An update, so cliche.

Yup, I was at the mercy of TMnet when the billing arrived with a figure of RM655 or so, unpaid.

Thus, the very looooong 4 days without the internet up until yesterday when I finally had the time to go to the Bangsar branch to get it all sorted. Yes, I have been busy!

Let's see, LAN on Friday when the line first got cut, weekends were well spent training and crashing into things, ie, boats, pontoon, rubbish, and buoys (pronounced as "boys" except it means very different things). And yeah, so, where was I?

I just finished Sex and The City. Apart from all the 18SG/SX whatever, I think it was an extremely good show. It talks about friendship, trust and forgiveness. Again, cliche but sometimes, we need obvious reminders in life. Don't you agree?

Beijing 2008 Olympics. Over. It was a good one. Made me think what is it that I actually want to achieve out of life. Another one of those thinking frenzy which contributed to my insomnia attacks since... 2 weeks ago.

Pangkor Laut is due in another 3 days, plus /minus. I can't wait! Semester is starting in another 6 days, this, I can wait.

Also, for those of you who don't already know, I had a hair cut. =)

And now, I know you can't wait to see me, right?! Good night.

What makes me happy.

DDR-ing makes me happy.
Hanging out makes me happy.
Going to pasar malam makes me happy.
Friends make me happy, they often keep me happy too.
Eating makes me happy.
Talking makes me happy.
Sunny days make me happy.
Rainy days make me happy.
Nice long baths make me happy.
Smelling nice and fresh makes me happy.
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Sometimes I truly wonder why people cry so easily when it's so much easier to be happy.

Anyway, like I said, I was purely tired and upset yesterday thus explaining the very frustrated post. Was thinking of deleting it but since I already posted it up, I figured, so be it. It's feels good to let it all out at once then to keep keeping it inside.

I was at the florist with the mom and Wes a few days back and I was thinking,

"A pretty bouquet of flowers would instantly make me go weak at the knees."

See, I am happy again! I told you so.

Can I cry, again?

"AI LI – you obviously need to rebuild your team around you"

I'll be damned if I don't already know that. Seriously.

I knew that since.. before Heng left, since I first knew that Heng was going off, since we first joined the squad. Like, of course I am aware of what I need to get done but bombarding my inbox and telling me what I need to do is not going to solve my problems neither is it helping...

It's not as easy as it looks. I am not complaining or maybe I am, but almost every minute of today has been spent thinking of what I should do. All I asked for was a break, to let me think things through.

I'm upset that things are so fucking messed up and unfortunately or fortunately so, I don't think it's any of our fault. Why must politics always get the upper hand?! Why must I end up taking all these shit when we were the ones who earned what we have today?!

No, I refuse to give in because I love what I do but this is a bit too much. Too much for me to handle in a day.

We're not your toys, we're not a bunch of youths whom you can instruct us around just as you wish, we're not stupid either. As much as I appreciate what has been done for us in the past, this is just.. not right.

* Dzof, you are probably reading this and you are probably gonna call me to talk about it. I can tell you here that I sincerely do not wish to talk about it and you can forget about even sending me a message because it will only freaking piss me off.

So, please, if you may, just leave whatever that is here to be here.

I know the emails were not sent to me to cause such a response. I know. Trust me. But, I am just tired and... angry. I am doing my best, I am, but it isn't easy. Just don't push me.

This is the second time in 2 days that my tear glands lost control over themselves. Maybe I need a shoulder to cry on. Maybe.

But I'll be alright, I know I will.

I think I..

.. need a break.

I need a break.I need a break.I need a break.I need a break.I need a break.I need a break.I need a break.I need a break.I need a break.I need a break.I need a break.I need a break.I need a break.I need a break.

I am allowed to wish, so I wish...

...

But the truth is, I've been doing nothing much. So, what's the break for? I have no idea. I just really don't feel like doing anything, thinking anything, saying anything, for that matter, typing anything.

Hm.

Dear Sharon,

Nah, there, told you!

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This is really freaky cause it just changed color when I went back after 5 mins!

Yikes??

I dislike it,

when fondness turns into liking,

and when liking turns into dependency,

and when dependency turns into an addiction.

Call it insecurity, for no matter how I see it,
it probably is.

Ahhhh. It is like, I tasted my first cup of coffee, and I liked it. So I drink more coffee and the more I drink, the better it tastes. And gradually, with a cup of coffee each day, I can have absolutely blissful 24 hours, everyday.

And so, when I don't get my coffee, my day is screwed, ultimately.

See, it sucks. Really. The whole cycle. =(

And the worst thing is, it has happened once too many times this year. And the best part is, it still happens. Ahhhh.

