The Squirrel Story

Once upon a time, there was this conversation that went on as such:

xx : We bought her a squirrel.
Me : WHAT! But squirrels are meant to be in the wild, they're not supposed to be kept as pets!

Funny. It was only after I said it did someone else tell me that the squirrel in point was actually a soft toy. /shy

Don't know about you guys, but I have this twisted logic that when many days have gone by and they've all been good, something bad is about to happen. I scared.

But good days are good days. I'll take whatever bad that is to come (if it is to come). It's a fair trade.

And I've been eating so much per seating but I still get hungry very quickly afterwards! Alien in my stomach must 've resurrected. -__-

On a much happier and sweeter note, it is a dear friend's birthday tomorrow. And while I think most of my friends no longer read my blog, here's to wishing her a fantastic 25th birthday.

May our God continue to bless you, and shine His light upon you. Love you banyak. 

Happy blessed birthday! xx

The travel bug is biting. It's a good thing Korea is in a couple of days.

Time for some dinner now, craving hot chocolate. 

Cinderella, Omo! Omo!

Rushing to post this up before it strikes 12 because today has been a beautifully good day and therefore it deserves a post on the day itself!

And also, evident of having been reading one too many kdramas. And the fact that Korea is in 6 days! The planning is exciting and tedious at the same time.

I cannot believe you actually asked me why. I cannot believe it. Short of me already giving you the answer before, short of you forgetting, I don't see how you can ask me why. This wasn't today, this was some time ago. Just that I am still in disbelief.

Ate like a true omnomnomnivore today! Let's see - nutella on toast, coffee, spicy chicken wrap and shaker fries from Mcds, a hugeass slice of pizza, half a loaf of garlic bread, and an awesome Jap bento complete with sashimi, duck salad, teriyaki chicken, miso soup, and a bowl of amazing japanese rice. 

Fatty bom bom in the making. Was telling myself I should run tomorrow morning but something tells me I won't be waking up for it.

Today has been pleasant in many many ways. Truly blessed.

Clear Skies and Shining Stars, I'm A Happy Girl

I can see them stars in the sky tonight! And stars make me happy. Wheee.

Itchy. Don't know if it's an allergy.

The word adorable is something I've associated with only positive feelings. "You're adorable.." makes my day.

Bubble tea craving quenched.

Drinking from the Bottle - Calvin Harris feat Tinie Tempah

Crackled nail polish success, woots woots!

If only lah, if only.

Tmr's Friday, it's the weekend again. /heart

June Is Almost Over

Need to file my insurance papers. They're in one pile of mess right now. Tabulated my credit card bills too, I've definitely been overspending. That said, I don't spend more than what I cannot afford to pay off. I am against spending money you don't have and going into debt for it. That's not responsible.

I'm still receiving birthday presents up till today. June's almost over! Not that I'm complaining. Keep em' coming! I feel like bubble tea, but I've got no more calories to spare.

There's this one story, that I have not told anyone before I am pretty sure, but today, oddly enough, I suddenly thought about it.

Many years ago (when I was much younger) and was still part of the national squad, I had gone down to Singapore for a Laser Radial event. I don't remember which yacht club this was, and many others details have long been forgotten too. But what I do remember is that it was my first overseas event having swapped boats from the 420 to the Laser. And I wasn't expected to actually perform because I was supposed to go back to training on the double handed dinghy once I found a new partner, which never actually did happen. Anyway.

So there I was in Singapore, and I remember when I was prepping my boat on the first day, I didn't feel any nerves, unlike most times. And when I launched to go racing, I don't remembering worrying about not doing well, or not winning. I just went out, and sailed. To my (and my coach's) utter surprise, I came back from racing that day leading the scoreboard. It was a Saturday I still remember if I am not wrong. NOBODY, not even I, saw it coming. I actually sailed well that day, caught all the shifts right, sailed the course well, and was winning races. Even the Singaporean coach came to me to ask how I did it during dinner, but I didn't have an answer.

So there I was, I remember thinking to myself, and even asking God at that point, if "This was it?" Was this my breakthrough moment - where in my many years of sailing career, that I'd actually start winning.

