An update, so cliche.

Yup, I was at the mercy of TMnet when the billing arrived with a figure of RM655 or so, unpaid.

Thus, the very looooong 4 days without the internet up until yesterday when I finally had the time to go to the Bangsar branch to get it all sorted. Yes, I have been busy!

Let's see, LAN on Friday when the line first got cut, weekends were well spent training and crashing into things, ie, boats, pontoon, rubbish, and buoys (pronounced as "boys" except it means very different things). And yeah, so, where was I?

I just finished Sex and The City. Apart from all the 18SG/SX whatever, I think it was an extremely good show. It talks about friendship, trust and forgiveness. Again, cliche but sometimes, we need obvious reminders in life. Don't you agree?

Beijing 2008 Olympics. Over. It was a good one. Made me think what is it that I actually want to achieve out of life. Another one of those thinking frenzy which contributed to my insomnia attacks since... 2 weeks ago.

Pangkor Laut is due in another 3 days, plus /minus. I can't wait! Semester is starting in another 6 days, this, I can wait.

Also, for those of you who don't already know, I had a hair cut. =)

And now, I know you can't wait to see me, right?! Good night.

What makes me happy.

DDR-ing makes me happy.
Hanging out makes me happy.
Going to pasar malam makes me happy.
Friends make me happy, they often keep me happy too.
Eating makes me happy.
Talking makes me happy.
Sunny days make me happy.
Rainy days make me happy.
Nice long baths make me happy.
Smelling nice and fresh makes me happy.
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Sometimes I truly wonder why people cry so easily when it's so much easier to be happy.

Anyway, like I said, I was purely tired and upset yesterday thus explaining the very frustrated post. Was thinking of deleting it but since I already posted it up, I figured, so be it. It's feels good to let it all out at once then to keep keeping it inside.

I was at the florist with the mom and Wes a few days back and I was thinking,

"A pretty bouquet of flowers would instantly make me go weak at the knees."

See, I am happy again! I told you so.

Can I cry, again?

"AI LI – you obviously need to rebuild your team around you"

I'll be damned if I don't already know that. Seriously.

I knew that since.. before Heng left, since I first knew that Heng was going off, since we first joined the squad. Like, of course I am aware of what I need to get done but bombarding my inbox and telling me what I need to do is not going to solve my problems neither is it helping...

It's not as easy as it looks. I am not complaining or maybe I am, but almost every minute of today has been spent thinking of what I should do. All I asked for was a break, to let me think things through.

I'm upset that things are so fucking messed up and unfortunately or fortunately so, I don't think it's any of our fault. Why must politics always get the upper hand?! Why must I end up taking all these shit when we were the ones who earned what we have today?!

No, I refuse to give in because I love what I do but this is a bit too much. Too much for me to handle in a day.

We're not your toys, we're not a bunch of youths whom you can instruct us around just as you wish, we're not stupid either. As much as I appreciate what has been done for us in the past, this is just.. not right.

* Dzof, you are probably reading this and you are probably gonna call me to talk about it. I can tell you here that I sincerely do not wish to talk about it and you can forget about even sending me a message because it will only freaking piss me off.

So, please, if you may, just leave whatever that is here to be here.

I know the emails were not sent to me to cause such a response. I know. Trust me. But, I am just tired and... angry. I am doing my best, I am, but it isn't easy. Just don't push me.

This is the second time in 2 days that my tear glands lost control over themselves. Maybe I need a shoulder to cry on. Maybe.

But I'll be alright, I know I will.

I think I..

.. need a break.

I need a break.I need a break.I need a break.I need a break.I need a break.I need a break.I need a break.I need a break.I need a break.I need a break.I need a break.I need a break.I need a break.I need a break.

I am allowed to wish, so I wish...

...

But the truth is, I've been doing nothing much. So, what's the break for? I have no idea. I just really don't feel like doing anything, thinking anything, saying anything, for that matter, typing anything.

Hm.

Dear Sharon,

Nah, there, told you!

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This is really freaky cause it just changed color when I went back after 5 mins!

Yikes??

I dislike it,

when fondness turns into liking,

and when liking turns into dependency,

and when dependency turns into an addiction.

Call it insecurity, for no matter how I see it,
it probably is.

Ahhhh. It is like, I tasted my first cup of coffee, and I liked it. So I drink more coffee and the more I drink, the better it tastes. And gradually, with a cup of coffee each day, I can have absolutely blissful 24 hours, everyday.

And so, when I don't get my coffee, my day is screwed, ultimately.

See, it sucks. Really. The whole cycle. =(

And the worst thing is, it has happened once too many times this year. And the best part is, it still happens. Ahhhh.

I dislike addictions.

10 statements for today.

- I've edited this twice already -
9. So if you're reading this, you're automatically nominated.

1. My physical condition is becoming a bit worrying. Massive hair loss, constantly feeling tired despite sufficient hours of sleep, numbness in my legs when I sit for a long period at one go, constant 'cracking of bones'. *When I say massive, I mean massive.

2. I absolutely love my RM2 black plastic slippers from Carrefour!

3. Read this month's MYC! Cool stuff. I read it during the first hour of class.

4. The remaining 2 hours, I was doodling in class because *ahem* someone went to work and did not show up for class.

5. I paid RM3 for parking. Ish. That's one thing I need to get used to for not having Heng around.

6. I finally handed in the proposal!

7. ...Now I need to get started with the write-up's. 3 of them to be exact.

8. The Secret Recipe in OUG is owned by a friend of mine. And I remember Mandy saying that that particular outlet serves the best tasting dishes!

9. If I take PSY209 next sem, I'll be seeing the same lecturer for 3 out of my 4 subjects!! =S

10. I need to save up / start working / get serious with life, so that I can spend my long holidays in Los Angeles next year!! Wohoo!!

There, 10 statements. And now, I 'nominate' 10 people to write 10 statements of their own.

1. Kevin Saw
2. Michael Wan
3. Sharon Kong
4. Chuah Boon Woei
5. Adam Di Di
6. Ivy Choong Li Li
7. Simmy Ng
8. I ran out of people to 'nominate' because I dunno who else actually reads my blog. And people like Betsy and Mandy are just too busy with work.
9. So if you're reading this, you're automatically nominated.
10. Yeah. You. Start writing.

Because I know you all very sien!