In The Case You Were Wondering

Insomnia go away! Yup. Lappie has died on me again. Sigh. Should really just get a new one. Happy birthday Malaysia in advance. PD over the weekend; first school friend's wedding I am invited to! Excited!

Dear Future Husband To Be

                                           "Someone To Love" - Shayne Ward

Finally
She came along
Broke the spell
And set me free
Pushed aside
What use to be
All the broken hearted man that once was me
I never gave it up
I always believe
When she's in my arms I know what I achieve

So hear me loneliness
I'm giving up on you
I don't need you anymore
I've found what I've been looking for
So hear me emptiness
I've got no room for you
I've finally found what I've been dreaming of
Someone to love

Hey
Cos I was lost
I was down and out
Until that day
I knew what my life was all about
Still wonder how
She came my way
She's the reason I'm smiling here today

So hear me loneliness
I'm giving up on you
I don't need you anymore
I've found what I've been looking for
So hear me emptiness
I've got no room for you
I've finally found what I've been dreaming of

Someone to love
To hold
To be my inspiration
Someone to touch, to cherish for life

So hear me loneliness
I'm giving up on you
I don't need you anymore
I've found what I've been looking for
So hear me emptiness
I've got no room for you
I've finally found what I've been dreaming of
Someone to love

Someone to love

Oh baby

So hear my emptiness
I've got no room for you
I've finally found what I've been dreaming of
I've finally found what I've been dreaming of
Someone to love
Someone to love

Credits: Youtube / Lyrics

Wedding song okay! :P

Visualization

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I can visualize un-friending certain people on Facebook. Not so much for the fact that they're not friends, but more because, I don't know... Call it, knowledge is power and there's some amount of power that I completely don't mind letting go off. Because power corrupts.

Heng got himself injured, again. This time requiring several stitches to his chin. Poor boy, I don't know why he keeps getting himself hurt. Sigh. Get well soon you. Love you loads.

Insomnia last night. So I created a list of things that was bothering me. Not going to share that list. Though hello dear you, it doesn't work that way. No, it doesn't. You want something, you work for it.

Fatigue is not funny, makes me Little Miss Grouchy. Cooked up a meal and had fresh fruit yogurt, patience and time, attraction and infatuation. Paper cut again, deep one this time, on my ring finger.

Several dinners lined up this week, work schedule looks scary for the next couple of weeks. I am kinda looking forward to October just so that we can get past the hectic month of September. And of course, there's Sibu nomtastic adventure in October too!

September, you're still a couple of days away but when you come, please be kind.

I've Said This Before, And I Am Saying It Again

I am no angel. Not even close.

I am not outright mean or cruel and while I claim that in no way whatsoever do I resemble an angel, I am also not the kind who would cause harm to others. Meaning to say, I am no devil either lah.

But my stance is this. If you are going to give me shit. I don't see why I need to smile and wish you "Merry Christmas" and/or give you a prettily wrapped birthday present. If you get what I mean.

You want to be angry, go ahead. You want to be upset, be my guest. You want to hate the world, fine by me. But if you want to be an ass about yourself and expect an apology, I am sorry, that is not happening.

You want to be miserable, suit yourself. You want others to rid you of your miserable life, tough luck. And if you are looking at me to be that someone, Hmm, really?! /raise eyebrow

Moral of the story is, I completely can see how this does not sit well with the portfolio of being in the helping industry.

Oh dear me..

Some Lines Should Never Be Crossed

Never is a strong word. But I'll use it this once and actually mean it.

People argue that grey exists for a reason. Because there's always middle ground. But I sincerely believe, some lines shouldn't be crossed, ever.

It's like, one tub of ice cream. Fine. One tub of ice cream plus one mouth full of chocolate sauce. You're out.

Okay, bad example but something like that. Somethings in life, no means no. If it is bad for you, it's bad for you.

When lines turn blurry, that is when things starts to get scary.

His Story, Her Story, Your Story, My Story

I was having dinner with my parents the other day and mid way through, I thought to myself..

"Hey, that foreign waiter boy most likely has his own life story to tell, probably if he had the chance to. And that boss lady, she too would have her own life story to share."

And then the bigger picture dawned on me.

The man seated on the next table. The family that just walked past our table. The driver who was blasting music through his/her car. The chef, people I don't know, people I know, we all have our stories. Whether we share it or not, that's our choice. But we each own a storybook consisting of details we hold dear to ourselves.

Every single human being, will have their own story to tell. Each unique to their self.

So do you and I.

The Red Thread

This is not a new concept or idea. I've learnt about it from somewhere before, probably from a drama long time ago. The idea that everyone is linked to their special someone by that line of fine red thread.

