Way Back Home - SHAUN
Not the best vocal, but, overall performance is at a 12/10 for me!
Literally got me ah Ohh~
Sunday, January 27
Saturday, January 26
What Do I Do At Home All Day Everyday?
The guys make Taekwondo athletes look like they were all meant to be kpop artists! My only gripe is how the little K-Tigers can afford to have blond hair (-__-)" something about that rubs me the wrong way.
I often get asked what I do in my free time in Singapore since I am living on my own, and not seeing anyone.
Firstly, I love being at home, where I mostly have everything I need (except food) and just not doing anything. It's therapeutic and personally, I think this helps me to recharge and keeps my sanity.
Secondly, I usually would find myself cleaning and tidying my space, this takes time and I love it when I'm done, and my personal space is squeaky clean.
Thirdly, now that I have super strong WiFi at my new rented place (YAY!), I stream a lot of youtubes. Random youtubes that make me fangirl over K-Tigers for instance. But as of late, I watch a lot of home decor clips and DIY stuff, not that I am into DIYing, but it's just cool to see what people can do with recycled or up-cycled stuff. Generally, videos that show how others make use of their small spaces fascinates me.
Yup, that's all for today!
Wednesday, January 16
People Who Want To Be There, Will Be There
I am a little under the weather. But I am just glad this virus is only attacking now and not while we were racing in Langkawi last week.
I wonder if I'll be better after sleep?
Anyway. In line with the theme of needing to belong and accepted, to be liked, I realised that my general well-being the past couple of weeks have much to do with my little new year resolution.
There was this one incident in 2018 that had left a nasty aftertaste in my thirties. Long story short, I concluded that if a friend is too busy to make time for me, then so be it. I wouldn't need their friendship anyway.
At the end of 2018, I decided that well, it's a new year, it's time to forgive, forget and plus, it's not like I've been a perfect friend either. So, I made a mental note that I will put in more effort to keep in touch and/or spend time with people I've conveniently and some I strategically lost touch with.
So when 2019 came along, I embarked on a mini get-in-touch-with-friends-I've-lost touch-with project. I texted several friends and out of 5 people, probably 3 people hadn't responded to my attempts of getting in touch.
I admit, I was super bitter about it and really did question myself - Did I offend them? Did I wrong them without realising it? Have I done something I should be apologising for? If not, why are they not responsive to me?
And yes, I have an innate need to be liked, so, people not responding to me, I took as rejection and this surprisingly affected me more than I would have liked.
But today, I came across a revelation. It occurred to me that some people, even if you wanted them in your life, they don't. People have to want to be in your life before it can happen. And you just can't force it.
Some people will come, linger and go. That's fine.
Some people will not come, even if you tried. And that's fine too.
The bottom line is, people who want to be in your life will make that effort to be there.
There's really no use second guessing.
So, I have decided to not mop over those people who have decidedly not reply my messages, who have for whatever reason decide that I am not worth their time.
I am at peace and it's okay.
I wonder if I'll be better after sleep?
Anyway. In line with the theme of needing to belong and accepted, to be liked, I realised that my general well-being the past couple of weeks have much to do with my little new year resolution.
There was this one incident in 2018 that had left a nasty aftertaste in my thirties. Long story short, I concluded that if a friend is too busy to make time for me, then so be it. I wouldn't need their friendship anyway.
At the end of 2018, I decided that well, it's a new year, it's time to forgive, forget and plus, it's not like I've been a perfect friend either. So, I made a mental note that I will put in more effort to keep in touch and/or spend time with people I've conveniently and some I strategically lost touch with.
So when 2019 came along, I embarked on a mini get-in-touch-with-friends-I've-lost touch-with project. I texted several friends and out of 5 people, probably 3 people hadn't responded to my attempts of getting in touch.
I admit, I was super bitter about it and really did question myself - Did I offend them? Did I wrong them without realising it? Have I done something I should be apologising for? If not, why are they not responsive to me?
And yes, I have an innate need to be liked, so, people not responding to me, I took as rejection and this surprisingly affected me more than I would have liked.
But today, I came across a revelation. It occurred to me that some people, even if you wanted them in your life, they don't. People have to want to be in your life before it can happen. And you just can't force it.
Some people will come, linger and go. That's fine.
Some people will not come, even if you tried. And that's fine too.
The bottom line is, people who want to be in your life will make that effort to be there.
There's really no use second guessing.
So, I have decided to not mop over those people who have decidedly not reply my messages, who have for whatever reason decide that I am not worth their time.
I am at peace and it's okay.
Tuesday, January 15
Monday, January 14
Rejection & Failure
I don't take to losing, rejection and failure well.
Never did and it's still a hard pill for me to swallow at thirty.
But, life does have the tendency to teach you lessons one way or another.
I often doubt that I'm a good person. But at almost the same time, I don't think I am a terrible person. Maybe I'm just somewhere there in the middle.
And while being in the middle doesn't necessarily mean a bad thing, it's kind of like, you're not succeeding, but you're not failing either. You're kind of not losing, but not winning either. You're kind of being rejected, but being accepted all the same.
Why is state such a confusing state to be in. Being stuck in a rut, and not knowing the correct way out.
Never did and it's still a hard pill for me to swallow at thirty.
But, life does have the tendency to teach you lessons one way or another.
I often doubt that I'm a good person. But at almost the same time, I don't think I am a terrible person. Maybe I'm just somewhere there in the middle.
And while being in the middle doesn't necessarily mean a bad thing, it's kind of like, you're not succeeding, but you're not failing either. You're kind of not losing, but not winning either. You're kind of being rejected, but being accepted all the same.
Why is state such a confusing state to be in. Being stuck in a rut, and not knowing the correct way out.
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