Okay lah, it's the season to not feel happy.
Almost everyone I know is somehow feeling depressed, emo or just not happy.

I, is included.

I finally understood the analogy of "What has not begin cannot have an end."
But I really don't think it's the root of current evil.

I just argh, cannot stand it. Sinking into depression for not knowing why is just depressive.

Tried doing every possible thing, nothing seems to help. Nothing.

Ants seem to love every bit of my room and me. Which makes me feel like killing them all, and I will.

Gah, I never meant to stress on how depressive people can get but I think I just did.

Anyhow, I am not okay, just like most of everyone else. Help me? Please. Thank you.

How much weirder can things get?
Answer and see.

Haha...

Anyway, point of matter, I am officially healthy again! Wohoo!!
No more going to the hospital, no more blood test!! Hooray me!!!

Am off for a week, no outdoor activities = no training = what am I gonna do with myself this weekend?

Mid terms are er, next week or so... Oh no!
'River Flows in You' on repeat mode, not helping.

I uber like these photos.. Too bad Heng was.. elsewhere in the one above.
[The me being short part mmg can't be helped, so I gave up complaining]

Gah, things are just plain weird still.

So boreddddd.

Just 'cleaned' up some stuff in the room, unwanted items are now pilled up in one corner... Hm.. Random random items.

From a hair curler to hair products, books to posters, a Garfield phone and what not.. Oh even a froggie piggie bank!! I have no idea how I even have that to begin with. But yeah, time to get rid of it.

My only problem now is where.

WHY takde orang layan aku?! WHY?!

-__-

So bored so bored so bored.

Tmr shall be the day... Hoho. Sien ahhhh!!

It's time to grow up!

Really. =D

Finally I am back home!! =)

For those who visited me at the hospital, thank u so very much..
For those who sms-ed all the get well wishes, thank u u too,
And also thank you to all those who kept me in their hearts and in their prayers!

Well, technically, I am not well yet...
Still have to go back for blood test and a check up.
But it's good to be home. =)

So it's water, water, and water for me from now on...

Man! My body temperature hit 39 Celsius yesterday. The mom insisted I go to the clinic.

Doctor said I was having a high fever. (As if I don't know 39 Celsius is high lahhh). She also said that if my fever doesn't go down by Sunday, I need to be admitted to the hospital asap, because then I need to be tested for dengue. =/

Aiyerrrr, freaky lah!!!

So I said, "I die also will make sure I get better by tmr (which is today lah)". And hm, my fever has dropped a slight bit, but I think the mom is pretty determined to check me into the hospital to get a medical checkup.

Come to think of it, better safe than sorry also guar.. But blood test? Nvmd, I'll pass.

Okay, time for medication. Bye!

Apparently, Kevin Lim IS going for the China Olympics! His 4th Olympic to be exact.
Hm. Yup. Okay.

And argh, dunno lah. Have been on this on/off bengang mode for the past 2 or 3 days.

I hate hate hate having to deal with my phone lah.
Can't I just throw it away and buy a new one? Ugh. Yissssh.

And.i.hate.ants.too!

What?!
Why?!
How?!

Dunno dunno dunno dunno dunno dunno.

My next favourit-est word, dunno. But I am fine.

Hm. Double posting for the day. Dun care.

Feeling a lot better after cleaning up the room and after nicey shower. Results still are sucky, but what to do, bak (or is it "bah"?) kata Mandy 'nasi sudah jadi bubur', so.

Work harder from now onwards!

Now the 2 week long absenteeism is officially really freaking me out.

Biopysch mid term's gonna be in week 4!
And aku ada kat mana? Ada kat Terengganu.

Social psych mid term's in week 5! And Sukma would have just ended.
Means apa?

...aku boleh mati sudah.

Dunno tonight can sleep also or not.
*sighs*

Anyway, no point thinking too much also lah kan?!

hmm...

Re-living happier moments such as yesterday,

Sometimes, I really really don't know what I'll be without friends like you people.
Thank God for the friends I have. Really.

*wondering what's the right thing to do now*

Hm.

Dunno.

Don't know lah, see how lahhhh. =]

Fuck.

Damn.

Shit.

Results are out.

And obviously, I am not in a good mood.

I've got more reasons to feel pissed,

but I don't know.

Maybe it's just me today.

Kindly do not ask any further.

Arghhhh, damn shitty.

*continues cursing*

I feel better already. -__-

See, as I've already mentioned previously, I seem to have more to blog about when it's during the term period. Hm.

Today was just syiok lah I tell you... Haha.. For all I know, I've got more than I asked for.