I dislike addictions.

10 statements for today.

- I've edited this twice already -
9. So if you're reading this, you're automatically nominated.

1. My physical condition is becoming a bit worrying. Massive hair loss, constantly feeling tired despite sufficient hours of sleep, numbness in my legs when I sit for a long period at one go, constant 'cracking of bones'. *When I say massive, I mean massive.

2. I absolutely love my RM2 black plastic slippers from Carrefour!

3. Read this month's MYC! Cool stuff. I read it during the first hour of class.

4. The remaining 2 hours, I was doodling in class because *ahem* someone went to work and did not show up for class.

5. I paid RM3 for parking. Ish. That's one thing I need to get used to for not having Heng around.

6. I finally handed in the proposal!

7. ...Now I need to get started with the write-up's. 3 of them to be exact.

8. The Secret Recipe in OUG is owned by a friend of mine. And I remember Mandy saying that that particular outlet serves the best tasting dishes!

9. If I take PSY209 next sem, I'll be seeing the same lecturer for 3 out of my 4 subjects!! =S

10. I need to save up / start working / get serious with life, so that I can spend my long holidays in Los Angeles next year!! Wohoo!!

There, 10 statements. And now, I 'nominate' 10 people to write 10 statements of their own.

1. Kevin Saw
2. Michael Wan
3. Sharon Kong
4. Chuah Boon Woei
5. Adam Di Di
6. Ivy Choong Li Li
7. Simmy Ng
8. I ran out of people to 'nominate' because I dunno who else actually reads my blog. And people like Betsy and Mandy are just too busy with work.
9. So if you're reading this, you're automatically nominated.
10. Yeah. You. Start writing.

Because I know you all very sien!

Sigh.

So only one person bidded. RM300,000, and that was by my one of my closest pals, Mandy. Ish. Wo mei you peng you, I got no friends lah. =(

Oh well. So today was a 'eventful' day I suppose. Woke up, watched Numb3rs on AXN (Charlie Epps is super cute when he literally, talks Maths, though I barely get 80% of what he says most of the time, I still adore him. And I simply love it when the brothers argue).

I then watched the Olympics whereby I finally witnessed Michael Phelps's amazing feat.

TIME magazine?! Okay.

Drooling- Yes? No?
Drooling definitely. Tell me you're not and you're lying.
If you're a guy then you are excused lah. Or else it'll be plain weird.

* It sure doesn't look like him when I compare pictures in the papers. But oh well, I got those from Google.

No kidding, 11 Olympic gold medals! How in the world do they train to be THAT good?! Super athletes. Sheesh. I super jealous. Super!

On a side note. Earlier today, I was thinking.

"Damn, Malaysia doesn't even have one freaking medal! How can?!?! What are these people doing there?"

Then I thought,

"Who am I to say anything when I am sitting in front of the TV while the people there, well, at least they got there!"

So conclusion is, let's not make any judgments based on how the contingent performs and let's not result to giving harsh criticism without thinking how much effort they have put in for the games. Before we even think of putting them down, we might as well think of what have we done.

Make any sense to you??

Okay. I don't really wanna know if that made any sense to you ler but if you do have some spare time, probably give it some thought lah.

So, I cleaned and scrubbed the toilet, I wrote dozens of emails, I replied dozens of emails, after which I went to fetch Wesley from school and I 'met' some friends while waiting. Coincidence(s) that takes place in life. Then we drove to the optician, collected his glasses, after which we went to MV's to watch Dark Knight (again). This time, free tickets though.

Hm. Popcorn's are giving me a sore throat. Seriously.

After that hor, came home, fried eggs, re-heated yesterday's fried rice and had our mini pathetic dinner. =S Mom came home, helped finish up the remains of our mini pathetic dinner and just before I left to fetch Wes to tuition, she suggested we go check out the Metrojaya sales in BV II.

So, off we went! And because I was in a hurry, I ter-slammed my lappie a bit too 'roughly' and now, it's... cacated. I dunno how to explain ler, basically, it's like, you can't sit straight because you injured ur back bone. Get the picture? So point is, buy me a new one, somebody?? Anybody?? I still like pink ALOT.

Back to my eventful day anyway, by the time we got to BV, they were already closing down. So the mom decided we should just go walk around in Telawi. So we walked and walked and walked and I think probably lost 2 kg's. Yay me. Not.

That's about the end of my eventful day except... I still have not showered today!! Nyahhahha.

I am annoyed,

because I am doing things for the wrong reasons.

