I think it would be pretty cool, except, I'd be talking to myself.
The past weekend was plain nasty. I think I have never been that pissed for a long long time. But then again, I wouldn't say it was all bad either, there is always some good in all the bad, if you bother searching hard enough.
Again, dinner plus catching up sessions with the girlfriends is always rejuvenating to the soul, definitely therapeutic. Anyway, I don't know why but my elbows feel as though I have scrapped them on tar road. They're burning and it hurts, not like crap, but it's annoying. It is bearable pain but it's freaking uncomfortable. Ugh.
I went to the gym today! First time in a long long while. Legs sore already. Unfit sangat. But it feels good to sweat.. with gaya, with style lahkonon! Haha!
I NEED A MASSAGE! Shoulders about to break.
Speaking of which, is it me or is Facebook becoming boring?
Aiyuh, I know it's lame lah but that's what you get when u have lame friends. Heh.
Anyway, we finally had the chance to taste Chai boy's homemade Tiramisu, which he made with uh, a lot of hard work, patience and effort! Hah, I don't know lah, if I ever get the chance/decide to learn how to make it from him next, I'll let you know what the process includes.
The Tiramisu was awesome, I had 3 slices myself! No need for further explanation already lah like that. I forgot about the gadget called the camera, so sorry lah, no photos. But I had THREE slices okay! No photos also you can 'taste' how awesome it is already!
Thank you Chai! :) Bila next? :P Hahaha...
Anyways, now that we're almost done with this semester, the next big thing is thesis ah thesis! All the best everyone!
With the dates for presentation out and the new knowledge about our co-makers, hopefully, we will pull up our socks high high and start running fast fast!
Otherwise, really doomed liao! Cannot, negative energy reject. Reject. Rejected!
Let's all do our best lah k, people! /fighting <- inspired by k-dramas.
Aku banyak mengantuk. Tidur macam mana pun ngantuk jugak. Tak tahan betul. Mata asyik nak tutup. Kesian sangat aku!
Dalam sekelip mata, semester ni dah dekat nak habis. Yups, yang masih kabur kabur tu, minggu ni last dah, minggu depan dah nak exam!
Baik start baca buku, yang sibuk nak celebrate brithday tu, baik lupakan sahaja sebab yg lain kena mengulangkaji pelajaran dan siapkan prep untuk thesis defence.
Paling paling tu, kita makan breakfast, tengok movie dan pergi Alexis makan sepotong Tiramisu je lah ye?
Betul betul tak tahan. To do list asyik on refresh mode. Tak habis habis ada new items added on. Tick yang ni, tambah 5 perkara's lagi.
(lagu yang sedang dimainkan di radio membuat aku senyum..)
If I had my way, I had my way I wouldn’t change a thing, wouldn’t change a thing Cause you’re my obsession You keep me in the dark to see your spark You’re keepin’ me guessin’ Messin’ with my heart. Got it down to an art
You’re eyes surprise me every time You’re kiss it twists me, blurring the lines And it’s the very first night all over The very first smile and then I’m falling for you Again
You wreck my world, you wreck my world You’re always that girl, always that girl Who walked in the room and I couldn’t look away. You captivate So drawn to you, and I still feel that way Some things never change
You’re eyes surprise me everytime You’re kiss it twist me, blurring the lines And it’s the very first night all over The very first smile and then I’m falling for you Again
If a guy was to sing that to me, I'd be in heaven. Okay lah, maybe that's pure exaggeration but, seriously! Who wouldn't.. melt?! Instantly become jelly wei.
Okay that's that. Sure hope you enjoyed it as much as I do.. Yes? :)
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A special shout out to the dad who does not read my blog anyways,
HAPPY FATHERS DAY, DY! YOU'RE THE AWESOME-EST DADDY EVER! <3
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This was taken after I got back from lunch at the rather fancy Cubic Chinese Restaurant in Jaya 1 (or so I think that's what the place is called)...