The dad came back, and it being his birthday, we went out for dinner, I paid the bill..

Today also being the moms' day, we went to one u for a makeover cum photo shoot and some shopping was inevitable lah.

Midway thru the whole photo shoot thing, a lady pointed at me and my mom and said, 'You two look so alike!'
My reply was, 'How to not look alike, I am from her!'

You be the judge.

After makeover...

[these pics are from my cam,
the ones from the photo shoot are not available as they're in hard copies,
but if you ever come to my place, remind me to show them to you, we lagi look alike! omg.]

and one with the mom,

..guess now the mom has no chance of disowning me, heh, so I wasn't picked up from the rubbish bin after all. =P

Haha! Below are some of the things we purchased- for me and also have a new guest to welcome into my bag collection.. a pink United Colors of Benetton from the dad!

So happy. =D

Estee Lauder items. I don't know why we ended up purchasing them but who cares.. Haha!

My brand new Pink friend.

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Remember me saying something about needing a new watch?! This is why...

The butang dah cabut so water's getting into the screen compartment.

And Heng's gonna get me my new one, hah! So happy lah me today, maybe today shud just be my birthday instead.

How about I celebrate my birthday today from now on instead?! Beats not being around on the day itself.

I received the AdSense confirmation email few days back, but hm.. still no ads yet. Oh well.

Hm. This morning was what I would say, a real hurry. Haven't quite gotten use to not hitting the snooze button everytime I wake up. How? One more day of holiday left. =(

So yeah, was meant to be at Uni by 8 in the morning but when I eventually got off the bed, it was 7.55. And it was at 7.55 that I realised it was 7.55 already. So dead. Quickly sms-ed a friend telling her that I'd be slightly late. Brushed teeth and grabbed two slices of bread and my water bottle, took the car keys and off I went.

Arrived uni by 8.10am or so. =D
Benefit of living close to Uni.

Was due for a World Vision thingie at Kuala Pilah. Main purpose was to visit this Shemariah Home and interact with the kids there. Ah, massive massive jam on the highway there, trailer accident or something. Took us 3 hours plus just to get there. Horrible.

But we did have our fair share of fun in the van. 'Mind' games. Woh, I've never really appreciated the Singaporean sailors this much but yeah, owing to them, I kinda knew most of the games we played and didn't quite share the slightest bit of feeling not-so-smart along the way. Hah!

Hm. When we got there, it was performances by the kids and some activities lah. Won't elaborate much cause no1, I don't have any photos & no2, I dunno if it's me or what.. but, what else can you do at a shelter home that's out of the ordinary?!

Well, I'll talk about what I learnt and felt instead lah.

For starters, Miss Malaysia 2007, Deborah Henry was present. With Sam from 98.8fm. We all agreed that Deborah was downright pretty. Like really pretty pretty! Wait till I get my hands on the photos lah.

Yup. So apart from being so close to celebrities, I think the other amazing thing was that I actually kinda enjoyed myself. For the most of it, the kids couldn't catch was I was saying, neither could I engage in a proper conversation with any of them there.

I think it's more of the realization that people do appreciate it when others care. And because I have not exactly done anything for others out of pure wanting to do so. For the longest time I can remember, the last thing I did was to either please others or to fulfill something in return. Eg: working.

So finally doing something for someone else and not wanting / expecting anything in return was something refreshing to begin with. Yup. So utilitarian-ish!

The team members were a bunch of great people too. Am not saying this cause we're all from HELP but it is a matter of fact. Period.

Hm. Got home, spent some time in front of the tv, helped Heng wash the cars in the garage. Still dressed in the crazily over sized Psych Dept T-shirt and am to head out for dinner soon. Probably only shower when I get home lah. Hee~ I stink.

The dad's coming home tmr, and it's his birthday.
Tmr's also the mom's day.
Tmr's also the last day of the holidays.

Random note: I don't know why I tend to do things and only think about them after the event has taken place.
Note to self: Use the brain before, not after can?!

Ugh. So many things to do, so little time.

Oleh sebab ditag oleh seekor smurf yang bername Smurfy, post ini dalam BM.

Semalam aku teringin sangat post untuk kali kedua sebab ada inspirasi tapi tak jadi sebab teramat sangat malas. Hari ini pulak, inspirasi semalam sudah hilang sebab aku happy giler,
tadi gi shopping. =D

Cakap pasal shopping ni kan, aku ada banyak giler barang dalam bilik aku sampai aku nak hidu fresh air pun susah. Aku mesti kena bersihkan dan keluarkan barang barang yg dah tak digunakan lagi lah. Kalau tidak baik bilik aku jadi storeroom terus.