好难得 - 叮当

Really though, is there such a thing - 爱上对的人? Probably the equivalent of asking if happy ever afters exist. At the end of the day, it's what each individual make it out to be, right?

Thirst - quenched! Man I miss alcohol. Workday week though, not wise, then again, it was only a teeny bit. Such a short week, awesome nonetheless. Broga on Saturday.. Sailing on Sunday?

Hm... I wonder.

懂我再爱我- Ella & Tank

I've been listening to the Chinese radio channel over the Raya break because all the English ones were playing a tonne of Raya songs which is perfectly fine, just that I had the choice to not listen if I switched channels, which I did.

Likewise, I don't listen to Chinese channels during the Chinese New Year because dong dong chiang's can get annoying at some point.

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Apparently, direct translation of the title..
a) love me again when you understand me, and/or
b) know me before you love me

I'd definitely go with option b.

Know me first, then love me for who I am.

连续剧- 容祖儿

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Didn't Your Parents Warn You About A Friend Like Me

I snack on Nutella spread on cream crackers. I complain for having too much. I will come up with all sorts of reasons to avoid you if I don't like you enough. I don't scrub the walls of my toilet because it is too much work. I get stressed up for stupid reasons (like having to organize my toiletries).

People shouldn't focus so much on the self. But we're all me people, what to do?

开心 | Open Heart

Hmm, feel strangely happy today.

Maybe, it's the long weekend.

Maybe, it's the nice cool weather after the rain.

Maybe, it's the lack of traffic from office back home.

Maybe, it's because it's been a good day.

Maybe, it's the KFC for lunch.

Maybe, it's the prospect of lunch with the high school girlfriends tomorrow.

Maybe, it's the steamboat dinner with the kawans tomorrow.

Maybe, it's the affirmation that I have been good.

Maybe, it's the idea that most people I hold dear to me, are all doing well.

Maybe, I simply just am, happy.

Have a lovely weekend you all!

Healthy Self Esteem

I can't help it. I am all for aesthetic value.
Like your face?
(Without an ounce of hesitation) Yes.

LOL

One World, Different People, Multiple Perspectives

It's no one's fault. It is just that our world, or the way we live our lives, differ from each other. Thus making our worlds seem so different, which reflects in how our values are different, which in turn explains compatibility.

It's really simple and easy when you break it down like this. No need a Math genius for this, hello, it's me talking.

I should really be in bed now though, I've spent the past hour, or past hours or so going through Zalora. My wishlist has 17 items now. Going to check with Ivy to see which item to purchase tomorrow since we've got coupons. Well actually, that's today when I wake up from my slumber (hopefully not late for work again)!

Essentially it is just one world we live in, yet, so different. Peculiar as it may be.

Such is life! Love life.

Haru Haru

I was late for work this morning. I woke up late.

And the damn haze is back in KL. Makes breathing difficult. Go away you stupid haze.

Both parents are out for their respective buka puasa dinners with their office people, that left me and Wes. So I treated him to dinner and cake. That little one did real well for his IGCSE, mega proud of him! =)

The thing about composure is that it's only good while it lasts.

Need to get contact lenses, facial toner and a slimming package some exercise gear like new socks. iPod too? Neh, maybe not.

Well, at least some people are happy.

You miss my smile? I miss it too.

Long weekend ahead! Plans?!

When Making No Sense Makes Sense

No, I didn't stay up for the closing ceremony after all, slept like a baby.

Work aside, today has been rather pleasant, I treated myself to a venti Hazelnut Latte and then had a huge ass bowl of mushroom soup for dinner. I am as-a-matter-of-fact, very easily pleased.

My Starbucks card is now on 20 cents though. LOL

Adele got it wrong, instead of "Someone Like You", it should've been, Someone Better Than You.

It feels like I smacked myself in the face, real hard. Not literally but figuratively. I wonder where do I go on from here, neither seems like a brilliant plan. But I trust life will figure its way around in due time.

I've visited Pantai Hospital three times over the course of the past 7 days, once was to visit Chai, then it was for my mega expensive orthopedic consultation and then today it was to visit Chai again. He had his tonsils removed (-__-) the only thing I can relate to tonsils is the movie "Sybil" and that movie scares the shit out of me still.

But anyway, do get well soon you! /heart

Yesterday's post hit a record high too, thanks for reading you people, I hope I've been keeping you all entertained.

I want to go for a vacation... Anywhere will do actually.

An Update On My 50 Things To Do in 2012

I've been having this throbbing headache since yesterday. Funny though, with the presence of food, the pain disappears, but with the absence of food, it gets worse. >(

Tell me about it being psychological. 

