Lappie Has Officially Died On Me

=(

3 Fans Because Air Cond Is Leaking

头有点痛。

Weather is wayyyy too hot.

May seems like a month with a lot to look forward to. 1st May is a holiday, Labor Day plus bak kut teh with the high-school bunch. Then I am off to Banjaran with Mommy on the 4th and the rest of the weekend; 5th May is a public holiday too (Wesak). ISO briefing on the 7th. 9th - undergrad orientation. 11th is Daddy's birthday and the 13th is Mother's Day. Planning to go for my medical check up that weekend too. Something is meant to be on for the 19th but if that's not happening, something else will. Le Meridien buffet on the 23rd. Gonna schedule my hair coloring between one of the weekends too.

And then it's JUNE! Jeng jeng jeng.. :D

Okay bye.

The Sad Truth

Too much ugly behind all the pretty.

Think I am sweet? Think I am kind? Think I am brave? Think I am loyal? Think I am compassionate? Think I am bold? Think I am quirky? Think I am loving? Think I am caring? Think I am playful? Think I am nice? Think I am polished? Think I am all that I am? 

I hope, for your sake, and mine too, that you are right.

Vet says doggie is a fatty bom bom.

Someone, hug me to sleep please.

Mid Day Saturday

I know it's only mid way through Saturday but given my memory, I probably won't remember half of the things I currently have in my head if I waited till after dinner to post.

Sailing was good today. It was damn hot though. And the skin on my fingers is peeling. It was peeling since yesterday, it's the time of the year, where I shed skin and my body replenishes itself with 'younger' skin. LOL, but it's true. It happens every year without fail!

Hmmm, and I am missing you today!

I have always thought that one of the more romantic gestures included holding hands in the car while the other drives. Dangerous, I mean could be potentially dangerous but dunno, I find it super sweet, at least in my world I think so lah.

And, it is a new record today; 31 minutes from RSYC all the way back home via Federal! =) And no, I wasn't exactly speeding.

Had fried chicken and 芒果冰 after sailing with the rest of the bunch. If I don't drink enough water, tomorrow confirm will wake up with a full blown sore throat.

I really hate my daily lenses too. I had difficulty taking them off again today. It felt so good seeing them flushed into the sink after I finally managed to yank them out of my eye.

My FB newsfeed is flooded with Bersih 3.0 updates. While I don't exactly mind it, okay, actually I do mind it. People, the whole world knows about the rally, stop posting about it already!

Oh yes! I finally figured it out today. I need a new watch. Ever since I started crewing more, I have had this issue. My timer always auto stops itself. And the reason for that is, because my gloves tend to push against the start/stop button every single time I bend my wrist. Therefore I conclude that faulty watch design = time to buy a new watch. Plus, I never really owned a Baby G, maybe it's time to get one.

Okay, late for dinner with the cousins. Tata!

Spreading The Joy Of Simplicity

Today has been pleasantly awesome, in more than one way. So much so, I just wanna share the joy with each and everyone of you...

I woke up feeling good, which always is a good start, throat was slightly sore but one full glass of honey and cider seemed to do the trick. Skipped on bf because I was full from that one glass of drink.

Got dressed and left home earlier than usual for work. The view this morning was just more beautiful than usual, for some strange reason. Everything was just clearer, the air was fresher and the breeze just kept filling in. I told my newest colleague (when we met on the shuttle bus later) that this is one of those days were I wished I could just laze in a park and take in all the surrounding beauty.

Maybe it was also because yesterday was the last day of final exams, so we were student-free today. Oh, the peace and serenity is highly addictive.

Had a late lunch, then there was the official announcement that school's out tomorrow because of all the road blocks. Time passed by relatively quickly too. As we had plans to go shopping after work which we promptly canceled due to the massive reports of traffic jams and whatnot, we decided to reward ourselves with some coffee at the main campus after work hours. Bliss!

Then I dropped the good friend off at the train station and headed to Bangsar to get my hairy legs waxed and guess what?! Parking spot right in front of the shop and no Q whatsoever at the beauty parlor. I told myself, this had to be my day.

I guess to say that everything simply fell into place today is the best statement to capture my feelings for today.

To top all that up, mommy and my gate-away vacation to Banjaran next weekend has been confirmed. Hot springs here I come! Massive splurge on Mommy's side. /grins

Promise I will take lots of photos..