I nak buat room makeover!! Nak wardrobe baru, nak table baru, nak katil baru. Nak mcm yg aku lihat dalam mag Ikea.

Betz, jom!

Tapi kena tunggu ayah yg ada kat Europe balik dulu, tgk dia sanggup sponsor berapa. Harap harap lah, bilik aku boleh disiapkan by the time aku balik dari Terengganu.

Apa lagi ye.. Ah, dah, esok gi Kuala Pilah. Kerja. Harap segala-galanya untuk esok best ler.

Aku need a new watch lahhhh! Casio aku dah nak rosak dah. Sebab satu butang tu yg dah tanggal, skrg air semua masuk dalam cerminnyer. Aiseh. Tak sampai hati nak tinggalkan Casio pulak.

Seu! If u are reading this, can u please return me my shoes already?!

Tu je lah untuk hari ni. Kena kemaskan bilik lagi, selerak nak mampus.

Haha!

I spent most of my 12 hours working in BV today telling myself to smile (sincerely).
It was constantly, 'Think happy thoughts, think happy thoughts, think happy thoughts...' but I guess it didn't quite help much.

It was either the 'happy thoughts weren't very happy' which subsequently made the smiles seem fake OR people just weren't in the mood to buy stuff today.

I concluded that the happy thoughts weren't very happy to begin with. =[

But yeah, things did get better past the evening.

This was taken some time back, on Monday, I think.

And this was taken today. With Pat.

Conclusion from both photos:

I now know why people come to my stall and speak to me in Malay.

Hm... Yeah, so, apparently, sucky turned out to be not so sucky. Miracles do happen!

Anyway, the dad's in Europe as I speak and hm, he sent me a photo of him surrounded by snow! =[ wth.

Ugh, yeah. I had my threading (for the upper lip) and waxing combined with threading (for the underarms ) session a while back. Boy did it hurt! I was so close to telling the lady, 'Thank you very much but I think you may stop now, I can't take it anymore', but of course kenot lah, takkan leave half half right?!

And the people there are either expressionless or they just can't seem to attempt to make their customers feel a slight bit more comfortable. I tell you... I was almost about to cry, trust me, it was obvious, and she just kept going on, no smile, no words of consolation, no nothing. So.. ugh.

And the best thing is, when I got home, the mom happily handed me a letter from CLEO... stating that she had won me (cause she entered the contest using my name) a Strip Brazillian wax session worth RM114.40! How timely kan?! This offer is up for sale man! U want?! Cannn.

Pay lah, it's RM114.40. No kidding, I have to work for 2 days to get this amount okayy! And I can buy myself.. a lot of things with RM114 okayyy!

And I also happen to have this XOXO warehouse clearance sale coupon entitling you to a 50% VIP discount voucher, and another RM50 cash voucher. The sale is this weekend in Pelangi Promenade, in Klang. This one, if you are interested, you can have it for free. It's probably going to go into the bin if nobody's keen.

Remember me saying something about being in trouble?! Well, hell yeah I am in trouble. It's official.

SUKMA is going to be from the 3rd of June - 9th. There goes my 5th of June.
And, we'll be going earlier, because the host state happens to be organizing a pre-sukma event from the 26th of May, which will serve as my training for the actual SUKMA.

If you haven't still gotten the picture, let me clarify it for you.

I'll be away from the 26th of May till the 9th of June. THAT'S 2 WHOLE BL***Y WEEKS OF CLASSES! And shorts sem's makes 2 weeks equivalent to 4 weeks worth of classes! How sweet the smell of assignments and crap.

And if that isn't already sucky enough, I quote the mom "Hmm, good lah, so u spend your 20th sailing lah".

I feel like shooting myself. *bang*

If only life was that simple.

Why do I always end up making decisions without thinking one lehh?! Always the case. Never learn.

I was annoyed at myself for the most of yesterday. Horrible.

Racing was fine if you minus the consistent

"Jie, pull.. "
"Jie, loook what you're doing, too much..."
"Jie, mainsheeettt...."
"Jie... faster!"
"Jie... dump, boat heeling too much.."
Was put onto main sheet yesterday.

Wtf. Pissing me off. But yeah, what to do.
Mmg my fault.
-__-

Important note to self :
Stick to your own job.

And yeah, the club GM asked me to invite people to come for a day of fun sailing / cruising on the 17th of May (Saturday).

No fee required, just pay for your lunch which is highly unlikely to cost anything more than RM10 & for transport lah- petrol and toll OR you can opt to walk to Port Klang, entirely up to you.