Anyway, you ready? Here we go!

1. Travel to 2 countries/ places I have not been to before.
 a. Club Med Cherating
 b. Banjaran Ipoh

2. Submit applications for Masters.
Status: I've got up till the 3rd of September to decide.

3. Invest in hair care treatment.
Status: I've been treating my hair well.

4. Bake a cake.

5. Wear a dress once a week (unless special circumstances).
Status: Come to think of it, I do wear dresses once a week, on average.

6. Wear heels once a week (unless special circumstances).
Status: FAIL

7. Red highlights for the hair before mid year.
Status: I colored it red again sometime in May, but it wasn't quite highlights, but the photo turned out good though, most "Likes" I ever had on Fb, ever!

30 over "Likes"! (Y)

8. Do charity work / volunteer.
Status: Participated in the annual World Vision 30 Hour Famine. Man, this is something I probably will never want to do again. Starving for 30 hours just ain't my thing. But the lessons learnt, priceless. I'll be doing my part come this 14th, will you too? *click*

9. Go for a full medical check up.
Status: I've had my blood tested, pee too. (-__-) Doctor says I am perfectly healthy! =) I also went for my specialist consultation with the orthopedic surgeon, costs a bomb for a 10 minute consultation! He said my spine is a little twisted and a little bent, but says that it is 'normal' and that I'm good to carry on doing whatever activities I so wish! :D

10. Keep my hair super long.
Status: Trimming your hair does NOT make it grow longer faster. I keep reminding myself.

11. Get a new pair of glasses.
Status: Checked, except I've gone back to wearing my old pair.. LOL. Sometimes, I myself don't understand myself, this is one of them.

12. Re-start up HELP Sailing Club.
Status: This is not happening.

13. Use a satin pillow case.
Status: Using them pretty lilac colored cotton pillow cases.

14. Buy a satin pillow case.
Status: Didn't end up getting satin pillow cases after all, too hard to find. Instead settled for some high quality cotton ones. Lilac purple, pretty!

15. Do something nice for one person (or more) each day.
Status: I am thinking this is going quite well, I give myself off days from time to time. Some days, no one deserves to be treated nice.

16. Smile and say Good Morning to the first person I see every day.
Status: For the most of it, the first person I see everyday is my kakak.

17. Go climb Mount KK.
Status: Conquered yo!

I think the peak behind is the same peak you see on the one ringgit note. 
I think. :D

18. Get a second opinion on the wisdom tooth.

19. Drink more water.
Status: Have got to drink way more water.

20. Play volleyball.
Status: This is probably not happening either.

21. Not use work as an excuse to not sail.
Status: I actually have not done a single regatta so far, and it looks likely that it'll end this way too. Sailing over the weekends have been on and off too. But there were a couple of memorable ones..

The Birthday Champagne Sailing Day

And more recently, sailing with the colleagues. Like finally!
Ivy's not the only colleague I have but at least I don't need to ask her for permission to "feature" her here.

22. Go fly kite.

23. Go for a picnic.
Status: Checked.

24. Do something crazily spontaneous, like an impromptu trip somewhere.
Status: Hot air balloon trip to Putrajaya.

25. Try something completely new, can be anything from food to a new experience.
Status: There was trapezing, and then there was zorbing too.

26. Make 10 new friends and remember them.
Status: I am at 9 now! Not bad at all..

27. Eat more fruits.
Status: I eat more fruits now, particularly those that allows me to dip the assam boi powder, like pineapple cubes. Teehee!

28. Finish watching everything in my external hard disk.
Status: Don't think I'll ever finish everything. 

29. Read up on NPD.
Status: I have not even started.

30. Either read and return The Lucifer Effect, or return it without reading anyway.
Status: I've started reading it, and progress was good at one point, got to page 175, then I conveniently hid it somewhere and haven't touched it since.

31. Only make promises that I can keep.
Status: To keep this true, I have been very careful in what I tell people. I always ALWAYS add the clause, "But I am not promising you anything", so much so I no longer know if it's just me shying away from being accountable for things.

32. Quit impulse buying.
Status: I bought some stuff from an online blogshop - Bon Voyage, but it was just that once. The danger of buying things online is that you'll never know if it'll really fit, but overall I am a happy customer. =)

33. Do the sailor nails. Maybe for my birthday maybe hmmm.
Status: Obviously, my birthday came, and gone and no, I didn't do the sailor nails.