And that is something that scares me a tad bit too. I mean, you do something to achieve something or for a specific reason, right?! But now, I do something for a wrong reason. Like how? I don't exactly know. It just doesn't feel very right, and that upsets me quite a bit.

By the way, mom said if I could "auction" myself off for RM800, she'll buy me and Wesley a puppy. So start bidding so that I can have a puppy!

In return, I'll buy you McD ice cream cone okay?! =D
I happy, you happy; you happy, I also happy!!

* I am thinking she probably wouldn't really sell me off lah. So just "bid" and "when someone bids RM800", I'll get my puppy!! No harm done on your side.

... Also, to see how much I am 'worth' ler. Nyahhaa!!

I know I said I am not gonna shop because I am just way too broke, I know I also said that I am only gonna go window shopping. I am sorry to disappoint YOU and MYSELF because I couldn't resist everything that was on sale just now. =(

I really should never bring my CC along when I say I am going to window shop. Now I feel like slapping myself but oh well, as least I am satisfied. Hehe.

Futsal this morning was an opportunity to finally give my limbs some exercise. Except I barely broke a sweat. Hm. Scary ler. Playing with people who are good at it makes me feel lousy already, playing with people who are very good at it makes me feel like... a total noob, which without doubt, I am. =S

Anyhow, it was good fun lah.

Heng's in Los Angeles already, just so you know. =)

Women smell.

Ok, that was an attempt to directly translate the Chinese equivalent of "nu ren wei". Maybe "women scent" sounds better after all. Neh.

So this was how I came about that. During my facial today, I was asked if I wanted to have my eyebrows trimmed. So I figured, might as well, free mah!! BUT I definitely remember saying "siu siu gao le" (little bit enough already)!!

She dunno trim for how long... 2 minutes plus, so instinctively, I got a bit worried. Then when she started CUTTING my eyebrows, I beh tahan edi, so I opened my mouth and said: Are you cutting my eyebrow?! I said trim a bit only!! What are you cutting?!?!

Her response was: Bu yao dan xin, xian zai bi jiao you nu ren wei liao lor... (don't worry, now you got more women scent / more feminine edi lor)

She showed me my reflection in a portable mirror and the first thing I could think of was : It'll grow back, it will. IT BETTER.

I am so never gonna have my eyebrows trimmed ever again by her!! Cannot understand a little bit is it?! And I vowed not go out until it grows back, but I guess that's impossible. So please be nice and pretend not to see anything different when you next see me alright?!

I thank you very sincerely from the very bottom of my heart.

I think 20 is the right age whereby people (particularly girls) start wanting to be recognized as "being younger" than they really are. You know how we always wanted to be 18 when we were 8 and how we always wanted to be 20 when we were 10?! Yeap. I think we stop wanting to become older when we get to 20!!

... Random hor.

SALE(s) is a word... I hate to love & would love to hate. =S

Thing ryhmes with think!

"Maybe it's suggesting one to think of things. Maybe that's why I feel as though my head is about to explode cause it's thinking about too many things at one go."

If you missed the official opening of the Beijing Olympics yesterday, I can tell you that it was nothing but SPECTACULAR, MAGNIFICENT, and absolutely breathtaking! The drums in the very beginning was... beyond awesome! The lighting of the Olympic torch... the little kid in the march past who stood beside Yao Ming... the whole thing simply a once in a lifetime experience!

I think it might still be on replay on the Astro channels. Go catch it alright!

Anyway, if you're bored and dying to try something new. Try this.
* If you're anti guns OR blood then maybe not. =)
** Best played with ear phones on!!

	Stick Stress Relief Game
	Game Instructions:Use your mouse to aim and click to shoot.Press 1,2, or 3 to choose weapon.Shoot…
More Shooting Games

... syiok boh?? =)

Got a lunch date to attend. Sayonara!!

8-8-08

Babies born today get their faces spread all over the newspapers! ...What?!

If it even qualifies as ''baby publicity'', I think babies born in my batch are the ones that deserve it most. Hey, 8-8-88 okay! Heh, so what's so great about 8-8-08?!

Anyway, the original title of this post- as I was 'constructing' while in LAN class earlier was initially meant to be: Irresponsible Asshole. But, considering that asshole apologized, I shall not degrade him as I had originally planned to.

The story is somewhat of him agreeing to do the presentation while the rest of us were in charge of finding information for the slides. So, so happened today, when class started, that guy was no where to be seen. So I thought to myself, oh well, he's always late anyway..