Now now, is that her.. me? Or am I.. her?! Answer is...
C o n f i r m!
That's me alright (@ freaking 6am this morning!), nevertheless, ever so pretty, right?! XD Loving the pink and black butterfly scarf which costs me way more than it should have but who cares. Oh, loves! Told you I'll be back, missed me?
Blogger was being a bitch to me yesterday. Rawr. Glad its behaving today.
I have been thinking a lot lately. Whether good thoughts bad thoughts, I am not too sure myself. But definitely been working the brain a lot. Which really explains why I've been more quiet than usual. It probably also explains why I've been feeling tired (mentally lah).
Also, I find myself short circuiting a lot more than usual. I need to remind myself constantly to "not lose it". And I am fortunate to have people who keeps an eye out for me from time to time.
Honestly, I think I am blessed, in more than one way, which sometimes lead me to think: If I want more, is it greediness? Will I be punished for asking more? I should not complain. I should not demand. I should shut up, reflect and be merry.
Truth is, sometimes I question my own motives. I doubt my own capabilities. And true enough, I think it all branches out from the sense of insecurity, I don't trust myself as much I should be. I worry a lot about the whole karma issue too.
Thus, I feel felt lost, sesat-ed.
The reason(s) why I am telling the whole wide world this.
Because I know some of you people have sensed that something is wrong but because you respect my personal space, you have refrained from asking, and of which I thank you sincerely.
Because I have been pretty much an ass lately too, I am not using the above situation as an excuse, but.. this week is a self declared 'my/ai's week', I really couldn't find any extra energy to feel concerned for others, I tried, I just couldn't find the extra energy.
Another 2 and a half days to go for My/Ai's week. Bear with me till then, I'll be back to normal. Promise.
Anyways..
Apparently, yellow is the color most visible to the human eye (according to my table calender). It is also the color of ''imagination, cooperation, joy, happiness & intellect'' (Ai's table calender, June '09).
Wooot!! Good call for yellow yesterday ey?
Yesterday was a yellow mellow day. We must do this more often, makes me happy, I don't know if it made you any happier, but it sure worked for me.
The 'all you can eat Spag session' was fun! Actually, I think the presence of the camera made it all the more fun but yeah. The food was actually decent, the price lagi decent. It sure promotes obesity in the country, in my opinion! But once in awhile.. no harm lah kan? :)
Futsal & frisbee with the humans after Cross was good fun too. Those who decided to macho and go kaki ayam, lesson learnt lah. We shall all learn from their mistake and wear shoes when doing sports, *ahem* same goes for sailing too k! But apart from blisters / accidentally kick ball to other peoples' butt / immitating Ben the goalie stunts / kicking other humans legs / accidentally throwing frisbee at wrong target ie: human head (gulps, sorry Jeff!), it was all good.
That's why I say, with friends, life will never be dull.
With regards to the earlier part of the post, I am fine (if you're wondering if I am okay or not). I just needed a little more space to myself, just a lil more than usual.
I shall end with, Dear radio stations out there, please! Stop using the repeat function already!
Okay, I know I did say I will blog about it, but Sharon has already beaten me to it. Go here.
And what she has written pretty much covers everything, so instead of writing a similar post, I'll just put in additional comments, so make sure you read her post before reading any further!
When it hit 12am on the 5th, I was already smiling like an idiot despite still having a paper to sit for at 8am the same morning, simultaneously receiving messages on msn, phone, Facebook and also had a couple of phone calls, 3 to be exact, that night.
I wasn't expecting much for the day considering I already had an earlier surprise @ Betsopia but still, I was thinking 'maybe there's still something..'. All the way, I figured the movie was a distractor, and that lunch was going to be the other surprise. So when the trio (Sharon, Boon Woei and Mike) agreed to makan @ Alexis in The Gardens, I figured, Ah! So that's where everyone is going to be waiting! I have to say, I was UPSET when no one was there, almost to the extend of crying, note: almost. But, 3 good friends are better than none. So, content was what I felt.