So the next day, I went back into the race course, and lost. So. Badly. It was epic. I remember crying, sobbing and crying, as I was sailing back to the club at the end of the day. Sad and disheartened that my wins the day before were just in the event of me being lucky. A fluke. I remember my then teammate telling me, "Sebab you jadi sombong pasal tu lah tak menang" akin to "because you became prideful (after the first day) and that's why you didn't win". Maybe.

There was no other explanation for it. How does one sail so well one day and completely flop the next day? And sad to say, I never did have another outstanding performance like that one day. When I tell people that I am not great at the sport I do, no one really believes me. Sailors who've competed with me would know though, that I was never really particularly good at it. But no one really says anything. Ohwell. And I don't get sore about it anymore either, it's a fact I've accepted a long time ago. You don't have to be the best at something to still enjoy doing it.

I hadn't thought about this one regatta and it never ping-ed as a significant event in my life which explains why I never mentioned about it. Strange that I just randomly thought about it today, can't explain what triggered the memory nor identify the significance of it,  but still I thought I'd share about it. =)

Sorry for the unnecessarily long blast to the past. I hope it kept you entertained for what it's worth. Back to present day.

Today somewhat also marked the end of something, somewhat at least. I think. In a good way nonetheless.

To end, 10 Tips For Flirting When You Don't Feel So Confident. I personally like tip number 10 the most:

Flirting is sort of like a competition, a survival of the fittest. If you don't act fast you'll be starving, and crushless!

I Hope Everyone Is Doing Alright

The haze really needs to go. It's making me moody.

Subtle should be the way to go about it. Humility being key.

Had Carls Jr for lunch. Man, their burgers are ex. And the only reason I went along with it was because the sick daddy has been craving it. I also had a Milo McFlurry.

Also bought some new work skirts. It's so easy to spend money. It's so bad.

People need to treat themselves to be happy sometimes. Even if they are cheap treats. All the better!

Gonna go collect souvenirs. Bye!

A Public Reminder For You To Please Take Care

So, school's out tomorrow. My first reaction to the news was, "Awww yeahhhh!".

But it didn't take long for that to turn into a "Oh damnit...".

Unpredictable breaks like this causes more stress than pleasure really. Even though it doesn't affect my work directly, it still has an effect.

I delete certain threads because I can't bear to read what I say sometimes. For the most of it, I question where I left my brain, and my sanity.

The air conditioning is turned on as of now, and as much as I feel that I am contributing to the worsening of the already horrible weather, I am just as reluctantly to breathe in all the smoke.

Least the sun is a beautiful shade of red and looks incredibly gorgeous despite it all.

Because I Am Better Than That

I really need to learn to stop being a spoilt brat with a lousy attitude. Because I should be better than that.

I just spent the last 15 minutes of my life watching this vid - it's a makeup video. Don't ask why I even got started, but if you're a makeup person, or if you wanna know how I just spent the past 15 minutes of my life, feel free to click on the link. I am fascinated by the power of makeup once more. And the deal breaker was her TWO SETS of falsies? REALLY?! Her lashes looked plenty thick to me in their natural state but (wo)man, there really is such a thing as taking it to a new level with these people.

I am still finding tomorrow daunting. It feels like there's a lot at stake. But we know that the world will not end even if the events of tomorrow go awry and that I'll eventually just suck it up and move on with life and Tuesday will still come. Of course unless I did just jinx the universe and tomorrow really is the apocalypse. With my luck right? With the hazy conditions and all though, who knows.

It's all the pent up frustration of not being able to go outdoors that's the driving force behind all the ranty wordings. Even my towel that sits so innocently in the toilet smells of the haze. =(

It's about high time to let go. And I want to be an adult when the time comes, which is about now, to behave in a matured fashion. Not that it is my forte, but trying is still worth a shot. I am associating too many things to you and it's not cool anymore. I am in the right mind to give you a lecture about the things you can, but shouldn't do just so that.. just so that.

Come to think of it, that imagined lecture really is just for my own good. Geez.

You cannot fault others for not knowing when you don't want to engage in chatter. They don't read minds. Neither do you. You cannot get angry at others for showing concern when you really just want to be left alone. They're just being kind and are mostly asking because they genuinely care. Let's just change all the cannot's to shouldn't's. Because realistically speaking, one can get angry, when they really just shouldn't.

So.

Truce? Shake on it? Pretty please?

