is valid lah)! Shopping only comes in at second for being among the reasons /excuses it rocks to be female.
   

The end.

This is just too good to be true.

Seriously.

When you're given one chance, you better grab it.

When you're given TWO, call yourself lucky and count your blessings!

But.. What if you had to pick between the two?

o.O

Then.. GG.

That's why, too good to be true.

Jie, you look weird lah!

That was what Wes said to me when I drove him to Bangsar Sports Complex in my dad's not-so-new-anymore-but-still-pretty-new Camry.

He said,
"You look real tiny lah, driving such a big car".

Hm. That's why I say, I want a Mini Cooper lah daddy dearest!

Pssst!

I got story to tell...

But I got no time!

:(

Wait okay,
till after Monday?

Before then, keep repeating this...

"All the best to those presenting this coming Monday, All the best to those presenting this coming Monday, All the best to those presenting this coming Monday, All the best to those presenting this coming Monday, All the best to those presenting this coming Monday, All the best to those presenting this coming Monday, All the best to those presenting this coming Monday, All the best to those presenting this coming Monday...."

Thanks! :)

Serious stuff

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I mean, serious serious stuff.

People, come on, grow up for what it is worth! Stop acting like 3 year olds. We're much too old for kids games okay? Let's stick to Pictionary or something, something more intellectual.

[Okay lah, so that was primarily me talking to myself because I sent out a mass email w/o first thinking of the consequences and the impact of it because I was pissed and furious at a particular someone].

But anyways, that aside. I realized this trend. The I-love-a certain-who-who-more-so-the-person-automatically-gets-more-privilege trend.

Okay lah. I get it, of course you treat those you like / love better than the rest.. but ah, have a limit leh. Don't do things just because you feel like being childish because it is being childish! And also don't do things for the wrong reasons lah, ie, gaining attention -it is the only example I can think of because I am like that, and unfortunately I am writing this! So hah.

People don't like people like that! Another reminder to myself, period, too many reminders.

Okay that's all I wanted to say. If you think you're similar to me, you too should reflect and stop where you are and what you're doing and think of better ways to live your life cause it is just, too much nonsense causing others pain and frustration to get what you want.

And not to forget, it is effing childish okay. So okay. Ai Li stop being childish, stop stop stop stop!

That aside, I am no longer angry or pissed. In fact, I am quite a happy girl today. To mention a couple of reasons. I finally watched Transformers 2 and it was pretty awesome lah. I wouldn't mind watching it for a second time but yeah, lessons learnt? None really. Then dinner @ Telok Gong with the uni bunch was awesome lah. Hehe! Tried the legendary "Ye Hua Jiu" loosely translated should be 'wild coconut wine' Flower Coconut Wine.

It didn't stink as badly as what I was told before. And it tasted sweet and gassy. I don't know. I quite liked it though. But the presentation / packaging of it would make one think twice lah. Alcohol served in those 1.5L plastic bottles can't be of any 'good'.

Okay. That's said and done. Now it is full blow thesis and then a well deserved one week break in Phuket! Yay. Or maybe not. But at least there's something to look forward to.

Time to get some shut eye, gym tomorrow after piling up on all the food over the past 2 days.

.. hopefully I do get out of bed by then! :P

Guess where am I?

:) Hee!

Krispy Kreme Mid Valley! I know I love my girlfriends for a reason. It just got reinforced.

Okay lah. I am actually more glad over the fact that I am finally here more than the fact that the doughnuts and drinks lived up to my expectations.

Everything is way way way too sweet for my liking. Like eating sugar. Diabetes ah! And of course, I didn't spend the 50 mins on the treadmill to pack on the extra sugar! Rawr.

Oh well, it is too noisy to study here. We're changing venue.

Need to drink up my too-sweet-for-my-liking Hot Chocolate. Ciao!

Life

Hah! Did I successfully trick you into thinking I was going to write about something intellectual and deep about kehidupan? Okay lah. That was just sheer nonsense but I don't have a brilliant topic in my mind for now so.. play along lah kay?

The sole reason I am here now is because I have nothing else better to do I don't feel like doing the things I am supposed to be doing and all the other things -blog hopping, Spider, drama-ing, browsing through online boutiques, tv watching, I even cleaned my belly button! etc, I have already done.

I left out cleaning my toilet on purpose because I don't wanna destroy my pedi and mani just yet.

Feeling restless but there's just really nothing much that sparks my interest at the moment. And I just missed a call from the dad because I have my earphones plugged into my ears. Bah. Probably called to ask about dinner. I need to stop eating. Hur. Gym tomorrow I must go!

I have been itching to go try out Krispy Kreme in Mid Valley! <- super contradict 'I need to stop eating' also right?

Yes I know I know, live so close still dare to complain what right!!

The thing is, everytime I am in MVs, I just don't feel like it. Then when I am not in MVs.. I am like this lah, complain and regret that I still haven't tried it up till now. Humans.. are funny creatures! Or maybe I should speak for myself. Hehe.

Listening to FT Island - Troublemaker. Hoho!

Kay, I am done with this redundant post which was not meant to make any sense to begin with!

Oh, really? Yes, really.

My mind is semi jumbled up again. So it is lists again today! :)

1. Talked with Heng on the phone for a good hour this morning. Boy, I miss my brother. I am starting to really think that he's the elder one now. He's grown so much in terms of maturity. Guess him going to the States paid off very well, after all. I miss him lots and I am very very proud of him too.
   
