Only One Winner

Doesn't matter how hard you try. And what effort you make. And the things you do. Nothing counts anyway.

Ultimately, only one person emerges as the winner, and it'll never be me.

Every Now & Then: Trust

The higher up you get, the more you need to trust. Trust yourself to continue to do the right thing despite the pressure and expectations. Trust others that they too would do the right thing. And just trust in that trust.

So much of trusting business going around.

I don’t know if I am capable of that just yet.

Having worked 8 years of my life thus far, all my roles have been relatively easy come to think of it. Considering the fact that I was mostly in charge of just me, myself and I, and of course the work that I was tasked to complete.

It’s kind of – you just do what you got to do, do it well, deliver results and enjoy the process while you can. And repeat.

And it’s only recently that I have started to observe what it is like to be a boss. Or a superior.

When the story is no longer about just you. But larger than you. When for a fact, there is no way you can know every minute detail of how things are done. Where things are kept. Who does what and you just got to believe and trust that the people given their roles will do what is needed of them.

And not just that, but if you have tension among the team, disharmony (which has to be common), or underperforming but good intentions folks, what do you do? Turning a blind eye is not an option, but trying to resolve every conflict is just bound to tire you out and what happens to real work then? Who fixes those problems?

Evil, lazy and opportunistic bastards should just be fired. Definitely. But what if the evil, lazy and opportunistic fox actually is capable of work, but is a moral and emotional threat to the cohort? What then?

It’s at this precise moment where you probably find yourself walking the fine line of doing the right thing. What is the right thing?

I’m just glad I’m not there in life yet. Worry when it is my turn, then again, worry is for fools. I ain’t no fool.

I’m just tired from the day. Every now and then, I just get home so tired, for no apparent reason. And I just want to crash.

At least today I managed some coherent thoughts.

Life At Thirty

Why this is an important photo.

Because in our university group of friends, the 3 of us are based in Singapore together, and last week we were gathered at the airport to send Ivy off to Warsaw with her husband for their new adventure.

Who would've thought this this day would come when we were cramming for Research Methods and whatever else just 8 years ago?

So guys, really, you can plan life all you want, but speaking from experience, life is far from what we predict so live it up, and come what may.

Don't forget to smile a little, be kind to others, and be brave.

When Your Response Is A Standard - "I Am Okay"

People can be really mean sometimes. Without realising it.

 Someday (The Smile Has Left Your Eyes OST Part 1) - 이승열

"Don't trust people."

Maybe that would be easier.

Paper Crown

Paper Crown - Alec Benjamin

Just this today.

Be That Wild Child

Wild Child - Enya

Dinner snack (best) combination: Cream cracker + cream cheese spread + canned wasabi salmon.

I know. High in calories and low on nutrition. But man, I've not been on the healthiest dietary intake for awhile. Let alone minimal to zero exercise.

And while I can't seem to really be bothered, and just eat anyway, I sometimes am. Usually only when I see the bulge forming when I wear unforgiving dresses - which I should get rid off. LOL

Jacket weather. Umm nice. Explains why I got out of bed late today.

I should really go change into some gym clothes and at least attempt to sweat some. But even my attempt needs some attempting. How like that you tell me.

Ever close your eyes
Ever stop and listen
Ever feel alive
And you've nothing missing
You don't need a reason
Let the day go on and on

Let the rain fall down
Everywhere around you
Give into it now
Let the day surround you
You don't need a reason
Let the rain go on and on

What a day, what a day to take to
What a way, what a way to make it through
What a day, what a day to take to a wild child

Only take the time
From the helter skelter
Every day you find
Everything's in kilter
You don't need a reason
Let the day go on and on

Every summer sun
Every winter evening
Every spring to come
Every autumn leaving
You don't need a reason
Let it all go on and on

What a day, what a day to take to
What a way, what a way to make it through
What a day, what a day to take to a wild child

What a day, what a day to take to
What a way, what a way to make it through
What a day, what a day to take to a wild child

What a day, what a day to take to
What a way, what a way to make it through
What a day, what a day to take to

What a way, what a way to make it through
What a way, what a way to make it through
What a day, what a day to take to a wild child
What a day, what a day to take to a wild child

The Weather Today Is Beautiful

I wonder how will I conquer today?

Watched On Your Wedding Day in the cinema yesterday. I enjoyed it, but the show kind of sucker punched me in the end by not giving me the happily-ever-after ending I was hoping for. Then again, I guess it's a matter of maturity, from a certain perspective, it was a mature adult like ending. Not getting what you want in the end doesn't mean it was not a happily ever after?

To go see sunflowers, or not to?