Okay, Just For The Record

So the haze is badass here in the city of Kuala Lumpur and I pretty much am refusing to go out because it feels like driving out contributes to the haze, while walking out in the haze seems to be not-too-smart a move either. So staying home equals win-win.

Sorta kinda.

There is no 100% match when it comes to people. And it's not that people just settle either. I think it's more like, when people meet someone they like enough to eventually end up loving them someday, they are willing to make (and will make) the compromise to accept the other for who he/she is.

So, yes it is compatibility, yes it is love, yes it is physical attraction, it could be sparks, but more so than all of that, it's wanting to be with the person that really makes it count, isn't it?

And of course, it's a two way thing lah. Need I emphasize?

So all you single people, myself included, when we next judge a seemingly unique couple walk past us, let us not think about "How did those two people end up together??", but let's be happy for them because they have found someone who has accepted them for who they are and are happy together, while we, are still on the lookout for that one person.

I love all kinds of fast food, the instant kind. And I make good iced coffee! Who knew. Not particularly looking forward to Monday for more than one reason.

Monday, please be nice okay?

So How Do You Feel Today?

You Fall in Love Quickly

You are yourself in relationships.
You are very honest and real sometimes to your detriment.
For you, love is exciting and invigorating. Love puts a spring in your step.
You don't have a checklist when it comes to your perfect partner.
You're open to whatever happens in your life.
You connect to others easily, and you want to figure out if there's a spark as soon as possible. You don't hold back.

The First Date Test

Blogthings: Quizzes and Tests and Memes, Oh My!

Managed to prepare and cook dinner without smudging my newly done manicure. But guess what. As I chewed into my wrap, I bit my finger and there goes the first smudge. -_-

Milk for strong bones. Haze is messing with my plans to get some exercise in, so I cook or rather, attempt to. And work on my nails. And watch a movie.

Say, I am not even sure anymore, never was to begin with actually.

Essentially, We're All Just Pretenders?

English Rain (Full Album) - Gabrielle Aplin

I think this is one album where every song, I love. Too. Much. Win.

I suppose. Or, I am just angry with myself. My head hurts, literally. It hasn't stopped throbbing since mid afternoon. Please stop. Other than that, it's all just numb, or numbness.

Weekend love nonetheless! 

They Say, Be Careful For What You Wish For

I thought carefully. And I still wish for a bigger heart.

I wish I could love more without expecting anything in return. I wish I could forgive more quickly. I wish I were less judgemental. I wish I were more patient. I wish I were wiser in my ways. I wish I controlled my tongue better. I wish I listened better. I wish I could give more freely.

Brain be jelly today, and stomach be filled with Korean noms. Hahaha.

Well, Well

Well.

Tonnes to do. But I've been a lazy bum lately. Much to my own despair. Procrastinating seems to be the only thing I actually want to do!

Backdating slightly, Epic was really epic. I liked it.

Rise Up - Beyonce

Nothing is always bad! =)

Cute!

Everything Has Changed - Taylor Swift ft Ed Shereen

"And all I feel in my stomach is butterflies, the beautiful kind."

On a different note. The power of one text, from the person whom you want to hear from most. That smile. Priceless.

=))

Purple Contacts May Be Too Much Though

Your Eyes Should Be Violet

Your eyes reflect: Mystery and allure

People find you to be: Sophisticated, exotic, and intimidating

Your best trait: You can deflect criticism and make people forget your faults

What's hidden behind your eyes: A quiet passion

What Color Should Your Eyes Be?

Blogthings: We Have a Quiz for Almost Everything

You think? =)

It's Always A Choice. Always.

I had a couple of negative moments today. One included getting into a minor accident with an "aunty" on the road. Another includes having ugly bangs to live with for at least another week or so because my hairdresser thought trimming my bangs senget would be a smart idea and when I hated how it looked there and then, I told her to cut it straight and she almost refused saying that it looked nice but did so anyway except her standard of straight isn't quite the same as mine. -___-

I used to love this salon and I had gone back to the same place for almost 2 years now. But I think after this once, never going back again. Then again, it's just me lah. So I got home, took a pair of scissors and cut my bangs straight. Still looks hideous, but well, it'll grow. For the time being, it's hairpins and headbands, ie, photo below.