34. Avoid showering late at night if I can help it.
Status: This one I have been bad at as of late.

Non quantifiable items
35. Trust more.
36. Talk less, listen more.
37. Be more social.
38. Be responsible.
39. Be patient.
40. Take less, give more.
41. Forgive and forget.
42. Love, don't hate.
43. Make time for those who matter.
44. Eat healthily.
45. Be kind to others.
46. Remember that respect is earned.
47. Be brave.
48. Do not envy, do not be jealous.
49. Have a big big heart.
50. Be nice to people.

Closing ceremony of the Olympics tonight, should I attempt to stay up??

The Games

The Olympics. So much pride, so much hope, so much emotions. Makes me feel at a lost for words.

Am watching the Ladies Match Race on the Elliots as I am typing this, the finals between Australia and Spain. It makes me wonder about things. What do I want out of life, out of sailing, out of how I am spending my time, out of who I spend my time with etc etc..

Haaa, one way I can relate to the games on a personal level is that I know the umpire who's umpiring this race. LOL

The racing is intense. Olympics was never my goal, who am I kidding. World Championships? Been there done that, not my thing either. But seeing people strive for their best makes me want to do the same too.

Whooospie, spin pole comes off on Aussie.. Intense Intense.. Broach on the Spain boat... Olive Price skipper of Aussie steers using 2 fingers. T__T Okay, I am not gonna bother with this. Some intense racing going on, massive hiking, sailors looking good.

I wanna go racing too.. Sometime soon maybe.

What If

Everything is just a put on. A show - where all actors wears a mask and plays the role. Would you buy it?

Too Much Good

That's why people say, "There's always a rainbow after the rain."

Well, I'd like to challenge that, it's certainly not always, but yes, it does work that way sometimes.

Can I scream now? Can I?

I NOW OWN A PAIR OF FITFLOPS!
I AM OFFICIALLY A PROUD OWNER OF MY VERY OWN PAIR! :D

Thank you Mommy!

A quick recap of today, work - lunch - work - dinner - Step Up Revolution.. Not the most exciting Step Up but what's not to like about amazing choreography and hot bodies, males and females alike. I think I should learn dance too, maybe that'll help with the generation of some abs. /wishful thinking

Boys Like Girls; Be Your Everything

Officially on leave tomorrow, going to the hospital to check out my bone condition, shouldn't be anything major, I hope the doctor will be giving me advice on how to 'straighten' out my obvious-to-me-but-not-obvious-to-others crooked body.

Little bro is putting in his application tomorrow too, that means 2 years of him being in the same building as me at the very least. Everyone's growing up, am I too?

So much to do, so little time.. As always.

Does It Suck To Be Me Or Does It Not

I don't ask for a lot in life. At least I don't think I do. And yet.. Who's to give me an answer when I have myself to be accountable for. When I myself have the answers. Goodnight world.

Highlights; Pay Special Attention To 8 and 10!

Warning: Long post. If you only want to spend 1 minute here, go in this order 8, 10, 3.. the rest really aren't that important. :P

1. Lost my favorite pen at the Famine Camp. Boo, lent it out to some campers and it never came back. Was a tad sad but oh well, on the bright side, time to go stationary shopping!

2. Really cannot fathom the mentality of "cheap so buy more", "free so must queue up", "popular so must participate", "it is the trend so must follow suit", kiasu and kiasi - in simpler and more commonly accepted terms..

3. Wore my wedges out for dinner with the mom and lil bro. Feet didn't hurt at all! #challenge If I can conquer Mount KK and survive Famine, there's nothing I cannot do!

4. A parcel is arriving for me tomorrow, cannot wait, excited!

5. Big Bang - Monster (the inspiration behind my earlier entry's title) & 2NE1's I Love You.. because I spotted my name appearing on the screen behind them!

6. FitFlop, a good buy or another successful marketing gimmick?

Initially, I had wanted to get a pair because so many people were wearing it. (I know I just talked about kiasu and kiasi at no. 2 but in defense, if so many people are spending a fortune on them, it must be good lah right?) After a while though, I just left it be, too pricey, there was no way I could justify spending so much on a pair of slippers/ sandals. But then lately, so many friends have been sporting them and they've all got good things to say... Yay or nay?

7. Everyone would have in some point of their lives, done something crazy. I know I have, more than once. And more than once, it was something crazily bad, but I've learnt to forgive myself and move on. Have you?

8. One of the few things I took away from camp is that - all things start by taking action, and that is a fact that we all know, but often enough, people forget that taking action starts by taking baby steps. And that's how great things happen.

Have you ever wondered, every single time you spent on a new bag or shoe, or a fancy meal, or a movie ticket even, that RM10 right there, could be an opportunity for an education, for a better living for someone out there? Every time you couldn't finish a meal, every time you threw away something you no longer needed. Think about all those times.. Is there anything you want to do about it?