I hope all you guys had a decent Friday too!

And of course, have a great weekend too everyone!

Green, Yellow, Red

Go, pause, stop.

Inspired by the traffic lights. Go figure.

Dinner with the sailing bunch @ corner duck rice in Lucky Gardens, then bubble tea, then dinner round two @ Reunion, both BV. I love my neighborhood.

Mildly irritated now. Throat feels sore-ishy. Lappie's not reading my SD card and I can't find my camera cable..

And my inbox is getting spammed from those going to Samui over the weekend. Have fun you guys and girls, stay safe, take care of one another!

I am gonna head to bed, hopefully dreams are gonna be somewhat sweet.

Of Love, Being Difficult and Bad Timing

As misleading as my title sounds, no, I hadn't meant it to mean, love being difficult and what counts is timing. I had meant 3 different topics.. Read on.

Let's start with love.

Credit

Head: "Idiot, you're gonna die!"
Heart: "Don't worry, pretty girl you can fly."

Trust who? Trust heart, because heart called me pretty and head called me an idiot.

And Ivy sent me this today - How Men Really Think. I really liked the last bit, because it did come as a surprise. It goes something like this, the one truth about men that comes as a surprise to us ladies.

Men, fall in love easier than we think, they also have bigger hearts than what we think they have; When they really like a girl, they also ask that question we so often ask ourselves when we really like a boy, "Does he like us as much as we like him". And then the ugly truth is, NOBODY ever wants to be the party that likes the other person more. Being selfish is human nature after all.

If someone asked me, do two people who really love one another deserve to be apart. My answer would be, if they can find ONE reason why they shouldn't be together, then they probably aren't meant to be together. I believe that if the love is so strong, then no matter the differences (or whatever reasons there may be), both parties will work it out, to-geth-er...

That's what it is isn't it, that thing called love, that's what love is all about!

Chapter II - Being Difficult

It struck me at work today about how difficult people usually are the people who end up getting what they want. Like for instance, if you keep complaining about something, chances are, you'd be referred to someone higher and higher until eventually, you reach someone high enough who can give you what you want.

I am coming from a strictly customer service vantage point. But it's true right. You want something, even if you probably don't deserve it, you make a hell of a noise, make all the people annoyed, make yourself most hated human being, but eventually, you'll get what you want, because people will eventually have to do something to make you shut up.

Some people might call me a pessimist for calling these type of people assholes difficult people. Maybe more optimistic people will call these 'difficult people', persistent and determined people instead.

I mean, I don't know. Depends on how you would like to see it I guess.

Chapter III - Bad Timing

Of all the silly things I did at work today, the tiny big boss had to bear witness to it all. And I mean ALL of my shenanigans.. It probably is a fortunate thing that he caught it all today since he was in a chirpy mood and not some other time when he'd be thinking, "Why on earth do we hire nuts like this in the department?!"

For all I know, he could be thinking that. Oh gee, crap.

Alrighty, I went to have my face cleaned professionally today and so I didn't wanna come home and straight away remove all the goodness they slathered onto my skin. But I shall go feed my stomach now and shower soon after.

Doggy needs to be fed too.

I Had To Laugh At The Absurdity Of It All

Edit: I am getting mighty pissy. I have edited this post twice after posting it. One more thing that goes the wrong way, no amount of Earl Grey and milk is gonna save tonight.

Upside down and inside out.

Girl, if he could do it to her, he could do it to you too. Just saying. Boy, you're an ass. Dear girl, you deserve better.



I had to scavenge through my inbox in search of some old emails because I needed to find some information. But I couldn't find it! Does Gmail auto delete emails after a certain period of time? =(

The interconnection between things, events and people. As I was checking through my inbox, I came across old conversations, amazes me how 1 + 1 came together and bam! became 2. -__-



Going out for noms noms with mommy, so cherry tomatoes I am saving for tomorrow, probably bring them to work with me. Healthy snack.

Cherry tomatoes for dinner, plus milk and earl grey. *heart*

Have got some major plans in the making, woohoo! Exciting, not gonna share about those yet, don't wanna jinx myself. =) Damn it, so much for not jinxing it.

Mid week tomorrow, love!