Gotta cut me some slack with my narcissism, I had a BAD haircut!
It's worst than a bad hair day because a bad haircut lasts longer than a day!

The crappy thing though, is that my head isn't very hairband friendly. Hairbands hurt my head after wearing them for a couple of hours. Meh. Then of course, there was home-induced-stress as well. A serious question. Am I the only one who suffers from this??

But like I said, it's a choice right.

Sermon was great this morning. Incredibly inspiring. I get inspired easily though, this I have to admit. I keep telling myself, feeling inspired is one thing, taking action is another. Maybe I should start doing something!

Also, I had a good catching up session with the kawan today. Fish head noodles at a local hawker and some good coffee in a quaint little cafe, and some walking about and just being happy people. Love. I am glad that things are looking good for you too my dear.

And, I did two laps around the hill in the evening. I walked though, not run jog. But the effects seem to be similar to running jogging around the tiny park. I think it's the slope effect. Tiring but felt so good. And I smiled at every stranger who walked past me too!

It's true hey, that just the mere act of smiling makes one feel happier. So I just kept smiling and I think I was singing out loud at one point. I think the breeze and the extra oxygen going into my lungs was a nice touch too. Moral of the story, smile a lot + breathe in lots of fresh air, and you're making good progress to becoming a happy person.

And then it was salted egg sotong, spinach soup and fish fillet with spring onions for dinner with the daddy. My treat of course! And as if it needed clarification but I shall anyway, we ate out.

So all in all, today wasn't a crappy day. There were crappy moments, sure there were. Like how I am gonna need to look in the mirror and see my ugly bangs for the next couple of days... I think I can't live this one down no matter how much I tell myself that it's okay. Sigh.

So yeah, essentially, there was some bad, but there were good points too. I can choose to focus on the bad, but I won't (except for the bangs part - which I've already told myself I'll never go back to that salon). And later we're probably gonna have some sparkly wine which was a birthday present to me.

I hadn't expected this to be such a long ranty post. But well done having made it to the end, good on you.

Remember - Always choose to be happy! :D

She Can't Sing, She Can't Dance

Walks Like Rihanna - The Wanted

But who cares. Our hearts go boom boom, boom boom!

Pimple on my nose. Hurts a tonne. Gonna make it a point to go for pasar malam this weekend. Looks like a pretty packed weekend once more. Yay. All I need is some physical activity and that would seal it. Feeling lethargy mostly, need to get rid of that.

Have you seen that girl, have you seen her?

Winning Quotes of the Day

"She’s so flawed, and jaded, and really embarrassingly prideful, and yet she’s still lovable" - Dramabeans on Hye-sung's character in I Hear Your Voice

"Please don't say you love me, because I might not say it back" - Please Don't Say You Love Me; Gabrielle Aplin

"You have a lot of unconditional love for people, though it bothers you when you're not loved in return."

"Just a little girl, scared of the world."

"You're incredible."

"Too awesome."

"Nothing is easy. If it were easy, it'd mean nothing."

"Constantly smiling is not a natural state."

"You’re at your most adorable when you aren’t trying to be at all."

"Of course I can tell when people like me. It's just that I am not very good (or accurate) at it."

Simply. Beautiful.

Salvation - Gabrielle Aplin

Today, I learnt a lesson. That pinning blame onto others is as easy as putting hope onto others. Essentially, you can trust, but trust is only good while it lasts. Also learnt that shopping online really doesn't pay off well, in other words, I am not built to the one size fits all ratio.

That song though. Utterly lovely. Simply beautiful.

I want to be like that too - simply beautiful.

No Shame

 Pastel pink silk top & black skirt | Beige OL dress with slim blue belt | White peplum top & pastel purple skinny jeans | Floral print one piece dress | (clockwise from top left corner)

The first photo was what I wore to work today. But I tucked it in when I was in the office.

I've always wondered how people take photos of what they try on in dressing rooms and then post it on Fb. I guess the answer is, just do it. I wonder if companies can sue people like me us for doing such stuff.

Anyway. I have got flabby arms. Ugh. Muscles where go you? And if you're wondering why I look darker in the bottom two photos, it's because I used a different filter from Camera 360 which is my favourite camera app to date.

And today, is a day where there was some good, and some bad and a bunch of I-don't-really-know's. When things are beyond your control, you'd just have to accept it. Right? And just believe that everything happens for a reason?