If you answered yes, click *HERE*. My bills statement comes in mid month, so I will be doing my part after the 14th this month, will you too?

If you didn't click the link above, here's another chance for you to do so *click*. Hahahaha, of course, this isn't the only way to help lah, but the next time you decide to order an extra dish just because you feel like it and end up not finishing it, or when you splurge on that new bracelet/ diamond earring/ whatever-not, please do remember that while we are privileged enough to lead a comfortable and seemingly luxurious lifestyle, let us be reminded of what that amount of money can do.

9. I guess that's a nay to the pair of FitFlop after all. And probably a budget cut on that stationary shopping too..

10. Last but not least, if you haven't already viewed this on Facebook, you can watch it here now.. =)

Bad But Not A Monster

Today literally went by in a blink of an eye! In a good sorta way.. =)

You Are Generous With Your Love

You believe that the world needs a lot more compassion, and understanding. It's a mean place out there.

You love freely, often, and unconditionally. You try not to see anyone as an enemy.

You think that love is the best gift you can give - and sometimes it's not easy.

Even if someone deserves love, it doesn't mean that he or she is lovable!

The Gift Box Test

Blogthings: Learn Something Surprising About Yourself

I hope Monday was kind to all you peeps too! Love!

I Am A Survivor

First, I survived Mount KK.

And now, I survived the World Vision 30-hour Famine.

What can I not handle from here on. Bring it on.

Good stuff.

I am "Wrong Way"

Don't think today was extraordinary in any particular way.. But it was good nonetheless.

World Vision 30 Hour Famine tomorrow, I hope my stomach holds it together and not go berserk.

Found this really cool blog, Oh So Pretty the Diaries! This *click* is a must share post.

Dinner, green tea latte and shopping. Car wash. Doggie is Si Botak but oh so very the cute still!

I now get it when people ask me, "Are your lashes real?" I was looking into the mirror earlier and Man! I've got some really pretty eyelashes, even I was impressed. #boasting101

You Are WRONG WAY

When you're confronted with a problem, you tend to tackle it quickly... and do the wrong thing.

You're a learn as you go type of person. You may make some big mistakes.

You often find yourself doing the exact opposite of what you should be doing.

No big deal. You just do a u-turn and eventually end up where you wanted to be.

What Street Sign Are You?

Blogthings: If Quizzes Are Outlawed, Only Outlaws Will Take Quizzes

And you would be which?

Have a great weekend people! Love lots!

Since It Was A Short Post Yesterday

I got to balance it out and have a long post today, my theory of balance. Not happy? Don't read lah.

This is me being passive aggressive - Okay. Maybe you hadn't meant for it come out that way but too bad, that's the thing about non face-to-face communication, the receiver interprets the information in their own way. So while I tried to tell myself that, no lah, that person wouldn't have meant it in that hostile manner and that person is their friend some more, cannot be lah, that person cannot be. 

BUT I CANNOT HELP IT LAH. That #@*$&*%.

You have been in this position before right, you of all people should know better. WTH. How hard is it to just read? Everyone has 24 hours a day, you are not any more special than anyone else to warrant any more of my precious time. So please explain to me why, just why would you place such a demand or "request"? Pisses me off. 

Disclaimer: I tried to be as non-offensive and non-accusatory as possible, and technically speaking, all of the above only took place in my head and in my head only, that is until now lah. I handled the situation with plentiful of tact. I just had to get it out of the system.

If the person above resembles anyone you may know, it is highly possible that it is the one, because well, who hasn't behaved entitled and high strung in their lives before? No one's perfect and we're all prone to making mistakes. Life goes on.

Perhaps, I secretly don't want to be loved. 

Maximum cheat day. Apple cider and honey. Pan fried dory. Egg tofu. A mug of coffee. Breakfast sub. White coffee. Chocolate. McD nuggets. Coke Light. Chocolate. Green tea. Korean cold noodles. Dukboki. Milk tea with coffee jelly!

Too heavy to go shower now. LOL

Yesterday, I was watching the Olympics... diving. Men's diving to be specific. Ogle ogle ogle.. Speaking of the Olympics, sooooooooooo many scandals and whatnot. Sigh. Why can't sport just be sport? And social media, yay or nay?

World Vision 30 Hour Famine this weekend. 30 hours of no food. How will I survive. Such a scary thought. But to think that there are people in the world out there who probably don't even have clean water, let's not even talk about food, that thought itself makes me feel so blessed.

Haven't done a RPP for quite some time now, will come up with one pretty soon.

Okay, think that's enough for today, TGIF! :D

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