Because Lemon And Milk Is Not A Good Combo

At all.

And I just thought that everyone should know that.

I should have known. -__-"

Fresh Milk And Cherry Tomatoes

Yay, milk is still fresh. Lemon Sky, with milk?
No harm trying. I have always preferred my tea with milk anyway.

And I am gonna have my cherry tomatoes for dinner tomorrow!

Tempted to get my nails done, but at the same time, I'm a bit reluctant.

I have been deprived of talking today. Seriously.
Can you tell?

Where is everybody?

Hello

Hmmm ahhh uhmmm yeap.



Today was meh. Not bad, not great, mediocre probably is the word. The other day, I was invigilating exams, and a student put her hand up, so I went over and she pointed to a word on her exam paper which spelled the following three alphabets, a, p and t, and looked at me innocently and asked, "Is this a word?"

I didn't know what to say. I think I got away with, "Yes, it is a word."

Yesterday was the annual convocation of the university. Happy students, rather, happy graduands were all over the place! Proud parents and all that, it wasn't so long ago that I was in that position. Seeing all that made me happy... Happiness is contagious.

Congratulations again to all those who graduated. =)



Doggy is a lazy bum! -__- He refused to walk after going past 4 houses and I had to carry him! Where got dogs so good life one like this one!



An awesome song.

Okay, bye.

Heng, This Is For You II

Just to annoy you (and all the anti-Bieber fans who reads). But really, he's not bad what! Least he knows what words make a girl happy.

If I had a boyfriend, and if he'd say "I'd never let you go".. Chances are I'd be very happy to hear it. Throw in Buzz Lightyear, confirm...

... will watch Toy Story together. XD

Credit; Lyrics

Tummy ache, wah piang.. >(

天空下起雨了

如果再舍不得，这样下去，每个人都是受害者。

Somethings, people won't tell you. Because they'd assume you already know. And sometimes, you probably also know it but because your mind and your heart are not cooperating with one another, you tend to forget what you know. So sometimes, it's good to have someone to lay down the facts with you. You may not like it, but the fact that it is a reality, there's no point playing hide and seek.

Just saying. I hope you recover soon.



Not great, but points for cute..



天空真的下起雨了。。。

Earl Grey plus Milk to warm the soul, and I shall attempt to sort out my income tax! <3

Talk About A Sense of Achievement

Done with academic schedules for 2013 and 2014. /bangga much

Dear whomever-who-is-gonna-take-over-my-portfolio-after-me, be thankful kay. But God bless you, you've got 2015 and 2016 (and counting) ahead of you. I'd be damned if I end up still being the one handling it at that point.. *touch wood* Don't jinx yourself girl!

OH ME GOSH, I'D BE 26 IN 2014! :O

You Are Yellow

You are the brightest person in the crowd, and you stand out every place you go. You are incredibly charismatic. You are truly joyful, and people like to be close to your happiness. You have a strong, positive effect on others. You are very memorable. A lot of people know you, even those who you haven't seen you in years remember you well. You are often as happy as you seem, but sometimes you fake it a little bit. You know people are counting on you to lift them up... and you don't want to let them down.

What Color of the Rainbow Are You?

Blogthings: Our Quizzes Weren't Written By Bored 12 Year Olds

I am a yellow yellow dirty fellow... and sometimes, I fake it just a little bit. =)

Bed time! Sweet dreams everybody, love tonnes! 

Futuristic Stuff

You See Love in Your Future

Five years from now, you will have deeper and more satisfying love in your life. Whether you're in love now or not, you are on a path to having your love grow exponentially. Ten years from now, you will have more people you're close to and deeper friendships. You bond easily with others, and you will meet people that you connect deeply with.

What Do You Envision For Your Future?

Blogthings: Free Quizzes for Everyone

Tonight, will be all about academic schedules for 2013 and 2014.

Dear world, if you end by 2012, I sure am gonna hate you.

Honest Statements

I will always have a soft spot for you.. but if your choice is to be distant, I will respect that, and I guess at the end of the day, there is only so much I can do.

Growing up is such a pain in the butt! File income tax, register as voter, pay for petrol, pay for this pay for that... Jinx turning a year older, I don't want to be 24 already. Though I should really be watching my expenditures.

My antibiotics have a funny unpleasant smell to it. Good thing is I've got probably another day or two to go before I finish the course.