Besides, who am I to judge.

Very Undecided

Very being an understatement at this point.

Ten Paragraphs

Prawn Peeling | The last time I had prawns was when I was in Hong Kong. Hm. I generally don't like peeling prawns. Think it all started when I was a kid and had an allergic reaction towards prawns, t'was when my very first ear piercing got infected. I had so much prawns at dinner tonight though, so much so I am pretty convinced I'm gonna get some form of prawn poisoning. -__-

Sore Throat | Visited the dentist yesterday. Had my teeth checked and polished. What's the connection between that and a sore throat you ask? Well, ever since I got back from the dentist, I've been nursing this weirdish feeling in my throat. I think it's from keeping my mouth open AND breathing in through my mouth for a long period of time.

Gone | Gone are those days where a certain form of anticipation filled my mornings. Gone is the expectation that I'd get a message out of the blue which would make me do mental cartwheels in my stomach from the excitement. Gone is the day that I look most forward to every year too, well, it's only 360 more days to the next one.

Drama Recaps | I have this habit of reading drama recaps. Some people think it's really weird, but well. I like it.

Online Shopping | My haul has yet to arrive. I am sad. And because neither purchases have arrived, I am starting to get a bit antsy. And my urge to shop more is growing stronger each passing day hour. But to be fair to the vendors, I paid on Friday, which gives them not much time to pack and send my parcel. So moral of the story is - Always do your online shopping and pay by Thursday latest so that you don't have to wait over the weekend.

Lazy Bum | I'm such a bum sometimes I cannot stand myself. It's like I have an entire monologue in my head  about the things I need to get done and I always end up not doing anything because it took too much strength to think through it all in my head already.

Candy Pink | I finally experimented with the pink dye from the bubble whip DIY kit on Friday. I had convinced myself that I'd go to Guardians after work, grab a bottle, go home and get it done. And I did. It was slightly pinkish somewhat red on Saturday still but after two washes, it's pretty much just brown now. Pft!

Nikon Ads | I'm never going to see them in the same light anymore. Haha, but in the positive kinda sense. Like, every time when the ad plays before the movie starts, I'd naturally smile. And smiling is always a good thing, when it's genuine of course.

Running Another Marathon | As hard as it is to believe, I am looking forward to running my next marathon. In all honesty, it's because the last one I did, I sucked so badly. I feel it is almost necessary to run a next one just to redeem myself and move on with life after that. My worry is that if I suck at my next run too, what then? Another marathon? Maybe that's why there are so many people who run marathons. o__0 Note to self: If you're gonna do it, please train diligently.

Headaches | I've been getting these recurring headaches so frequently these days. I wonder what's up with my brain. Please don't be worms, they're gross.

The Broken Ones; Dia Frampton | Maybe I see a part of me in them, the missing piece always trying to fit in.

I Love Sundays

Most Sundays. =)

A Little Old School Maybe

Never Had A Dream Come True - S Club 7

Two facts you need not know about me. One, I am convinced I have enough pairs of earrings (studs and dangly ones combined) to go one full year without repeating a single pair. Two, I hate planning for holidays. The irony.

Looking forward to dinner tonight. Something tells me it's tea time now though. I think it's my stomach.

When you don't know what to think, don't think! 

P/s: You should also know not to take advice from me.

Dear Ai Li

You're cute.

Sincerely.

Well

That's sweet. But I'm hungry.

Forever Young

Forever Young - Alphaville

The birthday song.

Spot On

It's not about you. No true-er words. 

Happy turning 25 in advance, Ng Ai Li, all the best!

If Our Love's Insanity, Why Are You My Clarity?

Clarity - Zedd featuring Foxes

How cool is this song! Heard it on the radio, Soundhound-ed it, and Wes came in saying, this is an awesome song by Zedd featuring the Foxes - Clarity.

Some things do run in the family. Like music preference and good looks. Someone once said to me, "The one thing your parents definitely did right, was in making pretty babies." Can't disagree with that one.

Had an awesome dinner with the family at Ril's at The Warehouse, to celebrate my birthday in advance! Some crazy extravagant noms noms. Stuffed to the very brim.

And so starts June.

The Be-earlied Celebration

Thank you all for coming. Love lots.