At 4, still not here yet, so I sms-ed him. No reply.
At 4+, I figured I should just call. No one picked up!
At 4++, I called again. This time, it got through, but guess what?! The conversation that took place is somewhat similar to the below:

Me: Ey, u coming for class or not one?!
Him: Har? Ey, I am in a seminar now lah, I told xxx I not coming today.
Me: WHAT?! You know u are presenting today right??
Him: I in seminar now lah, cannot come for class.
Me: Huh? Then what about our presentation??
Him: Har, I seminar lah, cannot come...
Me: Then did you inform the lecturer?
Him: No..

I was so pissed I would have said into the phone: U f*cking get here now lah wtf.
But no, I passed to phone to Kevin and asked him to do the talking.

So yeah, basically, all he knew how to say was, I IN SEMINAR NOW, NOT COMING FOR CLASS.

Freaking asshole I tell you. If you knew you were going to be in a seminar then don't freaking VOLUNTEER yourself to do the presentation. And if you are freaking not going to show up, the least you could have done was send us an sms. And if you had some sense left in you, you freaking should have at least informed the lecturer that YOU WERE JEOPARDIZING YOUR WHOLE GROUPS RESULTS BY BEING ABSENT WHEN PRESENTATION WAS DUE.

I was honestly so pissed! So pissed that I sent him an sms telling him to screw himself. I absolutely DO NOT tolerate irresponsibility.

Anyhow, that sms of mine managed to get him to response with a very apologetic message saying: I know I deserve no forgiveness... da da da..

So well, I decided to not disclose who that fella is. For those who know, well, good for you. Don't ever entrust an important task to this dude or I can assure you, mission is bound to fail or for that matter, be aborted.

Just needed to get it out.. Now that I am done with that, fellow people, it's the opening of the Beijing Olympics tonight! Go watch it on TV alright! =D

And I have no idea why the mom is giving me a cold shoulder now.. It was so not my fault and she knows it.

Life is just so... unfair.

Truth is..

... I am reluctant to write about Cambodia or upload any photos mainly because Heng has already done so on Facebook. But then again, the beloved brother of mine only uploaded the ugly and nonsense ones of me.. So, a short picture post to justify that I am not as bad as he sometimes portrays me to be.

Oh, another reason simply being, I don't know where to start from plus, it's mostly about Angkor Wat and its history and yada yada yada and I have no intention of making u guys go to sleep. (wow! that's 3 'and's' in the sentence)

So the nicer photos, with minimal captions cuz I am lazy. Neither are they in chronological order! =)

Mimicking Aspara dancers.
So adorable right my brothers?

Wesley's work of art with the remains of watermelon slices.

With the mom who just became a member of the Facebook community! Wow right?!

With the mini Heng on a tuk tuk ride to town.

With the dad and Heng's hand on the tuk tuk after their 2USD haircut.

Lunch after 'shopping' at the Old Market in town.

From left to right : Angkor beer, Apple shake, Grenadine mocktail, Angkor sunset and Angkor beer again. No points for guessing which drink was whose.

The very interesting Dead Fish Restaurant. Must visit when in Siem Reap, musttt!

The dad learning or rather trying to be... a farmer dude.

The Angkor Wat. Love the contrasting colors!

Nice tuk tuk uncle and his tuk tuk in front of the Tara Angkor Hotel.

Ending with a family shot.
THE END.

Life since...

Ivy's visit to get some items from me in the afternoon yesterday was the first of its kind! It was fun being able to play dolling up with a real human and not with Barbie's, for that matter.

* Ivy, how was the photoshoot?! *

Dinner with Betsy at Hot Choco was boring minus the conversations. The food did not live up to its expectations, definitely not for the price we paid. Well, thank God for good company. Mahjong later on at Wen's place proved to be 'beneficial' as at least now I, more or less, can play mahjong!

Jap lunch earlier with Betz and Michael was something I would give 9/10. Price was good, portion was good, tasted pretty good I think! Except that they charge a freaking 50cents for a napkin!!!!!!!!!!!! LOL.

That's pretty much all I've been doing for the past two days. Minus all the hours spent out of the house, all remaining hours are spent on the couch in front of the TV, in front of the public lappie since mine isn't back yet and... sleeping.

I've still got a pretty good amount of items on my to-do-list. I need volunteers!

...to help spring clean my currently very messy and junk-overloaded home.

Really!

Back from Cambodia..

... and happy to be back.

One for the time being. Hardly took any individual ones cause it was the 'family vacation'. LOL.

Uhm anyway.. This was taken by Heng in this place called Dead Fish where we had dinner one night. The interior was pretty amazing...

(to be continued some other time lah)

Anyway, just to let you peeps know that I am back and alive, no landmines exploded!