I am super glad the way things turned out today. I personally feel that everyone's being a little too harsh, and while it is correct that a lot of mistakes happened this past couple of days, we shouldn't scrutinize just based on this week alone.

Imma dye my hair red again, highlights I mean. And paint my doggy's 'house' with the remaining pink paint I have from painting my walls.

Got to catch up on reading and I think I may have just found my secret hideout to do just that! <3

Every Single Person Has A Story

And every story has it's own meaning. And every single one has their own interpretation that is exclusive to them and them only.

So who are we to judge. We shouldn't.

Though, I can't help it lah. No matter how I see it, no matter how beautiful. I think that was very low. Very inappropriately low. And maybe it is because I sorta kinda know all the characters involved, while not personally and not very well but enough for me to have formed impressions (very bad of me, yes I admit and I am not very proud of it), but I just think that some boundaries shouldn't be crossed lah.

Then again. If I were to reflect on myself, I've done something similar, albeit of less seriousness. Or so I like to think. And like I said, that's just my story, someone else could have a different interpretation to it. Which brings me to the point where I go, I shall stop being so critical of others when (i) I don't even know the full story, (ii) people have their own reasons, (iii) we are not here to judge others.

So end of chapter, close book.

10 RANDOM but at the same time, NOT SO RANDOM STATEMENTS 

So you were the one reading from the Philippines! Explains how readership shot up from there (I've said that I track readership right), one mystery in life solved. I hope you're feeling better.. <3

I want for my 24th birthday.. *quick, this is your cue to get pen and paper!* A bouquet of flowers, a puppy, more of that awesome herbal shampoo from Melaleuca (I'll explain more later on), a microwave oven, deck shoes, FreshKon lenses - please ask me for my power first okay, I don't wear contacts just to look prettier, I actually cannot see clearly without visual aids, I actually am visually impaired. I think that's it for now. I'll let you know if I suddenly think of anything more.

Yes, that awesome shampoo. Read review here. In my own words, it smells heavenly! I don't know if it's the Rosemary or Grapefruit or sage whatever that is, but it smells so good ah. And how I got to know about the existence of this was when I stayed over at Ivy Choong's place the other night, and because I was raving so much about it, her mommy gave me the small bottle, happy much!

I was a little girl at work today! *chuckles* They walked by, I instantly grinned from ear to ear, I turned away and giggled to myself. I hope no one latched on to it.

My colleagues or rather, friends-at-work said they'd like to have a mini Ai Li so that they can take me everywhere with them because I am funny. I am taking it as a compliment. Hee!

This is taking me longer than expected because I am not great at multitasking and I am talking to my girlfriends, we're trying to plan a trip and at the same time I am whatsapp-ing on my phone. And I still have some sewing to do, it's only one button really. Still need to research on preparation for Mount KK.

And why did it have to rain earlier! Just after I had my car washed, polished and waxed. >(

Had Korean for noms with Mommy. And coffee afterwards while waiting for my car to complete its beauty regime, only to be drenched in rain the moment I left the parking.

I've got 2 planned meals with 2 different Kevin's tomorrow! =)

I apparently have to file income tax too. Nooooo... And the deadline is end of this month, and have you realized? We're more than halfway through April already. Soon it'll be May, and soon it'll be mid May and soon, end of May and...

Tada, 5th of June! :D

Hmmmm

<3

Well done girl!

Catching Myself Off Guard

I am amazed with myself sometimes. And strictly speaking, there are a lot of reasons to be amazed with me lah okay?! Hello please thank you.

At one point, actually.. at many points, it was hard to forget certain details. And at those points, I thought I'd never forget them. Even at times when I felt I had recovered, certain details were just very vivid and hard, almost impossible to erase. Guess back then, I was purely convincing myself that I was okay, when I probably wasn't really okay, yet.

But now I can say that sure enough, back then, that whole I-am-okay-maybe-I-am-not-No-I-am-okay-or-No-I-am-maybe-not-okay process, it was indeed the recovering phase, safe to say, it was the road to recovery. I still talk about things, and I still smile when I remember happy moments, so I am not saying that all is completely forgotten, it's just, no longer at the forefront of my thoughts anymore. No longer occupying primary space.