At 2 o'clock, Betz called with her uber gila impromptu plan of going down to PD which she had mentioned to me over MSN the night before. I was tired but I agreed and the trio so reluctantly agreed to come along. Mr Chuah even called his mom saying '... going to PD, will be back before dinner'. ZzzZz, big ass liar!
By the time we paid the bill to leave Alexis, I was totally convinced that there was nothing left to expect for the day. Honest.
The trio + Betsy came up with the idea of telling me, "Hey, show us your life when you lived here lah''. How creative and totally convincing! I was so touched that they were willing to go all the way to PD to celebrate with me that I told them (when on the beach) with a pretty solemn tone saying "Hey, really, thanks for coming all the way to celebrate with me''. They must have been laughing in their hearts all along!
When I heard someone (who sounded really like Sam) scream "Oiii, come up lah, we wait damn long already", I still wasn't sure if that was for me to hear until I saw the reactions of the four, smiling ever so broadly. A trace to where the voice came from, I saw many human figures but they were all too tiny for me to distinguish who they were, nevertheless, a surprise it was to see who made it.
That's really probably the end of it. I've said thank you more than I can recall and I have said this will be the last thank you I'd be saying but I guess it just never ends. I am probably going to be thanking people at my 22nd for my 21st surprise. Seriously.
So, thank you once again!
The tone of this post may not reflect the real actual level of happiness I felt then but that's because we are in the midst of completing our position paper except that I am now taking a breather. So yeap. Was definitely hundred times happier then!
I will DEFINITELY blog about how I got punk'd turning 21 because it is too good a memory, so much so I want to share it with the w.w.w, literally, the whole wide world. But that'll have to wait till I get pass this week, because, we've got 2 due dates to meet this week, so be patient and tune in for more over the weekend.
But for now..
This conversation took place just a few minutes ago, within our Cross Culture online group discussion:
(... done with talking about serious stuff)
ai. says: xD ai. says: YAY, ASSIGNMENT PERIOD kevinS - says: first time aili so excited Michael says: lol kevinS - says: dai gor lui jor Michael says: whoa Michael says: someone dah mature kevinS - says: ya lo... ai. says: mmg mmg ai. says: ivy fast say something to puji me ai. says: i wanna blog kevinS - says: aili got check see got 3 white strands of hair not Poison Ivy says: -no comment?- Michael says: HAHAHAHA ai. says: -________-
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Poison Ivy says: to me hor.. aili is ALWAYS serious bout her work.. Poison Ivy says: probably sometimes not motivated but everyone also like tat wat Poison Ivy says: so nothing for me.. Poison Ivy says: for as long as she is committed and finish on time
Or maybe I should just go with "not within my norm".
So yes, tomorrow is my big day, the day I turn 21! So please bare with me while I get a little sentimental before I ''become all grown up and matured'' lah kay?!
It's already June, five months have gone by 2009, we're now in the 6th month! Gosh thesis! Thesis!! Thesis!!! Sorry for bringing that up but living in denial just ain't gonna work. <- more of talking to myself than anything else..
What have you done? What have I done??
Time flies, so much has happened yet so little seemed to have taken place. Age doesn't really change much, does it? Some things confuses me so badly, I wish I never had to think. Some things I am so very afraid of that I just keep doubting myself. Some things are so foreign to me that I convince myself 'it'll never happen to me'. Some things, I just don't know how I will ever EVER manage, without you people..
in my life!
Hence.. thank you, each and everyone of you, for being part of my life!
For helping me iron out my confusions - understanding, for constantly telling me that 'you can do it' and for giving me the extra push in life - support & assurance, for staying with me through thick and thin and for walking with me - learning together, for making my life as beautiful as it is!