   
2. A friend commented and called me an owl after knowing my habit of studying late into the at night. Most friends would (by now) already know that I 'function' better at night. Less distractions, better attention span, better input. Win-win! So yes. I am an owl and I prefer studying in the wee hours of the morning.
   
   
3. My attention span now, at this point of time, is close to ZERO, if not at ZERO. One chapter the whole afternoon, what an achievement. Crap. And also due to the reason above, I think my body is officially starting to retaliate. Or maybe it is just still sore from my gym session 2 days ago. Ugh, I need and WANT a massage!
   
   
4. Pft.. I should not have trimmed my hair (a couple of weeks back)! I now prefer it tied up then letting it down, which is a sign that I do not like the shape it has taken on now. Should I go trim it again? Haha, I had the random-est of idea and for a short while, was thinking of dye-ing it red. :P
   
   
5. Google Chrome is actually rather fun to use. But I'm still trying to get used to it. I like how it displays the 'most visited' sites! Looks so, pro.
   
   
6. I have not been drinking enough water! I just realised. My liquid intake for the whole of yesterday was teh-o-suam from Devi's, Green Tea Frap from Starbucks, and Mango flavored tea while mugging at night. Oh, and the one bowl bak-kut-teh during dinner! But how... water is so tasteless.
   
   
7. Haha. I still wanna watch Hannah Montana! I don't understand why people -the friends, are so against it. I like The Climb, and I think Miley is pretty! And the trailer looks like it's an interesting watch. Maybe when the finals are done with I shall go watch, if they're still screening it.
   
   
8. Funny thing is, everytime my mom walks into my room, I would have either just closed my power points, or it just so happens that I am doing something else apart from studying. So, she currently thinks that I don't study at all and everytime I say "I am studying", she thinks I am lying.
   
   
9. Haha! Got called a 'good girl' for something I did correctly??, I suppose. Interesting how simple praises like that can last people a long way. Ego boosted yet again.
   
   
10. Last but not least, Happy Be-earlied 22nd Mike Wan Chee Horn! As people once told me when my birthday fell on the same day as the exam, "For all you know, it'll be your lucky day, you miraculously manage to answer all the exam questions and ace that paper!"
    
    Hopefully, it rings true for you!

I wanna go grab dinner now. All the best to those sitting for papers tomorrow and for the rest of this week, bye!

This is why I will never learn to cook!

Ai: Nancy (my domestic helper), saya mau makan telur goreng bawang untuk makan malam lah.

Nancy: *grumble mumbles grumble mumbles* <- cuz she too lazy to cook

Ai: Takpe lah, you sediakan bahan, saya masak.
You ajar saya saje lah, lain kali saya boleh masak sendiri.

Nancy: EH TAKPE, YOU TAK PAYAH BELAJAR LAH. YOU LIHAT SAJE CUKUP.


-____________________-''

How like that? You tell me.

Carry over effect?

I need to be systematic and organized. So the contents of this post will all be in lists.

1. Yesterday was the cutest friend's 21st! We had 2 surprises. Success rate probably only 60.8% but that's not bad already lah har? At least the cutest friend was happy and jolly about it. <3
   
   
2. Hit the gym for the second time today ! Pretty proud of myself so far :)
   
   
3. Finals is this Saturday! Is it me or is it something else.. This Saturday, is 2 days away. Freaking *&^#%, I am so not prepared!
   
   
4. Thesis defense is in less than 2 weeks. OMG. Proceeds to *faint*
   
   
5. *revives* ..because Phuket is in 3 weeks! Bitter dahulu, manis kemudian, bak kata entah siape. Also pray ah, that H1N1 not so serious by that time.
   * need to book tickets, gg, so lazy I is! Personal assistant I will confirm hire when I am rich.
   
   Latest update: Tickets booked already! Yahoo! Pray ah pray.. H1N1 please go away.
   
   
6. Do you have this feeling? That sometimes, things are too good to be true? So you're happy and smiling one second and the next you're worrying about how long you're going to be happy for?
   
   
7. Yesterday, HauRan said to me "EH AI LI, YOU PREGNANT ALREADY AH?'' Sit ups and massive crash diet on the way! *sobs* Don't ask me out for food. Don't tell me you're going out for food. Don't tell me anything about food, I will kill you.
   
   Joking lah, joking lah. But he really did say that to me though :(
   
   
8. I need a Pedi, toe nails looking fugly and getting too long for my own good. Ivy C, don't ffk me tmr! Anyone else wanna come along and have pretty toes too?
   ** but you pay your own ah, I get mine paid for cause it is part of my birthday package from the kawans. Thx lah u people, if you're reading this!
   
   
9. The room is becoming messier and messier and messier, but I am not too bothered about it just yet.
   
   
10. I wanna get that sailor-ish pair of sandals from Vincci! :(
    
    
11. Oh right, the toilet needs washing too! Washing MY OWN toilet beats booking flight tickets and arranging other stuffs. So I still rather hire a personal assistant over a toilet cleaner.
    
    
12. :) :) :) :) :) :) :) :) :) :) + :) :) :) :) :) :) :) :) :) :) + :) = :)))))))))))))))))))))
    

The last item on the list explains the title for today. Carry over effect from the 60.8% success rate of the cutest kawan's surprise yesterday!

Okays. Byes. Got to go mug. Or EBSCOhost-ing. Or waste more time and cry later.