Like I once said, not too long ago, about truths only being true at the one moment. I guess it is the same. Some things will be so important, so very important that you feel you'd never be able to give it up. And then one day, you wake up and realize that "Hey, that wasn't all that important after all".

I guess this is when I can say that I have fully recovered! Happy and glad at reaching this state. Whether it is on to something bigger, better, and brighter next, I don't know. And maybe, not knowing just makes it a little more exciting and makes us want to run forward, eager to know..

What's next??

P/s: Dear you, I don't know if you'll ever read this, but let's just say you do, I trust that it'll be the same for you. One fine day, you'd wake up and realize that yes, you had some very good moments that you'll remember for a long long time, but you would also know that they won't stop you from feeling happy. <3

P/p/s: Dear you, if you read and understood the above extract, it probably was for you, then again, maybe not.

P/p/p/s: Dear you, if you have no clue whatsoever what I am yapping about or if you're guessing your way through, give it up, it wasn't meant for you. But I love you regardless! :D

I Love The Broken Ones

I can't help it,
I love the broken ones,
The ones who,
Need the most patching up.
The ones who,
Never been loved,
Never been loved,
Never been loved enough.
Maybe I see a part of me in them. 
- Dia Frampton; Credits

1:03:04 worth of endorphins. I happy! =)

Protect The Boss

B*tch. Painful accounts. Lymph node infection. More meds. 

Great. 

#sarcasm

Croissant. Raisin cream cheese puff. Buttery peanut apam. Kopi Panas. Happy colleagues. Salty chicken. Funny moments. 5.30pm's.

Awesome! 

As I was driving out of the parking grounds, one of the good looking tutors walked past and I waved madly at him. He must've thought I was some strange and mad woman girl... because he just walked by. Sad max!

Why you no recognize I am your colleague and wave back! >(

3 Words

HAPPY BIRTHDAY CHAI!

/smiley

Officially 1000th

I just had to hit the 1000th mark today. Had to. =)

What a weird weird song, Hair?! Well, she's a wacky character anyway.. but I like the tune to it. Heard it on the radio while I was working on the nine hundred and ninety-ninth post!

Credit ; Lyrics

The only thing, the one and only thing I identify with the song is, "I just wanna be myself and I want you to love me for who I am".

Okays, good night peeps! Love lots.

999th

Photo browsing. I know why! Back in those times. Those innocent days. It's 11.11 on my watch, make a wish..

Not the emergency 999.

The 1000th Post - Minus Two

Update: Maths fail - I had two drafted posts, which was why it showed that I had one thousand posts when in all actuality, it's still at 998. Well, good for me, 2 more posts to make it count towards a good 1000th.

Just because I look tough,

Doesn't mean I am unbreakable.

Yay to the thousandth mark!

The Strange Moments In Life

I am having a sore throat. And I hate sore throats. Period.

Today is a mix of complexities, good, weird, sad, and bad and neutrals.

A colleague may be getting engaged come October. My best friend from high school in PD is getting married in August. I had 3 rolls of popiah and 4 gaozhi's to myself today. I learnt that madu didn't only mean honey in Malay but it also is used to refer to your husband's other wives in the Muslim culture. We had also tried fixing the toilet door because the stopper broke but it never occurred to us to call maintenance instead. I had to stamp and sign on - was it close to 200 pages worth of photocopied documents, life of a celebrity!

I am sitting wondering if you remember the time when you had bought a rose for xx and I was there too and well, technically speaking, I did get a flower from someone else too. Funny how moments intertwined to what it is today. Then again, I am glad we're all still friends, in some weird way. Maybe in 10 years from now, it'll be a tale that we can all laugh about.

At work today, there was this moment where I asked myself, "Why do you focus so much on all the bad stuff when you have so very very very much to be thankful for?"

Maybe if you had the time, you should think about it too. I know I'll be thinking about it today, and tomorrow, and maybe for a long time to come.

And I got to know about another death today. I really don't know what I feel about it, death I meant. I think I am scared actually. But, people come and people go, and perhaps they have gone to a place better than where they were before, now up there in heaven, watching us from up above, making sure we're safe and taken care of. That's what people say right? Yup, I'd like to believe that.