Without you people, seriously, I don't know if I'd make it this far, if I'd be smiling right now and thanking God for today and for everything that has happened.
So, if you have not gotten me any present(s), don't worry about it! A hug tomorrow will be more than enough. I mean it. That's why lah I said from the beginning this is out of the ordinary, get it?
Cake makes good hair mask, it leaves your hair feeling ultra soft and silky (although I can't quite tell if it's the effect of over shampooing) but the 'scent', I tell you, will definitely last you a long way!
BETTY SAN I JUST GOT YOUR CARD IN THE PINK ENVELOPE! <3>
So yes, I guess I have to start from Saturday onwards because *ahem*
Saturday was volleyball day at UM and I was more or less, happily basking in reflected glory but there was this one person who seemed really happy the entire day because every time he came to speak to me, he was smiling from ear to ear.
(given his usual facial expression, him smiling so much was really odd, but I thought, maybe it's just the happy feeling from the bronze medal they won at football)
Yes, the person I am talking about is Ben (previously named Ben the goalie). Speaking of which, Jeff was also smiling a lot, so it now makes full sense!
Then later at night, Ivy pm-ed me saying :Hey, let's dress nice nice after sailing tomorrow okay? So I thought to myself, okay lah, no big deal, I have in previous cases asked her to dress up for no particular occasion either.
Then came Sunday, woke up to some commotion back home and then headed out for breakfast with the dad.
Got home, packed bag for sailing NOT SUSPECTING ANYTHING as yet.
Then Ivy came into the room, random chat while I continued packing. Then Mike came and knocked on the door and said "Ey, today Kevin driving, need to pass something to his friend".
SUSPICION BEGIN HERE!
But still, never mind. Then when I was about to step out of the house, the dad asked : What time are you coming home tonight?
(whoah, major giveaway cause he normally doesn't ask at all!)
So when I got into the car, I almost immediately said "Eh, today I got party is it?" The reply "No lah, you suspect what? U think too much already lah!"
Thus started the trio's ( Mike, Kevin and Ivy) lying series all the way to the club, all the while sailing, and all the way 'home'.
I even asked when sailing "Eh, so tonight I really got no party ah?" Someone, I cannot remember who, replied saying "Sail lah you, racing also think so much!''
Side note: Sailing really sucked yesterday! I was furious, 'why couldn't we perform'. But I am sorry for the foul language and the screaming. That aside, I pushed Kevin into the water yesterday. Sorry for that too! After all the 'hard work'!
So yeah. If it wasn't for the final LIE by the dear beloved Sharon Kong, I would have suspected all the way home. But no, her very real yet totally fake lie killed my suspicion almost totally.
Then also the phone call from the mom just as we were leaving the club, "You joining us for dinner?" I said "No", thinking about Sharon Kong's FAKE problem.
So after stopping at Mc D for ice cream in Port Klang and after overhearing the phone call conversation between Mike and a particular someone who got lost in Cheras and mentioned Carrefour - which I later found out was Ed (and girlfriend, Veen), I slept all the way 'home'.
When I woke up next, I asked Ivy, "Where are we ah?" She blankly told me "Orh, having dinner at Kev's mom's place."
So, Kevin turned into the back lane, remind you, no more suspicion already here, all thanks to the liar, ah Kong. Got off the car, then saw a Secret Recipe cake box in the kitchen, still did not raise any suspicion at all because Kevin so spontaneously said "Which customer got birthday today?"
I even happily said Hi! to his mom who also obviously already knew what was going on.
When I entered, wahlahh! Surprise surprise. The rest is history lah! The whole 'cake on hair and then floor story' I will skip.
But yes, it sure was a surprise and thank you all for making it a great one, love muchie! Not going to list down names lah, but those who came, those who couldn't make it, those who didn't know about it but wished you were there too while reading this, all the same, thank you!
Then again, the real date is the 5th of June which is.. 3 and a 1/2 days from now! :)