(I guess I am still in a foul mood after all, but the invitation is indeed a hundred percent sincere)

Interested then give me a call or I dunno, leave-me-a-note-here-perhaps.. Bye!

Actually, seriously, I have nothing in mind at the moment. But, for the sake of updating and since it's my day off, I shall apply what I've been learning in classes and have been using much in exams..

Crap. =D

Hmm. Went for breakfast @ Starbucks with the parents and Wes this morning. Wanted to have the RM4.50 coffee + muffin promotion one, but yesterday was the last day of the promo. So sad, tmr have to go hunt for new lunch meal ady.

I tell you, FOS in BV really very sad one loh. They don't even hv a single black shorts! Wanted to get one cuz I have been wearing my brown one from Blook way too often. But they didn't have any at all... Heh. So managed to convince Wes to tag along for black shorts hunting along Telawi's while the parents 'chilled' at Starbucks.

Btw, did u know that there are 3 Starbucks in Bangsar?! Uhuh.

And so, long story short, spent 4 effin days worth of salary in aprrox 1 1/2 hours. Omg. Hou choi mummy ended up paying... *phew* I damn teruk lahhh, was supposed to clear my closets one lorhh. I so need to put a self imposed ban on shopping in Bangsar. Elo and Blook are just pure pure evil temptations I tell you.

But anyway, if anyone intends to shop at Blook any time soon, get the privilege card (I find it weird that they call it a privilege card when they require ppl to spend more than Rm100 in a single receipt to have one stamp and one has to collect 5 stamps before the end of June to redeem *something something*) from me first yeah?

Oh, and where was I again? Heh. Wes was a pretty good shopping partner. =) Better than Heng. =/

Anyway, yup. So much for a breakfast in Bangsar lahhh.

Figured my previous update on Tioman was significantly incomplete. So... more dirt to be exposed in this entry. =p (Okayy lah, dirt is a bit too harsh, more like 'less picture perfect' photos..)

To be very fair kan, I shall begin with a mildly retarded photo of myself in the bus. Long hair gone, it's now slightly shorter.

Ivy sponsored these!! These choco biscuits were damn damn syiok (to eat and play with)! Each had a different sport illustrated on it, there were repeats lah of course. They even had a sailing one loh! (but I couldn't find one for this photo)

Cool right?!

This one, I look like a guy. =/
I remember saying, 'Thank God I have boobs, or I'd be mistaken for a boy.' when I was browsing thru the pictures in the camera that night. And the rest laughed.
-_-

And next is where Mike got bitten by a fish, where Ivy became Boon Woei's heroin and where Kevin probably got burnt so badly, where Betz and I swam hands in hands in fear of the possible second fish attack, hmm, as for Sharon, I think she was somewhere around doing something lah... Hehe..

And then later that night...

What started out as a normal group photo...

Look at Betsy! Ish ish..

*shakes head*
Mike so teruk... Ish ish ishhh. Boon Woei's expression aso. Ish ish.
See, Ivy also mou ngan tai ahh!

It ended as this... Fortunately.

Of color codes.. =p At first, it was purely because they wore the same colors, but again, it ended up being a stream of funny poses and ideas.. Thanks to the not-so-innocent Ben Wei.



You go figure okayyy.. Unleash ur power of imagination...

*Am snacking on a Cinnamon (reminds me of Game Plan) roll while waiting for the next batch of photos to be uploaded*

Omg. I've been eating so much lately. 12 hours wor... When no customers, I eat. When it's meal time, I eat. When people come visit me at work and bring burger / pisang goreng for me, I eat. When the smell of freshly baked Aunty Annie's and Cinnabon comes floating by, I eat again. =/

Working is now officially bad for health, it promotes obesity! It sure has more cons than pros' I tell u. Back to Tioman story anyway..

Boon Woei being not-so-innocent again lah basically. Need I say more..
Oh no wait, I think he was really tearing lahh..
Sorry!

This, I don't know, haven't found a suitable caption except that I can't help wondering how Boon Woei knew he would be in the photo when he posed with the victory sign.

My constipated look. =D

Boon Woei's expression so 'genuine'. Can become celebrity ady, can sing can act!

Individual da tou tie's... (Direct translation from Chinese = big head stick)




I don't know why only my picture was taken horizontally while everyone else's was taken vertically. I feel so left out. =(

Who doesn't want to go home?

Me.

I told you Boon Woei isn't innocent. Now u believe me?

Wahhhh... Won't be posting anytime soon. =S
Bye.