The reason why I am writing so much is because of my current condition. The more I talk, the more painful my throat hurts, and therefore I haven't been able to express myself much today hence the talking now all translated into writing. Also because I may very well be going on my disappearing act again, I call it disassociation, or detachment if you like.

I wonder if there's a correlation with expressing my pent up thoughts everyday into writing and my well-being. There may very well be. That's why people say keeping a journal does people good. So this break will be more of an experiment than anything. I don't know how long will I be gone for, but we'll see.

I did just get back not too long ago from a very porky dinner with the family at the SS2 mall, I had pumpkin soup and some ribs. See, this is the funniest thing, when I eat, there's no pain! Explains why I had the 3 popiahs and 4 gaozhi's earlier today! Food eliminates pain!

人家生病没胃口，因为我是个特别人类，生病就是我的发胖期！很特别吧！

I've been told that I've got a pulling factor. It's a compliment ah in the case you are wondering! But as far as I know, the pulling doesn't typically lasts very long. Ish. Like all elastic, after awhile, it loses its elasticity. But I guess, better than nothing lah. Or it could be that I just treasure my personal space a little too much, my bubble can't hold more weight than just myself, so as soon as I've pulled enough, I push.. sounds wrong on so many levels I shall stop saying what I was saying. Bottom line is, the pulling factor usually gets me what I want anyway, for the most of it. So this can stay as it is.  

April highlights! Since I am gonna be gone for awhile. Work this Sat, sailing on Sunday, Banjaran Hot Springs hopefully sometime before convocation duty on the 22nd. Is that it for April? Hmmm. Well, I left my diary at work, so I guess that's really it for now.

You Fall for the Guy or Girl Next Door Type

You think that people make love too complicated, and what you want in a partner happens to be pretty simple. You're content with someone who's nice, attractive, honest, and normal. So how come that's so hard to find? You are fairly traditional, and you value security in relationships more than most people. It's important for you to find someone loyal. When you find the right person, you don't expect much from him or her. You're just happy to be together.

What Type Do You Fall For?

Blogthings: A Fine Line Between Insight and Stupidity

In the meantime, can all the guys next door please come out to play? :D

Comforting In A Weird Manner

Credit; Lyrics

"I wear my heart upon my sleeve, like a big deal"..

1. I am loving my new Alluring Eyes contact lenses. Thanks to FreshKon, I got the buy one free one promo so I got two of their newest colors, Mesmeric Black and Magnetic Grey. Am now using the black which is amazing! Both in terms of comfort and in its aesthetic value.


2. At work today, I was sending out emails as usual, and also of course being the sweet self I usually am. So one of my nicer students wrote back and said, "Thanks.. Have a great week ahead too and stay sweet." So I replied saying, "Always am sweet." To which she responded with "It's a good thing your parents didn't name you 'Modesty'. =P"
   
   Funny how something as simple as that lasted me through the rest of the day.


3. I really hope that it'd stop raining in the mornings. I have been late to work for 2 consecutive days because it's too nice to just stay in bed wrapped up in my blanket!


4. I super like the green polish my friend got for me. I think it's the prettiest green I have ever come across thus far. And when I showed my painted nails to daddy last night, he asked, Are you sure you can go to work with that?
   
   Yes Dad, I can, because my workplace is super cool, we drink Chatime, eat KFC, record all our speech errors and laugh at ourselves and today we've got two new tutors who are both relatively pleasant to the eyes..


5. And to finish this post off, I got myself a new 1Tera external hard disk over the weekend! It's deep red in color and it is extremely pretty! Shock proof too. 

Money fly but yay me!

It's April Already

Happy April Fool's day!

It's okay to fool around occasionally and appropriately, but never ever be a fool. Wise words from yours truly.

Therefore I have decided on this very historic day that from now on, if I am the only one who's gonna be putting in effort to reach a goal, then I am not gonna do it. Why fight so hard when no one else cares about it and end up getting disappointed. Screw it.

You don't care, I won't either. Full stop. Life moves on, next stop.

On the bright side, putting having to work over this weekend aside, I have had a pretty decent day. I heart my girlfriends. Sushi for lunch, pizza and spaghetti and guava juice for dinner followed by The Vow. That's just the gist of it. Also, because yesterday was the 31st, mommy dearest bought back tubs, I ain't kidding, tubs of Baskin Robbins ice cream.

It's the season to get fat and be happy!